Saturday, August 31, 2002
ooh... i made a new webbie.. nice layout i think. got it from a really talented gurl. its at my old url: www.geocities.com/dreamyaura/index.htm dont forget to put the /index.htm if not it wont work.
arh.. how i wish i could be as carefree as tt baby in there. wendy, her name shall be.
from now onwards.. one thirty three, thirty first of augest, i shall decide to put my interest above everything else. i used to do things for the well being of others. i used to think about how they would like things and how they would feel. like how i made a friend wait for an hour and a half just because i felt tt i needed to have a talk with qingaide over some stuff tt seemed to be troubling her. like how i would go out of my way to get stuff done for pple. like how i would stay up with pple cos i felt tt they would like someone to keep them company, despite the fact tt i had an impt test the next day or needed the energy for a long day ahead. i'm sure all these sound stupid to you, but now you know tt there's someone out there who is. ahah. not tt i will stop doing all these things, but i will stop once i have to put my well-being on the line. in other words, i have decided to be selfish. yes, you heard it from me. i'll probably stop once i have enough though, so nothing much lost really. yupp, since everyone does that, i dont see why i should not. yes, i admit i should have done so long ago.. but i was dumb.
another thing that i shall make my new habit will be rolling my eyes. it seems like a fun thing to do, plus i can use it when i'm pissed too. its not like smiling or laughing which are kind of restricted to certain occasions only. now the phrase "my eyes flew to the north of winter and forgot to come down" would finally be applicable! -applause please- yesyes, i shall aquire a new habit indeed..
Friday, August 30, 2002
have i told you i love my cousin? :) he says there's a party near my house now.. but he didnt go. dang. he should have.. then i can go crash it. heh~ he's the only one talking to me now. so nice.. and he called me sister. why am i smiling? its only my cousin. but he's so awfully nice.. i wish everyone could be this nice to me. i think i know where i want to go already. maybe he will make the place seem fun and less fake. maybe he'll bully me and suan me infront of everybody. haha~ didnt make use of him in primary school.. should have right? dang. i know my cousin will take good care of me. i can just see him buying lunch and teaching me homework. haha~ no, he will never possibly agree to do it for me. he's not tt nice. haha~ but he's cute and has a red hat.. and is smart and thin. and tt's all tt matters right?
though he really has one very very gross shirt. but we shant hold it against him shall we..
Thursday, August 29, 2002
i cant believe me
haha.. i'm having so much fun here. ahh.. been a long time since i've talked so childishly to ple. fun! :) realised tt nowadays i dont talk much.. my social circle has like shrunk so tremendously. everytime i come online i only talk to like.. two to three pple? quite pathetic huh. bah.. but cant help it la. no one talks to me. -shrug- guess its because i'm getting quite selfish, self centered and proud. either tt or i've become really horrible.. or really boring. i dunno.. i have bio prac tmrw and i must do well.. need it to pull up my overall grade. before you even say anything, let me clarify tt this means tt i am not confident about my paper because i know tt i have dropped like three grades since. and i am also quite sucky at essays. dont know anything wad.. how to answer rite? sigh. so before you do, let me request tt you dont scold me and ask me not to study. because i know tt i will if you do. bahh.. came home at late eightish today and ate dinner till nine. then watched the chinese show till now. great huh. one more hour till my bedtime and i havent started studying.. prac's early tmrw so cannot sleep after twelve. bahh.. lousy rite? shd be in the second shift.. i lyke tt timing. now i have to report so early! why cant we go at like seven forty five-ish? -pOut- ok, i shall go reply my dozen or so msgs from a certain someone who is trying desperately to proof tt he's not dao. blink.
pray tt i dont screw up bio..
Wednesday, August 28, 2002
she said.. your results are the best things to give to the school. i mean your teachers and i think she's wrong. its the best we can give to the school. this year we have no excuse. no syf, no competitions. we shd give pur jnrs a holiday as a going away present huh? last year was full of crap activities.. guess tt explains the crap results this year. our principal thinks its good.. and sadly our jnrs too. but we know better. and if we do not buck up and set the standard, our jnrs will think tt such crap results are excellent and achieve tt. and where will our school head from there? we cant let our standard drop can we.. its quite sad to see the school go downhill. if you really look at it, we really suck. look at our.. everything! remember when we were sec one, we had eight golds.. as in eight firsts? it was great.. the results were excellent too. it was bliss.. the school was really close then. we went for the nball match where we beated rg, we went for judo.. we went for track where we trashed everyone else. and now? what do we have to show... so what if we were once good? it means nothing. our sustained award this year is actually quite meaningless. did we sustain anything? look at our jnrs.. zilch school spirit, all they think about are themselves. really quite saddening. blinkk. so we must do our part.. set the standard. make them proud of us.. perhaps it'll be able to make up for what we did.
wei she me zhe yang zi
ni la zhe wo shuo ni you xie you yu
zhe me zhe yang zi
yu hai mei ting ni jiu zhen zhe yao zou
yi jing xi guan bu ju zu ni
guo hao yi zhen zi ni jiu hui hui lai
yi shen zhong de ai qing hao xiang ni bu dong na shi jian
wei she me zhe yang zi
ni kan zhe wo shuo ni yi jing zue ding
wo la bu zhi ni
zai ta shou ying kai bi wo gen neng
ye xu bian cheng de ri ji bian cheng de kong jian
na wo jiu hui..
yi shen zhong de ai qing hao xiang ni bu dong na shi jian shui ni jiu...
Tuesday, August 27, 2002
oh.. you have to see our binary project. as christy puts it.. our greatest acheivement.
blink. he just msg me. hmm... kewl.
he asked me why i was up at three. weird isnt it? i mean.. he was the one who smsed me at three twenty one? and i merely replied him..at four? ok, three fifty seven. so i asked him what he was doing up at tt hour. and he said he woke up to go to the toilet. -biSh- never knew he could wake up for such things. ahah~ i mean... most of you know him, and he's the kind who will sleep right through anything. boo.
