Monday, September 30, 2002
my didi just asked me bout my results. he's the only one who told me they suck so far. pwah.. he rawks k. no one has dared to tell me tt. my cousin is so true and honest. :)
hey you all... you really should see this! my initial reaction.. -gasp-. -squeal!- ahh!! its so nicee...
today in the audi, there were few pple queueing up to get marks. and there can only be so few reasons for this phenomenon. 1) everyone has given up hope and doesnt intend to count phys in. 2) phys was very well done tt pple are happy with their results and dont need to beg for marks. 3) the paper was marked so super leniently tt no more marks can be squeezed out from it. 4) nobody really cares anymore. i also realised tt i seldom queue for marks.. even though all i need is one mark more or smth. i guess i cant bring myself to do it. it refering to two things.. beg for marks, queue. only did it once fer bio cos my point was there word for word, she just overlooked it. i mean if my answer is vague but i can scrape through, i wont. somehow i feel tt its my own fault tt i didnt further elaborate or tt i gave such a blur answer. so i cant bring myself to go expect the teacher be nice to me. -wriggLe- anw, the queues are so super long! and i'm lazy
i was about to start saying stuff when i received a msg. jonboy asked bout my results. and somehow i feel much better now. think it was tt smiley face. he always puts smiley faces. :) sihuan did a target update and i just thought, what would mine be if i had one? then i got real depressed. i mean, call me ambitious or a high acheiver but i set rather high standards. rather high as in.. alot of them were out of my reach. in other words, i failed. -shrug- i know i dont want to bother bout it anymore.. but sorry.. cant help it. you know how i like to hold on to things. :/ anw, i'm glad i raised my L1R5 target before i got back everything. at least i'm not so dissapointed now though the score was finalised long ago. am i? i dropped from midyr. -squeeze- quite horrible. so what if mrs ang wrote wonderful! around my script. i know she didnt think so. gah.. anw, though my phys results werent tt great, i'm quite pleased with it. and i know miss yeo's kinda dissapointed in me. a h a h~
momo got ninety -applause- for chem and was still pissed. she said, "i dont need to get so high." she's right. so what if i got eighty plus for my a1 subs? its still a one. and there am i stuck with a bunch of twos.. and it doesnt help at all. does it boost my ego? no. does it make me any happier? i'd rather get borderline ones than a bunch of twos. heh~ all it reflects is tt i cannot make it. try very hard, but still fall short. ahah. and its sad. cos tt's what pple look at.
Sunday, September 29, 2002
whooppee! i have 1 cm of ink left. finally. planned to finish using the pen during the exams.. but it has been one week since and its still alive and kicking. yay! maybe with the amt of work we have to do by tmrw i will be able to reach my..er.. goal. sigh, so much work! :(
ok peeps. my guestbook is out. was out last night actually. decided to create a new one.. so here it is! feel free to voice ur comments or whatever you want k? you're most welcome :) and if you're wondering why the colour and all doesnt match this page? tt's because it was designed to match my other page. yupp.. so just go do ur thing..
Saturday, September 28, 2002
i want to change my layout. i found quite a number i like. which is rare. but i dont know if i should. i like my current one too. rae's page is up. its nice. i like it. abit too pink maybe. but nice. i found yinky's page again. why am i talking in short sentances? blink.
miss yeo: how come you all so sure its three. so confident ar?
me to lan: its times two, plus a little bit..
lan: yah.. like bio. one point five times two.. plus a little. four
heh~
note: our target emath msg was 1.2 to 1.4. bio, 1.5.
the cool wind brushed roughly against my hair this morning and i shivered unexpectedly. i wasnt sure if i wanted to actually swim at such an unearthly hour. but the pool is seldom empty so i decided to just go for it. i dipped my toes into the pale blue water, half expecting it to be freezing, like the weather. however, to my surprise, it was warm. wah.. the water is damn hot today. not bad.. i thought. i lowered myself down.. envisioning smth like a giant hot tub. and the next thing i knew, my skin was tingling like tiny ants with ice cubes as feet running all over me. the water was up to my neck. all of a sudden, i scrambled out of the pool and gave a yelp. shit, the water is damn cold.. was what i heard myself saying next. guess this is what they call reflex action. i also didnt realise when i started using the word damn. its quite weird. i sound like a certain someone. this must be what influence is. just hope i dont overdo it. -scrowl- anw, it was so fun today.. i like cold water. i esp like the smell of chlorine. clsquare. ahah. but only chlorine-nated water. definately not chlorine gas. it bleached my nose cells and destroyed my brain. it gives me such...wild? reactions tt jasmine would scold me. :(
all pools should have mosaic tiles. its so.. pretty.
