Sunday, June 30, 2002
bah.... someone help. i am thoroughly pissed. -sobb-- i hate being piss lor. its so unbecoming.. i feel like cursing and swearing. i feel like beating someone up. argh! now, why am i pissed? cos i was provoked. yes, those who know me know not to provoke me. it isnt very nice. my sisters shd know. haha~ (ooh..someone nice has just came online. i hope i feel a little better) hmm... i'm suppose to tell my sister wad i want. so dj, if you ever read this, here it goes. 1. i want a korea jersy. preferbly no 14, 19 or 1. or perhaps just a reds shirt. 2. i want a vodafone jersy. preferbly a white one with a collar. or a gold one. 3. i want a new leotard. pref a strapy one. 4. shoes. track shoes. with a white base. my black ones are quite hard to match. pref nort nike. 5. sandals. dress and casual. 6. some new makeup. pref new eye shadow. i'm getting sick of my old ones. and maybe summore mascara. in diff colours. and of cos glitter. 7. hats. any kind. i'm easy. .................i guess tt's all i really need/want now. yupp. dont feel so piss anymore. -phew-- looking at tt colourful blob makes it better. reminds me of nanafu. so cutee!! and of clara too. claudia never pisses me off. tt's so great. fat bulc. i'll always remember tt k. her fav quote. and the look on her face when she does stoopid things.
lalala... feel so much better now. listening to butterfly now. so soothing. think tt the guy is real charming. talented too. mark's friend rite? -shrug- ah...his voice is nice. the song is nice. nice words, nice tune, nice instrumentation. tt is one talented guy. -unwindd-- and he's ling jia one too! ahah ahah ahahaha
thought of a name fer tt lil` cutie below. fat bulc. nice rite?
lil`...lil` love tt world. rings in my head. esp the way anastasia says it. oh help. i'm going crazy. shall sign off now. yeabba~~
Friday, June 28, 2002
hey everybody!! look at this! isnt it cuteee? ok, it needs a name. i shall give it one. any ideas?
Wednesday, June 26, 2002
bah.. had my orals todae. speaking chinese makes me tired. it drains off all my energy. but i like it. chinese is a nice language, rather beautiful in fact. but my orals were horrible. the passage wasnt particularly difficult. but when i read it out loud, i was just too scared. quite dissapointed with myself a actually. i paused twice to recompose myself before i continued. the teacher was like telling me nort to be nervous and stuff. she was pretty cool bout it, smiling and all. but i know tt there goes like half my marks. -breathe-- i had a teacher from rgs and one from chinese high. dunno who was who. my conversation was ok.. i pretty much relaxed when i started to speak properly. and i think it was nort tt bad. pretty fun to tell you the truth.. i was smiling and laughing when i came out. and i used one cheem word. san si er xing :) but why couldnt i read properly like i did in school? like i did fer the school oral? like i do normally? even though my reading isnt perfect, at least i didnt stutter and pronouce all the words wrongly and saying them in the wrong order and stopping every now a nthen to take a deep breath. sigh. i can only count on god to help me now. the whole thing is in his hands..
yesh, i shd stop worrying. wo zai ye bu yong jiang hua yu le. wo ye hen xing fu you fei chang hao de pen you - wo de qing ai de, da nui cui, bu dong shui, hai you wo ban shang de tong xue, lao shi...wo ma ma.
Monday, June 24, 2002
lalala...
still have my hol homework to clear. came bak at like eight todae. shiokk... todae as i was walking home i didnt think bout anastasia. i mean i was reminded la. but i didnt feel sad! thought of the time when i walked home at twelve forty five, the time when i reached home at ten thirty cos we took a three hour dinner after class, the nights we walked under the stars at chinese high at ten. ah...the night sky brings nostalgia. but todae it was different somehow. a stillness i never felt before. there was no sweet jasmine scent lingering in the air. there was no night breeze. the air was all warm and humid, not its usual cool and refreshing self. the streetlamps todae didnt remind me of tt sad song. there were few stars overhead. and my...the moon was really big and round. it was practically glowing!
tinkering on the piano ish much fun! i enjoyed myself for an hour and a half just now. -cuRtseYy --
Wednesday, June 19, 2002
16
I act like I'm 16.