have i told you dancers rock? huiyi smsed us to pass some super long msg and at the end of everything she put "xp" you know... as in a smiley? immediately i though of xp. and guess what? the very next msg i received was from my dao gae!! she's so sweet.. miss her. still remember the first time we danced together. i was sec2 and she was sec3. we had to do a tuo ju.. i was really sucky and she suffered with me. i made her practice it over and over with me. to me then it seemed fine. but after everything i realised tt it must have been super tiring for her. and on the day of our performance, she wrote me a card. cant remember where i've thrown it to but i still remember what she wrote. -nostalgia- and for our syf we danced together in the intro, ending and the triangle part. not alot.. but enough :) and after everything, she wrote me a note too.. she was feeling pissed. so was i. the day after our competition, i didnt feel like going to school but my mum made me all the same. jialing had the same experience with her mum. on the way to school, as i was heading for the gate after crossing the bridge, i met her. i couldnt take it.. just seeing her. i could feel my face tense up and tears welled in my eyes. she was walking out the gate. she walked up to me and stood barely a few inches away. i still remember her half whining, half holding back the tears tt were threatening to break forth, she said, "none of the sec4s are here today!" and the tears just fell. they fell like pearls from a broken necklace. and i cried too. she wanted to pon school with me, but she didnt dare dragged me down. she left alone. i still remember me walking into the gate trying to brush away all the evidence of weakness. i walked in..normal. i joined my class at the quadrangle and grumbled to ser and michelle tt none of our snrs came. the slight redness in my eyes and the watery glazed look tt covered them must have been the tell tale signs. before long, my class was gathered around comforting us. it didnt help at all.. i just felt as if i dissapointed them even more. during reading period i tried not to think about it. i was succeding a little. but my success was a facade. the qingaides came sobbing uncontrolably.. and the rest, i guess, is history.
still.... have i told you dancers rock? i dont know why at the moment.. i just know they do
Monday, August 26, 2002
did i mention tt bj's a nice show? just finished watching it again.. ah.. the songs are nice. like the kind i heard while sitting outside swensons. i just love the end.. watched tt part over and over and over again.. :)
over and over always in my mind
over and over always pure and kind
over and over everywhere i go..
bah.. i'm bored. no one's talking to me. cept the random smses i get. bah bah black sheep..
momo's sweet. sent me a good night msg. :) havent received one in a longgg time.. -smile-
argh. shit. screwed up my chem prac. i hate being stupid. it kinda sucks..
Sunday, August 25, 2002
whee! i realised what was wrong with the dumb player already.. i can watch now!! yayy!!!
i am so utterly full. ate four pancakes just now. and not those puny kinds.. full. full. apple and cinamon. yum~ i know i told peew tt i'll stick to just three very full and filling meals a day. but... cant help it la. its just so irresistable. ah... i need to have a hookworm or smth. maybe i'll keep one as a pet. hmm.. -ponder-
oh, i had a dream bout big fat earth worm. it was all beige and rather fat. quite long too. bout a foot? and we had to do smth to it fer bio.. benedict's test or sth. mine was knotted up.. cant remember much.. the worms were really slimy. and, ohh.. i bit of the head of mine. urgh!
oh. i told my sister just now to choose whether she wanted to be fsh or lh. ahah ahah ahahaha~
why am i so dumb??
leona, you shd change ur blog title to a-moose. then you can put a picture of a big fat moose up there! now wouldnt tt be cool and truly amusing? haha~ my sister is leaving on friday. and i have so much unfinished business to clear. sounds a bit... -squirm- let me see.. i need to get her clinque neutraliser.. and i want to get her a bag. but...i just cant squeeze the time out to go get them. boo.. and i'm not sure if she'll use it there.. as in the neutraliser. if not i shall wait till next year before getting it fer her. heh~ she's prolly not coming back in december. to me, no point la.. she should go jian shi jian shi yi xia. she'll be going to london again. its like her second home.. prolly go tour rome or smth with beth i think. but.. rome is like.. how do i put it.. full of pickpocketers?!? its very bad there.. -wriggLe- oh, i may be going over to visit her! just me... or maybe my sisters too if they want to come. i was told tt i was welcomed. :)
ooh, chem prac is drawing near. -shiver- what must i do to prepare for it? -shrug- tell me if you know k? and tell me too if you know what time it is. ten? nine? nine thirthy? oh, must go class take testtubes tmrw. bah.. my lap partner is not my lab partner tmrw. -sobb- and i'm not feeling great. bridget jones' cant run today!! -shirll-
Saturday, August 24, 2002
lots of things happen todae. but i realised tt i've been blogging too much, so i'll just blog bout one thing. i love my cousin. remember the hold-hand-one? yup, him. i dunno la.. but i didnt sit with the rest of them today. i mean.. we were at the same table. but all my other cousins and sisters sat on one side of the table while me and my sis were right opposite caught in the middle of adults. it was alot of fun. the meal was great! and i couldnt stop eating.. i loved the crabs k.. and the brinjal... and everything la. all had so much bahu. yumm. it was a diff sort of style. nice. different. we didnt really talk. my sister and i were talking bout extratan, tandiya, and the wapi kong (hahaahah....) and singiing jay chou songs... funn. but all this while, my cousin and i were making eyes at each other. so farni. haw haw. they were trying to decipher if my choker was made up of stars or flowers. and i was trying to signal to my cousin tt i loved her braclet. let me say, it looks good on me can? my aunty and grandma were trying to ask me what sort of jewelry i would prefer.. and she was getting me to get braclets. but... i cant wear them. they just slip right of my wrist. you know how narrow my wrist is. and amazingly, my cousin's are about the same size. later i swopped seats and talked crap with him. more like swarn each other la.. but, same diff rite? heh~ aiyo, he has two swollen fingers.. all fat and bruised. i didnt noticed it at first and was like rubbing them and squezing them. it must have hurt. he cut his hair.. and you know how i love pple with short hair. esp guys. :) so glad. he looks so much better. he's the same weight as me.. maybe even lighter. he's taller than me. i was trying to guess his height.. today he stood just a few centimeters taller and was rather indignant bout it. heh~ think he shd be round 168 la. he cant possibly be tt tall. he is thiner than me. he has similar sized wrists. and while we were walking, we sort of like swayed into each other quite often.. i would also lean over his shoulder and read his smses. then, i would go behind and tickle him while he to me. blink. must have seemed quite weird huh? and he would never fail to give me his look. this look where he'll tilt his chin up and peer downwards at me. in response, almost unintentionally, i would give him the anastasia look, where i'll tilt my chin all the way up and beam at him with my eyes close. we must have done it about a zillion gazillion times today. before everything i was hoping tt he would turn up today, i needed to see someone who'll make me laugh. and he made my day! whee!!
and on the way down, the lift stopped at level five. my dad was like, "ay, arcade..anyone wants to go arcade?" and instinctively, both of us went "go play pool" and moved our arms identically. then, both of us turned to look at each other and laughed. so...qiao huh? my aunty was like... go play.. go... and i really wanted to. but if you saw what i was wearing.. it really isnt pool clothing. so.. bah.. anw, the lift door closed by itself. -shrug--
he was swarning me bout my exams. he is obviously so much smarter than me? he's taking fmath. he rawks la. so when he swarns me, i really have nothing to say k. today i told him i was very scared. i mean.. hello? my pracs are like... in dunno how many hours time? pracs are very impt, he says. i must do well. but how?!? my prac is quite shitty lor. then he had a serious look on his face and wished me all the best. he's so nice... aww... so sensible.
i dont have to decide which jc to go to already. isnt it obvious?
todae's quote: Boston is scorchingly scorching, like a scorching scorch. I have recently been repetitively repetitive, repeating repeats repeatedly. ...a cool remark by a smart person. obviously not myself.