Friday, September 27, 2002
dad: ....then you'll see in the papers, "mad father hits students head at school.."
sister, cutting in: orh, you called urself maddd.
dad: you know wad mad stands for? it stands for making a difference, m-a-d.
mum, thinking its amusing: i'm mad! i can make a difference...
dad, to us: you know what ur mother said? she said, "i'm mad, i can make elephant!" ..yah, she is, she can make elephant.
- my conversation with my family over dinner about why nj isnt so bad after all
quote fer today: "I'm not going to deny that it still makes me feel like crying a lot of the time. But I tell myself - every subsequent day I make it through without crying, is a victory."
yuppo.. gah, but today wasnt very victorious. ahah. ok, i decided tt you all shd at least deserve an update on my results today. i screwed up my humanities. frankly, i screwed up everything.
ok, next! argh.. i cant think. a bit hard to concentrate when linkin park is blasting away and i want to sing along. right. .. ok, i was remembered of my cousin. how am i going to think now? arghh... mr hahn. my cousin's mr hahn. they look alike eh? someone once told me, "i'm aiming for a six, but i know how easily twos can take you up to twelve." ok, this is totally irrelevant. but then again since when was that one of my strong suits? anyhow, i guess i'll continue later
Thursday, September 26, 2002
oh yes, i forgot. the sec threes are doing our grad mag page. shit.. not tt i dont like them or anything, but they have no art sense wadsoever. shit. how how how? last year's batch did it themselves cos they didnt trust us, and they made the right decision. we couldnt care less.. but this book will be with me leh. and my sisters will look at it and go.."ey, how come ur page so lydat one" cringe. i hope its done up nicely. but the sec threes have no pictures. of us tt is.. which is kinda sucky. howwww.... -worries-
phew. i feel so rejuvenated. just came back from class see.. all of us went back. i was so thankful she didnt comment on either of us.. i was so embarassed. -hide- and somehow all four of us automatically stood in front, as if tt place had always belonged to us. did a "big jump from the corner" and i screwed it up. it was as if i was constipated. my thoughts couldnt flow.. screwed it up k. i love big jumps.. and i didnt cherish it today. she said i was sticky. blinkk.. -ponder- ahah. but its just such a nice feeling to be doing smth different. havent been there for nearly three weeks now. yifen hasnt been back for two and rachel, four. yeah, so basically all of us deproved and are fat now. not tt we werent before.. but more. and omg, grace has changed too! i mean.. grace? if you know her.. its like.. but tt's what exams do to you eh? yifen's screwing up her prelims too.. she's hoping for a nine i think.. i hope i get a one for geog and ss. then maybe we can go to nj together. but i think she just realised tt its kind of like a sucky place? so maybe she'll change her mind. guess she has given up hope on rj too.. ahah. but i have nothing to fear. eighteen.. i shd be able to make it la. and waichee and amy are going to nj too! whooppee...so many pple accompanying me again. but mr chong ish there lehhh... -gulp- ah heck. will think about it when i get back the results. :) meanwhile, no point worrying now right?
hmm.. i like to talk to certain pple i realise. i mean, it just made me feel quite good.. his reaction i mean. my mum was like.. not bad, told you it'll be alright already. mo was like.. good cher. and ynay went, "yay! i got this know!" but somehow it feels different? "its damn good." he said. its not la.. he knows tt too.. but somehow i smiled? -peer- some pple have the gift of making others happy. must be the tone it was said it. hoped he does well too.. on the surface you wouldnt associate him with great results, but if you analyse it carefully, you'll realise tt he's well capable of acheiving them. but if he does too well.. then i got no one to go aj with meee.... :( -pout- ahah. things are starting to be fun!
and i shall cease to comment about how my class is screwing everything up. or how our target msg is times two plus a little. or how we are making all our teachers upset.. i'm sure you'll read about it somewhere else. if you cant, just ask me then. :) -whee!-
you dont know, never know
well, I'm a man of many wishes
hope my premonition misses,
cause what I really feel
my eyes wont let me hide
cause they always start to cry;
cause this time could mean good bye
know what? i dont care anymore. -roll eyes- i just want to get aaway from it all.. from everyone. this is not fun anymore. i want to stop caring. -roll eyes- i'm tired and frankly, i really cant be bothered. sigh. this is not good. i think i'm pathetic, but i really dont want to go around begging for marks. like it will help? -roll eyes- someone please physco me.. help me tell myself tt i shd be happy with an eighteen. cos tt's what i think i'll get. sigh, i'm increasing my aim everday. ahah. -roll eyes- i'm sick of getting papers back. i'm bored. cant they just lock us up for a day or two and give it all back together? why let me die slowly? its horrible.. everyday i go home and tell my parents tt i dont want to go to a jc anymore only to get scolded for my attitude. -roll eyes- i'm sorry, but i really dont. i dont understand what you think. i dont undetstand anybody. i dont understand me. can i just go for chinese lessons and y'all take my papers back for me? i knew why it was so easy the last time round.. i didnt have to care then.
What is your Alter-Ego
Personality?