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tt's rite. yeahh......
why am i still up? why? cos i have to finish my homework. yes, all of it. and so far i've done two questions. yes, only two. since ten this morning. tt's pathetic. yes, it is..very.
phew. just played a zillion neopet games and won about two thousand points. funne! but now i have a zillion physics questions staring back at me. sigh. still have a whole bunch of work to do. i want to cry. planned to finish all of it todae plus go fer a jog. but i did neither. ahh!! and i'm going out fer the whole dae tmrw and going fer camp till school starts. oh help. it is times like these where i need a boyfriend. someone to do my work for me.
ooh, just remembered wad i promised myself. i will agree to the next person who asks me. sadly, i didnt. was like...dont want la, dont want la. bahh... i dui bu qi zi ji. think i was quite bad. but i really wasnt in the mood to talk bout such stuff. wrong time la i guess. sorry. -inno- but its like all my own stoopid fault. on the way home i started thinking bout all the wrong things. yes, you know wad it is. then i felt so lousy and empty. had the sudden urge to call my peter parker. but obviously i didnt. couldnt bring myself to face reality. all sort of crazy thoughts just flew around my mind, bouncing off the walls. -blinkk- when i got on the 855, everyone was staring at me. esp these two gurls. they dont look the least bit familiar but they stared at me like hungry hawks, as if they remembered me from somewhere. creepy. did i really look tt bad?
sigh, peter parker is making me miserable. snapped at aaron tt dae. was in a really bad mood. ever had one of those daes where sad thoughts envelope you, filling you, drowning you? well, it was like that for me. i needed an outlet for all the steam. and it happen to be the one who irritated me. sorriieeee~ felt horrible after tt. why must all the rubbish like this happen to me?!? oh helpp.
eng vocab (done!)
eng oral
amath - vectors
ss exam paper (done!)
ss workbook (done!)
phys 37 ques more
chem ws (done!)
bio 2 essays
Tuesday, June 18, 2002
omg! korea just won!! yeah!! i love them k. esp ahn jung hwan. he's so cute!! like the cutest one there is. plus he scored the winning goal!! yeabba! j.h ahn. j hahn. j hahn. mr hahn. joseph hahn! yeahh!! haha. i was like shouting my head of.."mr hahn!! joseph hahn!!" and rolling about laughing around. then my mum gave me a stare when i said joseph. i mean...wth. dont tell me she's got suckered in by the rumours too. heck, korea won!!! told ya they would win!! they rawk!! told ya they were better than japan. they really rawk! yeah!! but of cos they would win. i watched this match waddd... haha~ -i am losing my top-- korea won! woohoo!!!
oh, number 14's nort bad too. quite cute. -wink--
Monday, June 17, 2002
yuk! dont touch me. get ur hand off. puke!! ah, help..
bah, didnt know medicine was tt expensive. it nearly wiped me out. and after my sentosa outing, i was practically broke cept fer my hidden money. my mum was so reluctant to give me my week's allowance. kept telling me tt i must learn to live within my budget and dunno wad crap. i mean, helllooo... i lived an extra week on my previous week's allowance. i think i'm well within my budget..so just give me da money and dont talk so much. :0 haha~ my mum cheated me ten dollars. lousy poopy.
joseph ish a lousy poopy too. say he'll come and in the end didnt turn up. maybe i'll have to call him to wake him up again. sighh. :( ah, maybe he had a late nite out. yesh, maybe tt's it. heh heh. -beam- hmm... yh has white hair and so does mx. gosh! these pple must really been studying alort. pressure, pressure..i can feel the pressure. ahh!! just hope none of those strands grow out of my head. i'll just die! really wanted to pluck those eyesores out. but none of 'em would let me. :(
okae...mummy says its late now and i have to wake up at seven to get a lift from daddy (ooh, i bought smth fer him todae. went out and got this mini pencil holder, only its for paperclips and erasers..the mini version. and i fabric-painted stuff on it in green. hey, it was the only colour i could find! -shRug-) tomorrow. so i guess i shall be good and listen. and go off now. but definately nort sleep yet. yeaa
`nite world.