What punctuation mark are you? Find out at quizlets.tk!
by Krysten
hmm?? hmm... blink. blinkk. anyway, the question mark ish cute! -squeall-
Take the test at the Faery Glade
oh yippeee! i really am a phoenix! yayy!!!
and i didnt cheat k.
too bad this is such an ugly picture. the one on the cover of the hardcover chamber of secrets is so much niceerr.. -envy-
oh, my qingaide thought i met anastasia on the bus. blinkk.. no? i met a pwetty gurl. haha.. both of them are la. and she thought her name was annabelle. blink. that's my name ok.
whee! xiaomin ish here with me now. i never blog bout my close friends... cos.. dont ask me why. its just tt i feel tt its..private? heh~ but since i'm in a funny mood now, i shall write bout her. yea! oh, tandiya went to watch the movie with my sister yesterdae :( and i was suppose to open the door for her but i fell asleep. sigh, i'm so lousy. boo!
"i'm such a great person, yay." she says in a tone that sounds bored and almost sarcastic. perhaps that's what she thinks of herself... and its true. she is a great person, in all aspect of the word, to me she is. she's smart and she always was...even in sec one. at least she didnt think antacid was ANT acid!! ahah ahah ahahha.. but neither did i. but still... she's always teaching me stuff.. like chem, bio, even amath k. she thought me abit of relative velocity.. though mine still sucks, at least its much better huh? she's always topping the class in bio. and tt makes me feel so extremely happy. yes, double portion. i love it when i see people i love do well.. and i love it when they're happy. thanks for making me happy gurl. :) she's great because she's herself. i love her for her. (haha, the yuehan song..) yes, i do. she's always talking bout how she has a thousand zillion illnesses and tt she'll die a horrible death, what kind of boyfriend she wants, how fat she is, how dumb she is.. and the list goes on. though at times i do admit tt she gets on our nerves, we still enjoy her company. alot. i mean.. there's a streak of self...wadever-it-is in all of us rite? we cant blame her. after all.. she's still fourteen. haha. i loved my sec2 life. it was wonderful, and partly because of her. remember her, "hey babe!" incident? haha... she brings a smile to all of us. she's crazy about.. hmm... people and her music.. and hmm...:) haha.. and i think it makes her unique. she's the youngest in her family and hence gets quite a resonable amt of freedom. plus, her mummy sort of waits on her? at least more than any of ours. she's lucky. she has...er...nice brothers. and she's grumbling again. haah~ she kinda sucks at computers.. still figuring out how to print tt pic correctly. haha... but i'm no better too. i guess its only when i compare myself to her tt i realise how perfect she is. i mean... nobody's perfect. but she is in her own special set of standards. i feel so warm and cozy all of a sudden. its a nice feeling. i dont want to say anymore. this is enough. and i shall stop here. i should stop here. heh~ this is the icing on the cake all in a spoonful. huh? what did i just say? arh, heck. dont care three seven twentyone. if only you knew her the way i did. she rawks! rock on gurl.. to me you are great, and that's enough.
Friday, August 23, 2002
it is only when people..(not person) are mean to you tt you realise how much you love the special few.
i am so happy. -ecstatic-
must be all the happples out there.
i've got a smile on my face, a glide in my stride
thank you for making my day. -cuRtsey-
arh.. its..(wad time is it now?) and i'm online. why? dont ask. reached home a while back. feel so good todae. if you remember the happles, i saw them. yippeee!! -sqeal-
phew. i got a shocked just now. was wondering why all of a sudden all those stuff was here. and then i realised, it was a diff one. double phew.
anw, saw liang si just now at the busstop.. i kicked her bag -beam- i love her k.. its been ages since we last met. the walking pass her house doesnt count. she's so nice... so like me. i mean, she missed two busses because they were crowded? and she couldnt be bothered if the other busses went to her house. its like...eh? haha~ nicenice. she's so funny. had a chinese mock just now.. dont think she'll do very well. she doesnt look like the chinese sort, though i know she'll get her one in the end. she was like, "i finished in about an hour! but tt's because i didnt know how to do the rest.. -sheepish-" -smile- its nice to speak to people like nothing has changed.. so nice. -bliss- and she asked me an amusing question. real amusing. are you like a celebrity in school? i was like..haR?!?! for a while i didnt know wad she was talking about. i wanted to laugh you know. i mean...hello? me? i'm like...super low profile can? haha..i sound like chen. but its tru! ok, not super..but enough. not like peew or soph or zhihong who...knows the whole school? hmm..wonder where tt thought poped in. she said smth like tt last year too i think. ooh...she has orals tmrw. hope she does well.. all the way gurl! and she had to mention about my picture. urgh... i look gross!
bah.. met my qing ai des after cross country just now. and we just did dumb things! ah... lucky we were sweaty and gross or we would have really repeated wad we did tt day. eww.. haaha~ they are so dumb tt they would do things tt only my sister and i would do. ahh!! long time since we last met too.. cept during recess todae. so nice noe. to hear all their updates and stuff.. and i convieniently left out mine -teehee- oh, saw weiqiang todae. he's cute. though he doesnt on first impressions...but it gets better. ma-er was so pissed with him lor.. couldnt stop saying snide remarks. but i think he loved it. he's so nice. and he knows yuehan. my ma-er had to tell him my whole history? i was so desperately looking for a place to hide my face. haha.. he's such a nice person and she's a lucky one too. i want to laugh. i want to smile.
i am jing shen huan fa now. didnt really run just now? -scamper- i was being sooo... bimboish! urgh! smths i can really disgust myself. but i was pacing shumin.. as in set the pace for her. and was like.. quite tired. so.. -shrug- besides...i dont like to sweat. as you know, girls dont sweat..they only pespire. haha~ and i was sweating. good enough reason? erm.. i am utterly disgusted now. but as you know.... i am dumb. bah.. love ynay, she's so...wonderful! and i kissed her. you can never believe how sweaty her face can be. haha~ she was even sweatier than me can... at least clara's was better.
ok. this seems like alot. i lyke mrs wong.
and.. why there're only two entries for yesterdae? cos they were meant for youuuuuuuu! feel honoured? haha.. i shall apologise for my lameness. but its tru. and now tt i know tt you've seen them, no point for them to take up space rite?
haha.. smths i delete entries for fun. like at times when smth totally awesome happens i just have to enter it. and after a while i decide its enough and take it off. no question really. -peer- so lucky for those pple who saw them i mean.. do i really want the whole world to know my deepest darkest secrets? -laughs- you dont even know the ash grey ones.. :)
quote of todae: are you like a celebrity or smth in ur school?
did tt make you laugh? hope it did.