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
"there are 10 types of people in this world - those who understand binary and those who do not "
bell.. arent you lucky you do? -g-
Tuesday, September 24, 2002
Do you give a fuck?
This quiz style was designed by alanna, adapted by Batfish Designs, and created by Missanthropy.
this is bad. i shd stop asking pple to go away. i've said tt too way too many pple. but what can i do when all they want to talk about will upset me? i know i shdnt run away.. but i can stand it any longer. i hate it. i hate you. i hate me.
remember the guy said tt when someone has the "i not ok, you not ok" mentality he's likely to commit suicide? well, i beg to differ. i think tt he just has high expectations.
just came back from supper. my dad tried to council me. and my mum isnt back. i hope she doesnt ever come back. i'll never live it down. shit.
i told miss yeo i'd do well. i promised her. but look what happened? my goal was so near.. all i had to do was reach out and grab it. i was this close. but the dumb me as usual got complacent.. and looked what happened after a week of playing? this. i suck. i break promises. i hope i dont break mrs ang's. sigh
why do i have to be so lousy? i mean.. i suck at all i try to do. cant i be a little better than tt? i walked home from the train station today.. though it was only three busstops, i just wanted to get away from it all. we shd go j8 to watch movies next time.. so close. ahah. i was just strolling.. walking. i waited for the greenman to appear. that is smth i dont do.. i get too impatient. but today i just didnt bother. just stood there and stared into space. the third greenman took longer. and the more i stood, the worse i felt. all of a sudden it just came again. why must i suck? sihuan, i know i told you it'll never happened to me again, but it did. in school too... i just dont understand why i couldnt control it. why cant i be a little stronger? the pple in the cars must either think tt i either was just a loser, or got raped or smth. a h a h. for amath it wasnt as bad. i mean, i expected the result.. much worse actually. but today's.. i dunno.. maybe its from all the pent up emotions runnign amok. but not over these kind of things. why is this happening to me.. stopped in front of a brick at a construction site and kicked it over. finn's songs started to flood my mind. i couldnt escape. argh.. this is so bloody irritating. all i need is one more mark? i feel so embarrassed. oh wait, if this rambling is borring you, i'd suggest you leave or go to one of the links on the left and amuse urself a little. you dont deserve all this. i feel so mean. i know there are others who did slightly worse than me and there's no reason for my sudden reaction. i dont mean to make you guys feel bad.. sorry. its just tt i dont know what came over me. the horrid truth just sort of slapped me in the face. i didnt know what was happening till it did. as they say.. bi zi yi suan. and you know the rest. so glad i was sitting with bell and sihuan and just and mo. tried to laugh it off, make it go away.. but it was hard. what's my damn problem? how can i faced my parents like tt.. i'll be teased till kingdom come. its so.. embarrassing. it sucks, totally. i wished i had retaken chinese. i hate myself. no use comforting me by saying this is not impt. let me tell you.. it is. and dont compare me with you. i'll just lose. oh shit, i'm doing it again. why must i be so weak? i cant stop now. its not working.. everything i was taught to do isnt showing. i mean.. i'm a dancer, we learn stuff like this. cant even live up to the reputation. cant do a single thing right. why must i suck at all i attempt to do? why must i? i wish i were a little better. you know i suck. i'm sorry. too bad my teacher doesnt feel for me, too bad she doesnt really care bout her students, too bad she isnt emotional like miss yeo. just my luck. see, i cant even get a good teacher. cant do anything right. i'm sorry. you'd know i'll kill myself only if i werent scared of the pain. -roll eyes- told you i'm a loser.
currently listening to: finn - you were close
Sunday, September 22, 2002
when you see new and amusing things, or just things tt fasinate you, your radial muscles relax causing your pupil to dilate. hope this has been an eye opening experience for you all. :)
Saturday, September 21, 2002
i'm dissapointed. it has been so cloudy these two days. how to shang yue when the sky is like tt? and the moon isnt really nice too. i mean, i've seen better. much better. but i must say its realy round though, and yesterday it didnt have a distinct outline and looked as if it were glowing. and there were few stars too. pathetic. wanted to show bernice the stars and planets. she hasnt seen them before. i dunno why but i think i know relatively much bout stars, which is creepy. must be uncle thin yin and my dad's teachings. heh~ the orion's belt, the shield, the sword, the north and south star, the cross thing, the difference btw stars and planets.. and i dunno since when do i know the order of brightness and hotness their corresponding colours of stars. and i cant remember when i and how i know bout the fussion-fission thing bout the sun that makes if shine and radiates heat and causes it to change size but not explode. cool huh~ god is great.. and so are his creations. but i really wonder where i know all these from. smths i scare myself.