Wednesday, June 12, 2002
ooh! using my dad's laoptop now. guessed his password and got it right on the first try. am i great or wad? haha~ hmm... its raining now. boo.. was suppose to go plae pool with my cousin todae but in the end we ended up watching world cup. becks ish cute. and teddy just rawks! my cousin aka mr hahn has cambodia germs and i came up with a theory of how he would be cured by eating. because it would build up his immune system and yada yada yda.. my stuff ish still at pam's house. it has been a supa long time already. wonder when i'm gonna get it all back, rite pam? hiakhiak.
i have just confirmed tt i'm going to rj if i ever qualify. just so tt i get to see my cousin everydae and toment him. -huff and puff--
i shd prolly go sleep now. i've run out of things to do. but i'm soo awake. bahh..
maybe i'll go run at six instead. five too dark already and my house will prolly still be all locked up. yupp.. maybe there'll be something nice on to watch now.
nite world!
bah. i'm the like only one online now? everyone deserted me. -pOut!-
shd get some work done. just realised tt i have loads of it! so proud of sihuan, she finished most of it. yeah! -patpat-- hmm...suppose to wake up at five to run. then go airport at seven. then my cousin's house at nine. hope i have enough energy. shit, still have worship to prepare soon. and i dunno wad slow songs to sing. any sugestions?
listening to sihuan's song now..
wo xiang jiu ze yang qian ze ni de shou bu fang kai
ahh!! help.. i was writing an entry bout my psuedo stalker and my mum read it. help!! nort only tt, but everything else including all the 'other' ones! oh gosh..............
i feel lyke digging a whole and hiding
Monday, June 10, 2002
i started to notice it long ago. laoshi noticed it too and complimented. anastasia noticed it and laughed at me. my sister noticed it and denied. my mother refused to notice it. my friends see me too often to notice anything. my juniors noticed it and pointed it out. then miss mccully noticed it and scolded me. well, nort really. she was nice about it. asked me if i ran or did any sports. so maybe i plaed a lousy game of softball once and a few rounds of badminton and tried to run my 2.4. but i knew tt was nort the reason. nevertheless, i didnt say anything, just looked guilty and gave a sheepish laughed. in the end she concluded tt i studied too much.
gosh! i seriously need to go on a diet!! i need more self control!! ahhh!! does anyone know something anything! to help me become thiner, esp my butt and thighs. help! -guLp--
Sunday, June 09, 2002
lala.. think i look rather pro todae. guess tt's wad i'll be. professional! -whee!-- joseph cut his hair todae. looked so....er....younoewadimean. cleancut and fresh. wah. i lyke pple with short hair noe? maybe tt's why i like my cousin. he cut his hair againnnnn. will be going to his house fer tuition this week. planned out my whole week already. and i forgort bout the class outing on fridae. it clashes with dance. how?
cant wait till next year. we'll be having a dance concert. fourteen dances. and laoshi invited us back in advance to dance. cool! ah.. meanwhile i have to go on a massive weight lossing programme. kena scolded k. sigh.. feel so lousy. argh!! -sobb--
here i am, once again. i pour out my hear for i know that you hear. every cry you're listening, no matter wad state my heart is in. you are faithful to answer with words that are tru and i know that you're here. in the safety of this place, i pour out my hear and say tt i love you...i pour out my heart, say tt i need you.
Friday, June 07, 2002
oh, why must we go our own ways
you know i'm still waiting fer you
sometimes after rain
when you dont seem to want me back again
how could i pretend
tt sometimes after rain
when you could bear to take my rainbow away
and leave me countless rainy daes..