Thursday, August 22, 2002
maybe after all these have died down, i'll cont to persuade my mummy fer a cat. i'll tell her tt a two isnt tt bad after all cos my sister got a three. ha! and i cont to tell her tt its an achievement tt i got a dist fer oral because all you pple know for a fact tt i cant speak chinese and tt i kinda screwed up my reading. so, there. do you think she'll fall for it? i know it wasnt part of our bargain. but still....
sigh. i havent gotten over it yet. this must be one of the hardest things i've ever done.
i was told tt you're the most dissapointed when ur expectations are high and the results do not match up. but if you do not expect anything, you'll be delighted and contented with what you got. its not tt i expected much. its just tt i think i comforted myself when i had bad feelings after the paper. told me tt i will do fine and tt my listening and oral will pull me up. tt overall, it isnt tt bad. and i actually fell for it. i was expecting smth more like a one and a pass, or a one and a merit. but, noooo... i got neither. sigh. must be my lijie and my zuowen. but i've never studied harder for my chinese. ever. so i guess it was quite good? -shrug-
if i studied again, i will wen gu zhi xing. and i will also huang ran da wu and realise all my que dians. i will stop yi zhi ban jie-ing anymore and everything will ying ren er jie.
sigh, i was so scared studying chinese tt day. still remember it. the memorie huants my reverie. i learnt ping ji, the word tt came out fer zao ju. and my dad was explaining it to me. it was quite late and i couldnt cramp everything in. i was feeling upset and scared. then the phone rang. i was quite fustrated at first. but when i knew it was april, i felt better. she talked to me and told me not to worry. after tt, i couldnt take it anymore. i cried. just cried all the tension away. and of cos i was so tired after tt. i learnt ping ji. and my father told me it was a lousy word and such lousy words wont come out. and guess wad, it did! i roughly remembered the meaning only. so i hun shui mo yu and wrote an ambiguious one down. sigh.
if i get a cat, i'll call it tomb. then i can go, "hey tomb!" or maybe, "hey tung!" and it'll sound like a2. my a2 cat.
you know i still havent got over it yet.
hmm... siyu's b'dae tmrw.
why am i online now? cos i'm all sweaty and sticky. waiting for the sweat to dry before i go bathe. phew, just got home and wanjun too.. saw bry's dad drop her off when i was reaching home. i realise tt i live in a nice env. quite a few teenagers living round me. other than bry, wanjun and the beefcake, there's still this cuteriguyttlivesfifteenhousesawayfromme.. him and his brothers. ever since i had to talk to the beefcake, ok, let's not be mean here.. i never call him tt. i was influenced. so let's just stick to...eugene? ok. ever since i had to talk to eugene on the way home at the begining of the year, i've been more aware of my neighbours. normally i notice only those i grew up with or live on the same street as me. but lately i've seen more. oh, i was told tt his name..the cute guy's name is julius. as in julius caesar, or orange julius. wait, its joel. and let me clarify, in case you ever meet him and before your hopes get dashed, he's not very cute. good looking enough, but not cute. anyhow, let's just pretend he is. its much funner this way. so as i was saying, he has two other older brothers, julius and...smth else. and he has a lava lamp. a red one. teehee~ then there's lynette, simon and rachel, aunty vivian's daughter, prakash... yu fei and yu jun. eunice and edward. and of cos esther. this dclooking guy tt lives at lentor villas, or as wanjun would say, the white houses. yes, its the same one tt i followed home a few weeks back. elizabeth and the twins. plus a group of pple who apparantly know my name but whom i've never seen before. and todae i saw this stc girl. quite bimbo..but wad can you expect. no offence to those nice pple out there. when she pressed the bell todae, i thought for a while she was xiaoling. then i realised tt she was wearing a badge and tt xiaoling no longer wears this similar uniform anymore... and to add on, xiaoling would drop a stop before me. havent seen xiaoling for a long while. and the last time i saw her, it was only a glimpse. hmm...maybe one day i shall just sit outside her house and wait. haha! oh, i also saw this girl who's very thin. ok, slim. wait, thin. not scrony or cadeverous. thin. she looked about fifteen too.. and seemed to be a swimmer. was smth bout her clothes and her bag. ya.. but the way she walked was rather light. wait, its her wet hair tt made her look swimmerish. -wriggle- when we turned the corner, she was walking bout a few meters behind me. and the next thing i knew when i wanted to get a better look, she dissappeared. ok, at least i know roughly where she stays. quite chio noe? :)
wow, i wrote quite a lot. blinkk. i think my house ish nice. everyone knows everyone. even if we're not tt close, at least we interact rite? plus, can plae soccer... or go playground or go cycling like we used to when we were much much younger. somedae i must find one of the smartasses to teach me some stuff. haha~
-beam-
gtang said my hair wasnt nice.
since when do all dancers want to be rabbits?
i want to be a cat! -meOw-
Wednesday, August 21, 2002
lousy. went off before i could reply. sigh..
so sad ritee~
nanafu says tt lead compounds are harmful. they kill ur brain cells.
guess tt explains why we keep forgeting to do our duty.
we've had lead iodide in our class for ages!
it looked so pretty we just had to keep it.
must be smth tt only happens in girls' school.
no wonder all our teachers keep forgeting things
no wonder we forget to pay class fund.
its no wonder i've become so dumb!!!
quote of the dae: wad do you call a hog on wheels?? - a racist pig.
bah.. everyone had their orals todae. and you'll never guess who dc's examiner was. gtang. blink.. i dont know how to react. i'm quite stone now. but..gtang!? why cant he be my examiner or smth. young teachers tend to give high marks. no wonder i didnt see him in school todae. but then again, he's quite... er.. not tt pro them. so he may just give them a bad mark for fun. ha! did any of you know tt he was a former rg teacher? hmm... now you do. and he wasnt any different then. hmm..
ok. i shall cont later. the show has started two mins ago. #!@#$%^ -pOut-
r a e i s h p w e t t y .