today at the..er..thing, there was this angmo looking guy. he was so nice k. i helped my sister collect a lantern but after a while the candle blew out. i told her to go ask someone at the booth to help her relight it. but as you know, she's a scardy cat.. so i like tailed her just in case smth happened. i was standing a little behind and all, waiting for a while before the angmo guy asked me if he could helped me with anything. and you know, such things scare me. such er..forwardness. so i backed up and gave a vague response. heh. but he was really nice about it. then i had to go back there a few times to get dene a lantern and all.. so i guess i got to know him better? he was really nice, lighting the lantern and all.. putting the stick and real polite too. and you know i think such things are er.. nice. :) he's quite cute too.. but abit bigsized. so.. shrug. anw, before you get the wrong idea.. i did not give him my number, and i do not like him. -roll eyes- i dont anyhow like pple one k... :/ ahah.
saw another jaychou video just now. shiok. ye ye bao de cha.. nice. i am lucky k.. keep seeing his videos around. :)
i love my cookie. so huggable. oh wait, its name has been changed to benny. yup, benny and bebe. by my beloved baby sister. benny is my big blu cookie monster while bebe is her.. dunno wadd, big yellow sleepy dog. benny looks so dumb with his gaping mouth, but i can tug my head in it. :) hmm.. benny sounds like larry in the episode of veggie tales.. the rack, sheck and benny one. heh~
Take the test, by Emily.
somehow i just knew i would be larry. gah.. my sister's the french peas. but i dont want to be larry.. larry's lame and dumb. -wriggLe- but he can sing, smth i cant do. so i guess its not badd
Friday, September 20, 2002
oh. the stupid guy msged me at round eight. he was still in school playing soccer. gag. i mean, he's exams arent over yet lor.. and he's already feeling so relaxed. dunno bout him, but if i were feeling like tt, i wouldnt have mood to go take exam already. but then again, he's super smart, and he's a mugger. a piaer too. so... he'll do well naturally. why do i care anyway? mumble
jialing hugged me today. :) :) :) dont ask me why i'm feeling like that. its just a good feeling to see them again. after two weeks of isolation...no three. i mean, i even saw serene. but not them. it feels shiok. the both of them were teasing me k.. and i was quite scared of being caught at first. heh~ its like.. they didnt even wish me good luck fer my exams? miss them k. went to the dance studio today.. twice. but it was close. i want to go in!! the last time i went in was during the hols to study ss. hah. but in the end i ended up doing the usual stuff.. and i slept. hee.. wanted to get stuff fer them. how can i go back empty handed right? but not flowers. not a grand occasion today. maybe bubble tea of smth.. fries? but i remembered what it was like last year.. doing so much other stuff to bother to eat. :) i want to go back. though i'll feel super weird now, i still miss it. shd go back one day when no one ish there.. monday i guess? hmm.. didnt see her playing after the thing too. saw ma-er only, but it was quite dark and i was too hyper. heh. sparklers are funn!! sparklers are pwettyy...
Thursday, September 19, 2002
just saw the pics my sister uploaded. urghh.. i look utterly gross. and you know i hate gross stuff. told you i dont look good in pictures already. -puke- -pukepukeee- but it brings back memories.. "ur house, ur..me-mo-ries" -- father of the bride 2 and i cant remember what i was wearing.. but it looks gross. hmm... oh, it was a workout shirt. no wonder ok. shd start mugging now. wait, i cant mug. shd start studying then.. ten mins left till bedtime!
oh, saw anhao on tv just now. quite a sucky video. but it was a nice song all the same. and he looked so...pwah. -faint- i mean... ahh!! -squeal-
oh, my dad said bye to me just now again. hmm.. -queer- and he refused to ask my mum to get me a banana!! hmphf! he made me ask myself. grr....
and every breath of wind praise
it will still fail by far to say
all my heart contains
i simply live, i simply live fer yew
just finished watching a nice show.. so super exciting k. i wouldnt exactly call it a great movie though. it lacks the intelligence element. i mean, its there.. but not alot. i lyke this kind of movies.. the action and intelligence kind. esp with fighting. heh.. which explains why i loved thirteen days. :) hmm.. felt really awful just now so laid and laze around for bout three hours or so. sigh.. i'm incompetent. last paper tmrw and yet i cant just get down to work. need to rely on my emath like..totally? i hope i dont lose my driving force, just one more paper left. i must persevere! ergh.. just hope tt i have common sense tmrw. tt's all i need to do well. tons of it. havent touched graphs in like.. eons. and i'm too lazy to do some now. lets all hope tt my graph skills dont go rusty and die out on me tmrw. brr...