---finn.
oh gosh, look at me!! dub ber yew tee aftt.
sigh. everything i look at or do, i think of you. oh help. its like i was on the train home just now and i wondered how it would be like if you were there with me...just like old times. i was thinking wad would happen tomorrow, its like we havent been talking to each other for slightly more than a week cept tt dae you saw me on the 151. and tomorrow we're going to have to face each other (unless you pon or smth la). wouldnt it be super weird or something? dunno la. neway, was walking with this sec3 ri guy who lives fifteen houses away from me. yes again. and i remember what happen when it was this late. i was with you again. and i was telling you bout the sec3 guy. well, he used to be sec2. duhh.. feel so blessed to have pple to look out for me. he didnt dare to walk behind me. yes i admit i walk slowly. but he didnt walk too fast either on the opposite side of the road. still looked out for me every now and then. looks diff now though..must have grown up. ah, i digress. anihow, i walked under the lamps todae instead of my usual in the shadows, next to the plants and on the sidewalk. the only time i walked under the lamps was when i was with you cos you said you were afarid of tree lizards. i seriously think i need help. cant believe i'm actually so hopeless and helpless. think i should find a boyfriend to distract me. yesh, maybe i shall do tt. agree to the next guy who asks. forget bout all the standards and stuff. just need something quick. i'm burying myself alive here!!
and in the rain
in summer daes too..
when the willow tree weeps too
under the streetlights, so right
i'll remember you everydae.
-- tanya
yes, i will. i mean, i already do.
Thursday, June 06, 2002
Take the Which Powerpuff Girl Are You? Test.
gosh.. why am i bubbles? jess is bubbles. ahh!!! help me.. she says she's gonna slap me one dae. i mean, like i'm the cause of all her problems? maybe some of them la. but still.... she should have some life la. screw her.
i am worth exactly: $1,983,342.00.
can anyone afford me?
ahah ahah ahahaha
sigh, i owe xiaomin a treat. we made a bet. and i sort of lost. but i havent told her yet though. feel so paiseh k. was so convinced tt i would nort fall for it. but yet i did. sigh.. i need to have more self control!!
went out with my mum todae and i was so tempted to tell her tt i had a stalker. wonder wad her reaction would be. haha.. but wasnt really sure if i dared to take the risk. i mean, wad if she never forgets bout it? or she tease me or use it against me in future? anw, i shd let my sister know first rite? :) and since when do i tell things like tt to my mum. hmm... the stress must really be getting to me.
oh, went to ioh todae and guess wad, i grew taller by like 1.6cm and heavier by 1.5kg. and tt's like in one dae..slightly more than twenty four hours only. ahhh!!! gosh, shd have listen to my mum when she told me last night tt i was eating too much junk food.
ahah ahah ahahaha
Monday, June 03, 2002
just came back from sitting down and devouring like nearly the whole container of milo powder. yum! it was so fun dropping spoonfuls of it into my mouth. tiliting my head all the way backwards and trying nort to hit my nose. the milo powder crunching in my mouth was just.......-lick lipss -- pwah.. when i was very much younger, i used to spoon some milo powder into a small bowl and add just a teenyweeny bit of hot water making milopaste. then later i graduated to making milo. perfecting the art of ice milo. yummy!! think creamy ice milo topped with loads of milo powder. called it milo volcano. and now i've been promoted to just eating it straight from the tin. much faster and convenient. hiakhiak :)
arh... memories from my childhooddd still huants my reverie.
ahah ahah ahahaha
ooh.. just deleted the other few entries :) lala.. except my preppy guy thing. nice sia.. too bad i doubt i'll ever find someone like tt. haha. just now i sat one the seat in front of the exit door on the bus. as usual i leaned back. and halfway through my journey i felt a tug on my ponytail. first i thought it was an accident..someone tee-ing his ezlink card and bumping into my hair in the process. but the tugging and flipping continued. i tilted my head up to like let whoever it was know tt if it was an accident i was sorry for my hair being in the way. then i caught a glimpse of some tc pple and even more i didnt want to turn around. i mean, what if it was an accident and i appeared so petty? or what if it was some buaya trying to get my attention? i wasnt going to let tt happen to me again. and besides, i was pretty tired and super hot. sweating like nobody's business.. so neway, i just ignored it and pretend i didnt feel anything. hiakhiak.. -beamm-
well to those of you curious one's out there, later i recieved a msg. and it was bernard. sheesh!
ahah ahah ahahaha