Monday, August 19, 2002
heh... great minds think alik.ee. but then again... they say fools seldom differ -oh well-
-sniff- i feel like smiling. i am smiling. so happy. dont ask me why. i'm just in love with my class now. so in love with them. ah... i mean, everyone is so cute..in every sense of the word. we make a new observation every week. all the girls are normal. and all the guys have very thick eyebrows, plus they are all very very dumb! about half of them threw their entry proofs away?!? *@&^#*&#^ i am just lost for words. i mean.. literally. ohoh.. all of us have the same specs too. same colour at least. except for melissa.. her's is a nice silvery purple. cool rite?
my class class is real sweet too. i must say i am touched by the stuff ple wrote fer me.. though one person didnt writeeee... hmphf! but they are all so sweet... love them so much. muack! i am so loved k.. -aww- love ynay.. love rae, love lan, love aileen.. and everyone else! we are such nice ple. haha.. getting a bit bhb here. :) but its true. and clara doesnt know how to spell my name!! arrghh,... heh~ but it doesnt matter, no?
quote of yesterdae: swoosh! -- taken from timothy's shirt
bah... feel so happy fer them. they got ones. they're pleased. so am i.
and did i get it correct? my amath rox? mine? really?
thanks! i want to laugh... it seems so impossible.
and yet...
you've really made my dae. thanks pal. :)
quote of da dae: chinese is the only language where 'heck care' can be translated into 'dont care three seven twenty-one'.
bah..i miss chinese. but tengkie isnt doing it, so i guess i shdnt too. the guys are so nice, reassured me yesterdae. feel much better i guess.... and i havent called hime tengkie in a long long time. i was quite excited, wondering wad he got.. and my mum was like, "why dont you call tengkie and ask him wad he got?" that was the first after a long time. and i giggled when i heard it. can you believe it? i giggled. eww.. bah. but he's smart. and his chinese is good. so i guess if he's sastified with his, i should be with mine. bahh... -sob- and i cant accept the fact tt our chinese god is from acs. i mean... acs. all can swim. all chinese suck. and he did super well. i just dont get it.. ah!! why do some pple do so well by just cao mugging? why... -sob- i feel damn bad lor. bah.. i must learn to pamper myself
was at popular just now and i saw smth tt i wanted to buy. buy as a gift.. she would like it. -beam- she said she liked stuff like tt before. haha.. ban dao tie he is such a nice song. mood music. so suitable now. ah.. -float-
thanks to soph, i lugged my heavy computer from the car and plugged it in. asked my dada to do it fer me, but tt guy told me to do it myself. he even assured me tt i could manage. hmphf! so i had to fiddle with the complex remote of the car, trying to unlock it.. my auntie's car. so new..so nice :) but its boot is sure heavy. then i couldnt get a grip on that heavy chunk of metal. i was shouting.."i cant lift it! i cannot pick it up!" and it was true, i couldnt slip my fingers under it. and when my dad finally came out, i figured out how to lift it already. and he had the grand task of closing the boot. bah... my hands were slipping and i had to change positions quite a few times. amazing tt i didnt drop it huh? and i had to plug all the cables in and everything... normally i would just wait fer my sister to do it. but soph told me to plug it in. now the cables are a huge mess behind the comp. but i dont care.. my dada will sort it out soon. -beam-
Tuesday, August 13, 2002
i'm sorry for talking bout this and only this right now. but i need to. and this is my blog. so...
just talked to my dad on da phone. da guy called back a few times, but my mum lost his room no. haha~ anw, he said i shd redo it. was telling me all the advantages of it. and i know them too.. normally it would be so convincing and all.. but todae, clara and bell and dc did a better job. heh. but hey, its the truth. -shrug- i want to do it again. but since he says i shdnt, i shant. but i will never be sastisfied. gen zi ji guo bu ju. i studied k. the dae before was a holidae and i spent like three whole hours studying?!? its not like i didnt study or anything lor. but i always knew my chinese sucked anyway. sigh.
pros:
- i will have more time to conc on my other subs.
- i may not do as well.. its a lang subject, anything can happen.
- the paper will only get harder
- i dont have the time
- i will lose out on my other subs.
- its not worth it.
- i may not do as well
con:
i will be stuck with this dumb grade!!!
i d o n t w an t a t w o ! !
sigh, i am paranoid.
so what if its not bad comparatively. everything is relative. if i'm travelling at hundred kph and my friend is travelling at a hundred and ten kph, to me he will seem as if he's travellign at only ten kph. everything is relative. it doesnt count.
eeps! i just thought in math. eeps! i must be crazy. i must be paranoid. i need a drink.
i guess tt's why i'm not please with myself?
its a normal grade. quote from my sis...
it is really. joseph got it, you got it, dc got it, weilin got it. everyone gets it.
but do i want to be like everyone
you telling me wad she got, seeming rather proud and pleased with herself.
me smiling at you thinking along the same lines
me doing a double take.
me thinking tt its not tt great after all.
me thinking tt it was quite sucky
me silently saying tt i want a better grade.
me hushing me up, telling me not to say so much just in case i did worse
me getting the exact same thing
i am upset. i dissapointed so many people. i dissapointed myself.
but who cares about myself, i've let down so many ple. sigh... i didnt even reach my target. she said, "its easy la.. dont worry, think about the cat." she said, "yo dear, you studying now? all the best fer tmrw, must get and a1 k?" she said, "dont be nervous, you'll do fine." he said...smth tt i cant remember. he said... smth i cant remember too. but the point is, i...you know wad i mean. bah.. just so relieved tt i didnt burst into tears. :) was mentally prepared i guess.. mentally prepared for half a week allowed me to exert enough control. -beam- though when i looked at others, my vision sort of became blurred a few times, but none of it spilled over. tt's a great feat fer me k... so proud of myself -g-
i am lucky. i could have done worse. i am lucky. i have nice people to surround me. see...when i told you she neednt have to worry cos i have nice ple to look after me, it was tru. :) lan and bry were so nice to come and hug me when i was hibernating. hwee too..to just sit there. zhihong for trying to convince me tt i shd be glad. clara and momo for convincing me tt its good enough. xiaomin, bell for convincing me not to waste my time. rae, for holding my hand. dc for sound advice. the sectwo peeps fer just being concerned. my mama for telling me tt i can do better. just fer tong zhou gong ji-ing with me. jing fer making me laugh. aileen fer hugging me. qianyi fer smiling. there's more obviously. and..you have made me glad -hum-
i knew buying a drink from the canteen was a good idea. though i wanted to see them badly, i had a feeling tt i shdnt go to tt area. buying a drink from the vending machine would mean having a probality of seeing her. and remembering her promise and just her. it would mean getting hugs, smiling. and ultimately the thing i dread most. only they would know how much this means to me.. and only they would allow me to do the dreaded thing. i'll find them tmrw. if i can get through it todae, i can do it tmrw. persevere gurl!
oh i saw cindy todae.. :) see, if i miss her hard enough i'll meet her.
wonder why i dont meet anastasia. -ponder-
ahah ahah ahahahha~
Monday, August 12, 2002
i miss cindy all of a sudden.
but if i go find her, i'll miss rachel. and i'll run into you. but then i can be with qianyi, christina and esther too.
how??