Wednesday, September 18, 2002
i want to take fizika or ficicka as jing would say.. in jc. and i totally suck at it. how? this is not chem. so what if i can lose twenty five one marks.. its no comfort. in fiziks, marks arent loss in ones. they're loss in fives and sevens. sighh
oh, how would you know if you are colourblind? colourblind pple see green as red and vice versa. but if they see green as red and red as green all their lives, the red colour tt they see (which is green) they would label as green. so the trees to them have "green" leaves, (actually red). everything they say would coincide with what a normal person would say about colour, so how do you differentiate? heh~ hmm... the doctor wouldnt know what was wrong right. and even if they do those kind of test like a listening exam, they wouldnt be able to detect the defect since red will be seen as green but named red all the same. am i making any sense? so how.. check the chromosomes arh? but since when do they have tt kind of technology centuries ago..
sigh. screwed up my physics bigtime today. i mean.. urghhh!! it was totally like... suicidal. next time when i feel like killing myself, i shall just go do a physics paper. ahah~ actually all the papers we took werent tt hard. its just not exam paper quality. i mean, its unthinkable under exam conditions.. and its too long fer the exam time. under normal conditions i'm sure everyone can finish it in like slightly over half the time given, but durning the exam, no one can even finish it. sigh. amath is screwed, and i was planning to count it. fiziks? just made like a dozen careless mistakes. i found the correct ratio, but went to times instead of divide. -hit myself on the head- i forgot to times 3600 when changing from hours to seconds, times it by 60 only. -hit again- when deciding which two options were wrong, i was so happy tt i identified the wrong answer, but went to shade it in. -jumps down from the second storey- and i read the graph wrongly. -jump down from the third storey- A was behind B, but i read that B was behind. -jump down from the fourth storey- if this continues, i'll probably be at the hundred and fourty fourth storey by now. sigh. sigh. sigh. we plan not to let mrs wong back in class when school starts. grr... i feel weird. i never have this arcid feeling after papers.. those i have normally are nothing compared to this and last only for about ten minutes. i hope i dont do smth dumb like cry. blinkk.
i have no mood to study. finished the mg paper she asked us to do.. in only slightly over an hour. sigh, i shall be mentally prepared to not be able to finish tmrw. oh, anyone wants to go for dance during recess tmrw? sihuan..please? :)
Tuesday, September 17, 2002
lalala... just took my chem paper. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. nanafu set it, so all the nanafu stuff came out. bahh... lucky i studied organic chem last night. was studying and msging at the same time, so i wouldnt fall asleep. started revision only at eight last night. heh~ -inno- ok, enough bout boring stuff. i think all the ionic and covalent and marcromolecules stuff will come out later. hmm... metals and sec three work too. but i have no mood to study now. -wHee!- i came to school today feeling indifferent. ahah, couldnt think of a word. then i met laoshi on the bridge and told her i was scared. she's nice. :) was like telling me dont be scared and all.. then she told me i was smart. and rubbed my neck and told me everyone else would be feeling scared too. she was telling me tt with other pple to compete with, its obvious tt i'll feel scared but i shouldnt. and then she scooted off. just in time. why? cos kiwi was..er..ying mian er lai-ing. walked into school feeling quite cheery. the sun was brighter and oranger than it was yesterday, a little glaring though. i dunno why, but all i could think off was tt i'm closer to the end of my exams!! oh, miss yeo is pissed with me. gave me a kao bei look today, and scolded me yesterday. better stay out of her path before she snaps. must be my amath. guessed she has marked my paper. i can just hear her drawing her infamous "NO!"s on my paper and tons of ":(", after which she'll call me up and shout at me saying, "what is this? this is a load of rubbish!" hmm.. remind me to be mentally prepared.
xiaomin is next to me and she's banging away at her keyboard. i'm sure mine must sound the same to everyone else. my keys are super bouncy. -bOinkk-
Monday, September 16, 2002
oh no! i got bitten my a mosquito! yes, a blood sucking mosquito!! ah... i'm going to die soon.. loss of blood. ah! ah! itchy... ah! two bites! vicious mozzie. helpp... -sniff-
Saturday, September 14, 2002
ooh.. a shuaige's online now. but i decided tt he's not tt great after all. so i shant be excited. yes.
ok. update.. i didnt do anything today. sigh. except, eat, watch tv, water the cool plant with the big flower waiting for it to bloom, bathe the dog, watch my dad swop the tvs, flip through three magazines and went to my grandma's house then my cousins. phew. and did i study? eh... -inno- i realised i really should stop planning my timetable for after the exams and seriously get down and study. its not midyrs or some lousy exam anymore k.. its my prelims. repeat, prelimssss. argh~ i suck. how to even get to a jc lydat. blinkk. cannot let history repeat itself. must do well for bio and phys. and cannot be venice and study fer chem too. must be switzerland and revise emath also. guess what, i spent most of the hols going through the first week stuff tt i'm so out of touch with my sciences. help. i hope the papers arent too hard. anw, why am i going on bout this? my cousin cut his hair. and i realised tt he's cool, and suave. so, why doesnt he have a girlfriend? he got six pts fer prelims.. but i decided against swopping brains with him today. i mean, he said tt bio is all.. "blleeuggh" (quote from clara) and i cannot bleugh bio. so.. -shrug- i realise tt i keep talking bout my cousin. and if you didnt know better, you'll say i have a crush on him. which is absurd. ahah. he's so nice. helped me with cumulative today. though i'm sure he forgotten everything.. and he helped me break my snake high score :) and he wished me good luck fer my exams. :) and he doesnt use moouse. this i find quite weird..i thought all guys used moouse?
quote of the day: guys have either more than or equal the vainness of girls.
hmm... this is early. just ended a half-finsihed game of scrabble with my mum and sisters. and may i say tt my baby sister is smart? i dunno, maybe its because her mind is unaccustomed to a fixed routine of thinking, but she's able to see certain hidded linkages between words. cool~ i thought of giving it a go after shunning this game for thousand of years. guess i was in a better position to show off after the games with zhiping, sophia and rae. but i got sian halfway.. the first few rounds were pretty good. managed to clear all but one letter quite a number of times. there was one round where i got rid of all but three letters. i looked down at my pieces and "yja" were staring back at me. then suddenly it clicked. i sort of squealed and rearranged them.. j a y! aaaaaaaahhhhah. then i just had to listen his songs. i mean.. how could i not? so this is the reason why i turned on the comp - to retreive the cd. :)
morning world!
Friday, September 13, 2002
my stoopid phone has been charging for nearly an hour now and its still charging! aahhh!! -tears hair out-
i think chinese is cool. someone teach me all the words leh.. then i can rap in chinese! ahhah. i wantt... i wish my chinese were good. but its a bit too late now i guess. shd have thought bout tt in primary school.
gah. yikes! kiwi is so deh... i mean, what is he? a mgs girl? ahah. the other day michelle was telling us the...urm.. statistics of mgs pple. it was quite farni. my first reaction wasnt a really nice one. and it was loud. which wasnt exactly good. we all agreed tt mgs pple arent fat, maybe like one out of ten. and i dont think you'll want to hear the rest. we were talking bout the stats of pple from our school too. and we agree too tt less than nine ple are cheena k. its decreasing at a rapid rate. but there are still rare species like me. ahah. i think its quite sad. cos if we are getting less cheena, it'll just be a be a matter of time before we become nainyang girls' high. (close 'a') ahah. a quote from bry. i mean, we are well known for instilling chinese culture and heritage in the students. (did i phrase it correctly?) pple will naturally expect us to know stuff bout the chinese history and customs and everything. but we are...lets say, defying the laws of gravity here. which isnt very good. we must show pple that we are versatile and bilingual, know angmo stuff and cheena stuff.. know, all rounder? heh~ if not, we're just as good as any rgsgirl. and you know we can never be as good as them and them us. so why even try? we shd just be us and do it properly.
my phone just died. lasted for a week and a half this time round. quite amazing.. normally it lasts for abt five days. how long do pple's phone batt last? ok, all of you shall go blog bout tt k. interblog disscussion. ahah. wonder if you'll even bother to do it. -ohwell-
oh, i didnt swop brains with my smartass cousin tt day. didnt see him. argh. if not i would be able to get six pts fer prelims like him right.. wasted. and he even agreed k. though he was abit indignant tt i'll be an 'all rounder' while he'll be flat. heh.. i added the end just fer fun. but i'll be seeing him tmr, if he's at home tt is..
give me a kiss to build a dream on. and my imagination would travel on tt kiss. sweetheart i ask no more than this - a kiss to build a dream on
you should see this.
its nicee... and the penguin ish so super cute! ahah. i wish i could remember how to do flashes. blinkk. tt sounds a little.. er...
did i mentioned tt exams are fun? they are really... once you ignore their importance and just concentrate on the exam, its really very super duper fun! -wHee!- tt's why end of years and mid years rawk! just not prelims though.. their impt for me. sigh.. i wish i were smart. but heck, i'm starting not to worry so much bout them and just enjoy them fer what they are.
if i dont screw up my sciences, maybe i can not count my amath. hmm...
Thursday, September 12, 2002
just changed my colour scheme. whee! its all yellow with pink, blue, orange and purple and green highlights. so bright. eh...? hmm.. my mummy bought a pen fer me the other day. and it was the exact one that i wanted. i was trying to give myself a little incentive saying tt if i finish the chapter i'll go out and get it. and the next thing my mum saunters in with it. thought it was the wrong colour.. but isnt she great? -beam- how'd she know i wanted tt? hmm...