.jing tui liang nan.
oh, my mum thought my prelims started todae apparantly. -eh?- she refused to let me go out last night. -sob- so sadd... and i was in such a good mood k. the perfect kind for going out. omit the fact tt i only had like two fifty in my wallet which was the remants of the money i borrowed from my baby sister. -guilty- still..... i wanted to go to suntec...
bah. see la, go next week have to be very careful. treading into unsafe territories. from tomorrow onwards must start planning my departure time carefully too. if not i'll just be running in to trouble. or standing waiting fer trouble to arrive. either way, still quite dead yea? cos yuehan's returning todae.. so you know wad tt means. yea..you do. anw, wonder if he won anything. -beam--
quote of todae: i lyke hats! i want more hatss! -inno-
she is dom's sister. .. cool. told you the whole world's related. its like walking on a straight road. only its not really straight..it just seems tt way to you. so anw, you think you're walking on this straight road, and suddenly you find tt you're back where you started. dom's my sister's primary school classmate. jc classmate too. told you it was cool.
i realised how to make the caffeine work. just dont plan to sleep until you're tired.. and take it like a few hours in advance. was so tired in class todae. only managed to stay awake during wty's lesson. looks like a bad word rite? -amused- but tt was because he couldnt stop calling my name and my hand was held hostage by my dearest mama. bah.. another unproductive dae. bahh.. my daddy's gone. dont like it when he uses the other airport. all the security guards.. (secu ri T. guad..heh~) and the grey walls. the interior is amazingly chio though. too bad we dont usually go in there. blinkk.. oh, i sound like an mg bimbo. eh.,.. eeps! blink. must be under the influence of my dearest sister. using words like chio... and can? in practically every sentence. ee...the 8310 very chio i want! or i look damn cute, can. urgh. guess tt's wad being with...dumb seventeen year olds do to you. but this is my sister, can. she doesnt do things like tt. -bOggle--
mood: i am currently confused.
Sunday, August 11, 2002
wo hai pa ni xin sui mei ren bang ni ca yan lei
bie guan na shi fei
zhi yao wo men gan jue dui
wo hai pa ni xin sui mei ren bang ni ca yan lei
bie li kai shen bian
yong yo ni wo de shi jie cai neng wan mei
and its tru. i was afraid. when she was sad and feeling lousy, i was so worried tt no one would be there fer her. i dont care who it was, just as long as there was someone. felt like telling her it doesnt matter... that it could have easily happened to anyone... that it wasnt her fault. i want to just pat her on the shoulder and say tt she's still my friend... and i still love her..even if she doesnt love herself. i knew she would have felt better though it may have been no different to her at tt moment. i know. cos i wished someone was there fer me during syf. i was so worried.
its so nice... so nice. so nice. so nice. this is the forth time i'm listening to it from...eh..cover to cover? but its niceee. and this is only the first dae. arh.. i still mantain he's nice. everyone's nice actually. audrey's nice. agreed to go fer ballet cos i would be alone. sweet huh? and i'm not even close to her. rena's nice. spoke with her breifly like...three years ago? and she still talks to me and smiles and all.. nice. :) melissa too.. fell down todae (again!) and she was like asking if i was ok and all.. then she rubbed my arm caringly.. so kind. -tear- i'm so touched. no, i'm cheryl.
Saturday, August 10, 2002
oh.. quote of the dae: though he acts like a jerkk, he's a nice person after all.
finn burnt me a copy of his jay chou's cd upon request. he's such a babe. its wonderful
when i reached home just now, there was a msg from him on my sister's icq. it said, "hello`" so since i was going to change icq, i said, "goodbye" and changed over. and tt was like nearly two hours after he sent the msg. haha... he must be wondering. hahhaaha...
and it happened again at bk todae. when i got up to leave.. this whole group of wad seemed to be year one or two students just looked at me. i mean.. it wasnt a glance.. so as usual, i looked back. and we just looked at each other till i went down. they were sitting near the steps so i had to walk pass them. too bad none of them were cute. hhaaha~ one thing i just dont get is why i get these so often? i dont even know them... and i wasnt wearing anything gross todae. -puzzled- thankfully they didnt appear to be scrutinising me todae. and thankfully i didnt see anyone todae. -beam- went to a place not really frequented by teenagers. :)
jonboy is a nice person noe. -beam- treated me to an iceblended, and he even went and got it fer me. such a nice person.... and whenever the condensation was about to drip, he would reach out and catch it. but he always missed. hahaaha~ za men bu yao xing wai ba.
sigh, feel so unproductive. just reached home and wad did i do todae? went out to buy stuff fer ple. bah... broke again. and i just took money from my dad this afternoon. -boohoo-- but its fun buying things fer ple... bought breadtalk fer my sisters. :) the stoopid guy at take chased refused to let us into the bakery. i mean... hello! you have all the buns sitting there and no one is going to buy them so you'll just throw them away?!? let ple buy mah... so you wont waste ur bread plus earn money at the same time??? went to bread talk in the end... bah.. luckily i lent aaron money. if not i'd just buy bread till i'm broke. one bun is definately not enough fer me... you know me, i eat alot of stuff like this. sigh, i hate being broke... was so.. unbroke on a few daes ago. then i went shopping while the rest went to watch signs.. and look at me now. its such a horrible feeling. going to have to ask fer money tmrw again.. how to go out empty handed? its not like the ple i'm going out with will treat me lydat. :( cant wait till mondae k.
Friday, August 09, 2002
urgh... i am disgusted. they all have bad habits which they need to kick. yet, they are bian-ing ben jia li-ing. urgh
Thursday, August 08, 2002
A man was telling his neighbor, "I just bought a new hearing aid. It cost me $4,000, but it's state of the art."
"Really?" answered the neighbor. "What kind is it?"
"Twelve-thirty."
As a senior citizen was driving down the freeway, his car phone rang. Answering, he heard his wife's voice urgently warning him, "Herman, I just heard on the news that there's a car going the wrong way on CTE. Please be careful!"
"It's not just one car," said Herman. "It's hundreds of them!"
the babies are nice! but they insulted my phone -humphf- and they insulted my leotard -double humphf- and they think cedar's ok. -triplehumphf- i screwed up big time todae at class. and the babies laughed at me. :( i was tt bad. thankfully it was only at the barr. my centre was ok. didnt really use resin todae..and i did a triple! yippy!!
Roses are red, violets are blue, I'm schizophrenic and so am I!
so tired. latargy overwhelms me. weariness fills me.
walking home must be a bad idea.. dont feel like getting out of the chair now. dont feel like leaving the house now. dont feel like doing anything now. shdnt have came home. maybe it would be better if i'd gone straight. or perhaps taken a nap. but i dont have the time. suppose to leave five minutes ago and i'm still here...unchanged. -yawn- sleepy. ahH!! can i just skip class todae? no, i'll kill myself fer it later. guess i'm convinced. better get going now. pray tt my leg doesnt cramp up again k?