-gasp---
i didnt pass my essay to miss lee!! it has been more than a week.
shit. she'll kill me man
exams are fun! whee~~
just go in and whack and come out and laugh at the dumb mistakes you made
i mean.. tt's after you get used to it la
go to school for two hours and come home and slack.
no homework, no tests
its not even recess time there yet and here am i..
isnt it great
hmm.. my mum didnt ask how my paper was today. i guess its because she's fearful of how i'd react. i sort of blew up at her tt day when she asked bout my english. i mean... it was the first paper and english isnt really my strongest suit. first papers for me always dont go too well.. havent gotten the hang of things yet. i was quite upset. plus my amath. urghh... i was planning to count it. i mean, i was going to count it without a doubt! but i sort of screwed up.. tons of careless mistakes and i nearly couldnt finish. i cant believe i forgot how to do such a simple log question. quite dissapointed. i mean i knew the rules the principals i even knew what mtd to use before i attempted it. but...sigh... i got stuck halfway. how could i miss the point tt when logs minus each other you can divide the inside?!?! i applied the rule a dozen times to the other side but just couldnt think straight on this side. sigh.. i was angry. i mean.. i screwed up so many papers so far... what am i going to count? like i can count my chinese lydat. hah! for geog i was wondering whether it was radial or centipetal river system. didnt revise tt and couldnt remember which one was the downwards one. so i inimininanimoe-d and picked radial. also because it was easier to spell.. one mark down the drain i guess. sigh. now you know why i do badly fer exams. :) dont like it when i know how to do both questions too.. i will always have doubts about whether i chose the correct question. i've never encountered such a situation before, so when i had to choose fer geog yesterday, i didnt know which to pick. i studied manu but said i would do agriculture.. in the end i chose manufactoring. it was harder.. and i was a little unsure of the questions. sa said should tt i should have chosen the agriculture cos it was about bio. and i think she's right. we have an advantage.. and the questions were so simple! argh.. but its over. who cares :)
now must go study amath. have to get full marks for paper two tmrw.. if not how to pass. ahah. i want to do the impossible. -bOw-
Monday, September 09, 2002
gah... i was told tt i looked calm and undisturbed by the exams. gahh... what else can i say? looks can be decieving. i'm really a bundle of nerves within. i hope i wouldnt be though.. me plus nervousness plus adrenaline equals disaster! like my cousin says.. "dont hope. just be" i shall be not nervous tomorrow. my worse subject possibly: english. akk! i'm fearful of it. terrified in fact. i want to go to a jc noe :x <-- my new face :)
i shall sleep early tonight. listen to xiaoping. she called specfically to tell me tt. -beam-
thanks to y'all out there for wishing me best of luck and all the best for my exams.. i truly hope tt the luck goes with me. ahah. even if it doesnt, god will. yippeee! -twirL-
Sunday, September 08, 2002
ooh.. bodyshop has a new line of cosmetics..
dont really like their packaging.. but some of their pdts are quite nice. some still have the sticky feel tt i dont really like. ahah. i have planned out my timetable for after prelims... heh~ guess i couldnt get round to studying huh. i shall go get a new eyeliner.. not tt i'll ever use it, but fer fun. i shall organise my array of photos into one giant album. this means tt soph you have to return me tt album.. swap with you a close up pic of him? heh.. if you're not interested then i shall give it to jialing arh.. dont say i didnt warn you. :) i shall also go pamper myself a little. i shall spent one day shopping all by myself. i shall go search for a new phone cover. i shall go but all the cds tt i've been eyeing for some time now. yupp... i think the first three will take up prolly three to four weeks? so maybe i shant find a new cover if its too much trouble. -shrug- and ooh... i shall go back fer eca! yuppo.. i shall go home with her after school too. after all, she has promised to alter her hairstyle. so maybe peew wont call her a 'cute butch' anymore. ahah.
Saturday, September 07, 2002
my good friends arent here now. boo.. i feel lonely. ahah
my smartass cousin is going to swap brains with me tmrw so tt i will do well fer my prelims. yippeee!!
i've been trying so hard not to suan him lest he changes his mind... =x
Friday, September 06, 2002
quote of the day: "after ur exams, if you can get into a jc, what subs do you want to take..."