You have high standards for yourself, and try desperately to live up to them. But when you are unable to reach those goals, you fall into a deep depression. People see you as a brilliant person, yet inside, you are full of self-doubt and fear of failure. You need to set more reasonable goals.
Your song is: About to Crash
Which degree of inner turbulence are you?
This quiz was made by Dionae
cant be so similar la.. i mean, everyone's different lor. and i'm not sad. or am i?
todae at lido, i suddenly felt uncomfortable. so i scaned the crowd to see what was giving me tt feeling. then i was a group of ij peeps. and amongst them was an ij butch. she was staring at me. just staring and staring.. so i stared back. well, not really stare but let's say i looked at her without blinking. it was quite scary and it nearly made me shiver. but thankfully her friend called her and our gaze broke. she's quite cute la. looked about sec two or three... rather tan. (not nine.. ahah ahah ahahaha) nice skin. thin. and her hair was short.. but not too grossly done. abit like anastasia when she was younger and had nicer hair. aiyah.. they all look abt the same. just tt this gurl wasnt bubbly and sweet. lucky i had xiaomin next to me fer protection or i just would have died. a while later at far east, we met the group again. this time in front of us. and the same girl turned and was about to stare at me again. i actually gasped in shock and made a beeline fer the nearest shop. phew...
quote of the dae: ij butches are cute! all those i've seen are at least. :)
Wednesday, August 07, 2002
quote of today... "he has brown eyes. the brownest i've ever seen.."
yes, he does!! i was talking to him tt dae.. and when he talks, he smiles and laughs. its so nice. but i wasnt really listening to wad he said. -hee- just too.. captivated by his brown eyes and his nice skin. its so unfair for guys to be so pretty. -grumblee- its not exactly flawless but it has a nice colour. pinkish and rosy... and amazing, despite the hours spent under the sun, its not tan or anything! and his eyes are translucent, so brown, so pretty... and you can see right through to his pupil.. its facinating. and his lashes...omg. so long..so dark. so..gorgeous! (they're not gorges..they're beautiful! ahah ahah ahahaha)
its timothy's bdae todae! everybody go up to him and give him a hug!! -hugg---
oh.. since yuehan ish overseas now. maybe she is too..
same standard runners always move together.
pity she doesnt know him
todae my bleak dae was not tt bad after all. miss yeo scolded me again. and she was quite loud. if clara could hear every word she said, i think the whole class could too. sigh... i'm always getting in trouble. guess its true, i do have a flashing red light on my head tt just attracts everyone's attention and get all of us in trouble. sigh..wad can i say? so drained after yesterdae... and i didnt even do anything. i only feel like tt after four hours of ballet. i felt like hugging you. (dont forget..i have a friend named 'you'. bu yao xiang wai) i used to hug you when i'm depressed. i used to live in dreams... fantasies when i encounter situations like such. bah... used to be a weird one. and fer quite a while it was abt me in the hc canteen with you. but it'll never be..erm.. reality? you is no longer in hc. and i dont think i'm going to hc. dont feel like i can now at least. perhaps it'll all change. but i guess hc's kinda out of the question now. bah.. why am i talking bout all these?
-gasp-
have i told you i hate lizards? ook, i do. they are gross and disgusting... esp the fat white ones. abit like mr wong..but definately much grosser. there was one next to the mouse just now. eeps! i walked into the room and it was just there... scrambling frantically to make his getaway. normally i would scream my head off and run out. but i was just so damn pissed tt all i could do was hop a few steps back and grab my jacket tightly. and its feet were all round and flabby. it walked shaking its but... sort of like yi guai yi guai like tt. so fat and awful.
anw, enough bout tt. smths i hate my sister. she sucks lor... so damn selfish and all. feel like screaming at her and swearing. argh!! she's so uncompromising... wth.
i reached home later than i did yesterdae. and nothing exciting happened todae. all tt ran through my mind was.."reminds me of coming home from ballet" as i tilted my head towards the deep translucent blue sky above. i did not think of anyone else. so proud of myself k.. everyone give me a round of applause. yesterdae i met a guy tt resembled daniel so much! havent seen him fer a long time. but it wasnt him im sure. taller, bigger built..but still thin. same hair style.. diff bag..diff uniform. and guess wad i did? :) -g- eh.. think i shall not say la. tarnish my reputation only. :) you can figure it out slowly yea? saw rain todae. but it wasnt seeing her tt made me happy glad.. -but you have made me glae...- -hum- it was talking to her. she was telling me bout her match on saturdae. -beam- and how she hurted her hand -tink- bu yao wu hui wo, wo bu shi zai ju xiao ta. wo zhi shi fei chang gao xing. you guessed it. her hurter was anastasia. yes her. yah. i shall end here. tt's all fer todae. i must not get carried away noe. -lallala-
Tuesday, August 06, 2002
hey world... todae was a happple dae again. wait.. actually i only saw one of them. bah..
anw, i shall go bathe now then i shall try to do my chem paper! todae shall be the first official dae i start my revision. :) rae...we can do it together.. yea! let's pray tt i dont fall asleep k? :)
Sunday, August 04, 2002
the yuehan song ish playing on my comp now.
ah...suddenly thinking bout him now. this never used to happen... though associated to him, i didnt use to think of him each time i hear this song. ahh... the guy ish going away fer comp leh. one week! ahh.. ahh.. -pucca-
listening to mr sandman now... its such a nice song. so cheery.. :) just reached home. so full yeah?
watched mammon inc. its a great play but the characters could be better developed.. esp the angmo guy. but wad can you expect in a hundred minutes or so? good enough la.. i could watched it again... i lyke the set! tt's wad i like.... and i like the part where the angmo guy had to meet cindy. nice.. esp the part where he talked bout singapore. haha~ dunno why...but i've always like things tt talked bout singapore...if you didnt already realise. tan keng hua acted well.... as usual :) the way the guy..steve issit? learnt singlish ish so cute... nice. :) ate nice supper just now.. so much k. hokkien mee... wa kuei... kambeng soup, three baos...some chicken wrapped in rice paper... apple juice... sugar cane.. and i'm still craving fer more! help...i wish i were thinner. i wish i were taller. i wish too much dont i? and dont tell me i'm thin enough. i am by normal standards.. but i'm a dancer. or at least plan to be fer another ten years? i dont want to throw everything away k. i really wish i were thinner.. then i could eat anything i want! -yum-
saw peishan. and sujuan, ruth they all... bah. peishan's going to oxford. same as everyone else... heh~ just hope she doesnt become like the snobs in the play. but of cos, its just a play... pple in oxford arnt like tt in reality. right?