what the.. do i really seem tt hopeless? :(
-whyaminotsurprise- my sister will always be my sister. smths she doesnt know how dumb she's making herself seem. and i shall be kind enough as to not point out her mistake to her. i mean.. cant bear to dash her impression bout herself. smths she really thinks too highly bout herself. so what if she cant stand incompetant and dumb pple? neither can i. and she thinks she know so much bout me.. urgh. which of cos she doesnt and all those tt she thinks she knows are basically illusions made up by her. -cuRtsey- so she goes round telling everyone bout my friends.. and happily assumes that the two of them..which are worlds apart...are the same person. and she blames my cousin for not knowing who she's talking about? when she's talking bout someone who she assumes belongs to my cousin's church and give a totally off descrition? smths i am disgusted. she goes on..thinking tt she's correct and meanwhile kicks up a whole controversy about me. you should have seen what those pple wrote about me. its as if i'm some kind of despo who happens to be a loser and has totally no life and totally sucks bigtime. i mean... its true la. but i refuse to say tt i'm a despo. pleasee.. if you say i'm a desperate person, would i have done those things to everyone? sometimes i wonder why i even bother. they sneer and giggle at me.. criticise me even. can i just slap all of them? what the... of cos they would. they have a warped impression. i admit i am desperate. i am desperate for things i cannot get.. like good results and being able to dance well and being tall and stuff. but i am certainly not desperate for guys. hello? you are talking to the person who just let it slipped to her mum tt she doesnt want to get married? grrr.... smths i hate my sister for being so know it all. can she just stick to her own life? she reads my msgs over my shoulder and assumes everything. she goes round sprouting tales without even getting her facts right. and she asks me why i dont talk to her about my friends. -sheesh-
long time since i've last blog here. too preoccupied with my other blogs.. i kinda foreseed this happening. heh. i sent a file but forgot to attach it. -shit!- i'm so muddle headed. gah.. ooh, i made a condensed copy of our timetables for april. just finished writing the whole thing out... she wanted a soft copy. the others'll get theirs via email. heh~ and i'm so proud of it. its as big as a thousand pieces of a4 paper stuck together.. and its as colourful as a rainbow. ok. not tt colourful. mostly greens, purples.. and blue and orange.. and of cos light blue, light yellow and silver.. my school colours! yeah! ahah. i decided to use the new phone today. dunno what came over me all of a sudden. still not use to the msging system.. and i dont really like the ring tones.. so shrill the beeps. -shiver-
me: yikes.. the chair is so hot
him: -heh- yah wad.. i got a hot butt, hot bad rite.. i've got a hot butt -g-
me: -eh?-
him: -g-
smths i wonder how dumb i can be. someone wrote a quote and stuck it on the fridge. it read: success comes in cans. and the thought that immediately followed was, "what...? then failures come in bottles?" i mean to me it seemed like the only thing tt it could possibly be, till i read the next line: failure comes in can'ts. even then i didnt really understand till some time later. the whole picture clicked, like the last piece of the jigsaw was fitted, light dawned... sigh. slow rite...
Thursday, September 05, 2002
hey everybody!! its my dao gae's bday soon... -whee!-
let's all give her a great big hugg...
love her dearly :)
Wednesday, September 04, 2002
The way you wear your hat;
The way you sip your tea;
The memory of all that.
No, no, they can't take that away from me.
The way your smile just beams...yes esp tt dear
The way you sing off key;
The way you haunt my dreams.
No, no, they can't take that away from me.
We may never, ever meet again
On the bumpy road to love.
Still I'll always, always keep the memory of..
The way you hold your knife;
The way we danced till three;
The way you've changed my life.
No, no, they can't take that away from me.
The way you wear your hat;
The way you sip your tea;
The memory of all that.
No, no, they can't take that away from me.
No, they can't take that away from me.
Tuesday, September 03, 2002
oh. i feel.. nothing? the pretty tiny white ochids on the tree outside our school is not the peanut orchid after all. its the pigeon orchid instead. oops.. gah. blink. dont you all agree that its pretty? so tiny and shaped like a star.. too bad they dont germinate often. and they're white.. my favouriteee colour. -wriggLe-
Monday, September 02, 2002
i'm so happy!! -squeal-
yippee... -beam-
urgh! someone stole my speakers! how to listen to my jaychou cd lydat.. gjkgsfui. -pOut-
and i have decided to give up trying to be selfish. it'll never work. i suck at it.
to me, confidence is attractive.
i feel quite sastified. i reactivated all my old blogs :) my diaryland one is activated again! ditched it after one entry cos it was getting on my nerves. heh~ so now i have a new geocities one, the dland one... and two blogspot ones. quite a handful huh? dunno how i'll cope. still remember my very first was a tripod one back in sec2. it was quite crappy -hide-
Sunday, September 01, 2002
yayy!! yippee... i am so happy. jay chou won so many awards.. and he looks so much more adorable in real life. my sister says talent is attractive. and this time i have to agree. he's so super talented k.. so what if he isnt ocs material? it doesnt matter this time round. and his blurness and all just makes me want to fawn over him.. -squeal!- he performed twice k.. so what if it wasnt my fav songs.. he's still extremely talented. -faint- i like it tt he looks so caught up in his own world. at least he isnt proud or arrogant or anything.. and he's humble too. i lyke guys like tt. he finally smiled a little when he got his third award.. so cute. i felt like hugging him. he composes his own songs rite? he does his own music? he does his own backup.. he sings, he raps.. he rawks. he has the ability to do songs in a spectrum of genres and make them sound superb. the lyrics of his songs are real sweet. imagine if he were singing them to you. wouldnt you just faint and fall in love with him? imagine you were the one he was talking about in his songs.. the one this not bad looking, talented and sweet character was thinking about, wouldnt it be.. bliss? i dont know bout you, but i love to listen to his songs over and over again. it brings a sense of warmth to me. plus, his voice is so mellow and soothing... -dream-