Saturday, August 03, 2002
my hair smells nice... -inhale- (external intercostal muscles contract, internal intercostal muscles relax, sternum up, pressure decreases, air gushes in) my hair smells nicee... come everybody! come smell it...
believe it or not...my dad is braiding my sister's hair now. yes, braiding two cute plaits fer her. -gasp-- my dad....wow
yn ay's on now!
here's her song -beamm- -twirL-
Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me
I ate the sharpest tool in the shed
somebody once asked 'could yu spare some change for gas
I need to get myself away from this place”
I said, “Yep, what a concept..i could use a little fuel myself
And we could all use a little change”
Didn’t make sense not to live for fun
Your brain gets smart, but your head gets dumb
And all that glitters is gold
Only shooting stars break the mold
haha..all you pple (cant you see, cant you see...ahah ahah ahahah~) are so lucky to be buttercup. i used to like her k... but now i like..mojojojo! its good to be buttercup. better than being bubbles at least. took tt thing some time back and i'm bubbles. -curse- not tt i dont like bubbles or anything.. its just tt she's bubbles too. k, wait. she's bubbles first. and i dont want to be wadever she is. but i got to admit, its nice to see them so nice to each other... from the outsider's pov. i want to like her... in that kind of way. the nonplatonic way..ahah ahah ahahah. but its hard la. i mean..considering our..eh....history together? -g- it'll be fun. just to let her know tt she can survive with someone else. :) but i bet you she'll kill me first. she'll prolly think i have smth evil up my sleeve and grab her...eh...belongings and escape.
bah...look at all the crap i just wrote. blinkk. cant blame myself...just came back. one dae i'll look at this and laugh at myself.. -gaze- i can just see it. -arh-
wise men say..only fools rush in
but i cant help falling in love with youuu
here's one more... just fer the record. -beam--
aay after day, i must face a world of strangers
where i dont belong, im not tt strong
it's nice to know tt there's someone i can turn to
someone who'll always care, you're always there
when there's no getting over tt rainbOw
when my smallest of dreams wont come tru..
i can take all the madness the world has to give
but i wont last a day without you...
looking back at some previous blog entries... i've come to a conclusion tt i sound super despo. like i'm desperate fer some guy or someone or smth. -g- and my only reaction to it was to laugh very hard out loud. havent really laugh at myself fer a long time.. it feels good noe. :) like hello? me? blinkk.. hahahaahha... ahah ahah ahahaha~
Friday, August 02, 2002
oh i know i should go
but i need your touch just too damn much
loving you.. isn't really something i should do
shouldnt want to spend more time with you
i should try to be strong....
oh, someone help mee..
i was so scared in math lesson todae. i felt like i was about to burst into tears any moment. and wad's worse...miss yeo noticed. sighh.. scared. scaredd. finished my paper at three forty five todae. but i didnt know how to do a few. so... bahh~ in the end, i ended at four.
dunno wad to say. blinkk.
my mum says i shd invite my friends home fer a popiah party. blinkk.. anything. if there are pple who will actually want to come. haha~ ate some really nice popiah just now. it wasnt very salty... but it tasted great. nearly as nice as the one my kor-po makes. cept..no peanuts, little sweet sauce..little garlic. no prawn. :) and when i walked into the kitchen just now after reaching home, i saw a bunch of banana's lying on the counter. blinkk. why are there banana's all around todae? three banana's in dance todae. and i laughed so loudlyyyyy!! argh -blush-- but it was really very farni wadd. banana floating about.. hee :) i like smiley faces. i drew a big sad face on my math paper just now.. cos i got stuck twice. bahh.. wonder if i rubbed it off. skully miss yeo scold me again.. and glare at me...and give me a buisong look.
oh, i may be changing to the five thirty class.. everyone's there! esther...qianyi.. joanne.. christina.. so fun rite! just hope she..no..you. yes, i have a friend named you. :) anw, just hope you changes back to five thirty. dont make my life miserable k..
he's never home, he never calls
how can you tell me he's yours?
if i was him, and you were mine
girl you'd know it for sure.
if yu were my gurl, i'd give you it all
why cant you see he's faking?
he don't love you, no
but he dont want anyone else to have you
he don't wanna let go,
so baby tell me why yu let him treat you so,
when I would do anything to have you
make your mind up, what you wanna do
he don't love you.
Thursday, August 01, 2002
i'm scared of math. so scared.
i mean, it was never like this. i didnt use to fear it. now i'm afraid to go near it... like it'll eat me up or sth. childish rite? but hey, i am wad. i'm so scared i cant do the questions. so scared tt miss yeo will scold me. so scared tt i will not do well. so scared of being the only one in the entire class to not understand. dont ask me when i became like this. its scaring me. but i dont know alot of things. i dont know my binomial. i dont know my graphs. i dont know my dydx. i dont know my integration. i dont know my completing squares.. yada yada yada. scared. scared. wad's worse, was when i wrote down my standard now on the board tt dae. i mean.. is sixty really tt bad? considering all the stuff i dont know? and i didnt exactly do well in midyrs lor. oh help. i dont want to go to some crap jc. i want to be with pple i know. not nj though . my dad say if can try to go somewhere else...heh heh~ but nj got quite a few cute pple. and cindy is there... but why bother to think so far. i'm afriad math will devour me alive. i dont want to diee... -sOb--
i am so happy! whee~~ i'm h-a-p-p-y.. :)
bah... the dae started out so great! i woke up on time without any dragging or any horrible feelings tt i need a little more sleep. i got ready in like record time, i sat down and ate and ate. so wonderful! then i saw my pointe shoes... was deliberating whether i shd pack them or not.. then trying to arrange them in order or age and colour. so frivolous. but fun. :) then on the way to school i had to call my dad to wake him up. he had some breakfast meeting or sth. yayy! i like to hear his voice noe. -beam-- and i reached school early. i saw chang yi! -applause-- yup, she was there walking a few steps ahead of me, with her shirt sloppily half hanging out..as usual. she walks so super slow k... when i turned into school, she turned in to her school. and she was walking alongside me for tt stretch of straight distance. i mean...she walks at the same speed as me! and that is very slow. haha~ and then i was so many happy-pple. happypple. happple. not as in people who are happy. but people who make me happy? yes? yes. first thing after i was chang yi, i was some one nice. then when i went to class, i saw a few more happple. and at recess, i saw one more. and the list goes on... no wonder i was in such a good mood. :\ not forgetting the fact i had ballet todaeee.. yuppo. nicenice. what else can i do to make my day any better? it rawks k. (minus the missyeo scolding me infront of everybody.) if only all the daes were like tt, i didnt even sleep in class todae! yeah!