Monday, June 30, 2003
ahhh!! kantang just called me an angel! haha~
beefcake walked me home today.
"did it hurt?"
"huh..?"
"when you fell from heaven... cause you must be an angel."
Sunday, June 29, 2003
i want to sleep. i havent studied at all for today and yesterday. is this bad? dont answer tt. i want to laze around and curl up with my scary book. but i cant. i must go out now. arghh..
oh yes yes yes.. welcome home everybody
everytime i think of you i get a shot right through into
this is stuck in my head.. i've heard it only twice. i'm so sian but its just stuck. gah.. he wrote it in my book tt day.. it seemed so long or recent, i cant decide.. its so nice. just came back not too long ago. got quite a bit of stuff today.. i just spent a bulk of my time looking at the words written in my notebook. the memory seems so vivid. its so nice -twirl-
ohoh, i saw the princess in my school tt day. remember the princess? the princess who took a walk in the park? my princess? yes, i saw her tt day. -beam-
i reread all my stupid comments in my book just now. i couldnt help but laugh. smths i'm just so lame and dumb in a way. so simple. a simple girl.. yes?
i feel fine and i feel good, i feel like i never should. whenever i get this way i just dont know what to say, why cant we be ourselves like we were yesterday. i'm not sure what this could mean, i dont think you're what you seem.
Friday, June 27, 2003
just had a reaaaaaall long conversation with jay. hmm.. he sounds surprisingly similar to him. must be the ac vibes. bah.. its been so long i nearly forgot who he was. heh~ he's giving a solo performance tmrw.. not bad sia.. anw, i didnt believe i had so many stories. i tell everyone i see a different story and i still have leftovers. -thinks- cant believe we share the same sentiments about.. -beep- i thought all brothers supported their brothers wholeheartedly. ahah~ he owes me many stories.. tt lousy poo. he said, "if you think my brother is cute your taste must be damn bad. damn bad." but of course he'll say tt.. its his brother.
Thursday, June 26, 2003
just watched agent cody banks. charlie's angels rawks.. i wouldnt mind watching it again. yeahh.. ok. i have to go change now, dont want to be late again. too bad i so want to take a nap. :/ bah..
ladidoo.. just got back not long ago. i'm still so full. gah..
we played again just now. think my other one is a bit neglected.. so the more detailed stuff will go there. lala~ i'm hearing colourblind now. -rainbooow!- going shopping on friday. tt means i have no time left to cover whatever i have to. -slams- gah..
Wednesday, June 25, 2003
ok, i'm in pink now. super gurl. but.. oh well. going off soon for charlie's angel. things you've missed from the last entry tt didnt turn up.. 1) i got squirtttttttttttttttt. 2) some clarification tt isnt very impt.
yesyes.. and hi lynette and charison. my two new readers.. -waves-
Sunday, June 22, 2003
i need a boyfriend.
my boyfriend will get me the green squirt pouchhhhhhhh!!!!!! -wails and fusses about-
stop kekking me bout it. hey! tmrw morning i will go to world trade and see if they have it. i was so dissapointed today k. :( arghh..
i need a boyfriend.
cab fares are the reason.
bah.. i fell asleep on the bench today. i nearly fell off.
actually i dunno if i'm delighted or nsh bout the way things turned out. i guess i was mentally prepared long ago. i always have this knack for knowing things i'm not suppose to know. oh well.. as they say, xiao hai zi you er duo mei you zui ba. shant say much bout this.
i felt so childish or rather childlike with him today. i mean.. normally when i'm with pple my age, it gets quite bad. but so far this is the best. the frog kissed the ballerina today. he was wondering if it would become a prince. i said no, cos it had a flat face and demostrated my point by banging it into the transparent cd cover. the eagle was making friends with the frog. then the frog made friends with the ballerina. then all three.. and a pink panther joined the group. so we just sat there watching the four things make friends with one another. the ballerina's name is jerald or shammy or smth like tt, i think. i realised his hair looks like a lawn. heh~ we ting xie each other.. and i shall stop here.
buy a present for drizzle .. tt's what i saw on his foolscape. -lala-
all ac ple are dee eu am di.
i saw a semi cute guy today. -inno-
Thursday, June 19, 2003
ok. give me one clap. -clap-
i feel oh so proud now. -beam- i have kind of succeeded in making this look as sad. dont you feel sad for me looking at this? yeahh.. -cuRtseY- i searched so long for the words. heh~
anw, i'm in no mood to do this now. dont ask me why. maybe the layout is just unfriendly. -shrug- i went for class today. was late.. as usual. didnt know tt it got pushed earlier. i took 167 today. it was the bus i took tt day... -memories kind of flooding back- yupp. realised tt if you cancel out the first letter and swop three letters in the word metastasic you get smth else? ahah~ i'm so.. urghhhhhhh.. reminds me, i should go visit xm someday. maybe tmrw.. before i go away.
what i did today.
830 woke up
845 search for everything
9 plus left the house
930 reached school, opened the door, realised i left the cd in the car. called my mum but she was on the phone. dropped the phone on the floor
1000 danced.
1223 ate lunch
-?- continued dancing
went to chinese high boarding school to check out their lovely aircon canteen. so bright and cheery
danced
let maluation overwhelm me
1637 went back to school.
bought nss
said bye to albert
went to the classbench near mine
1707 decided to leave
1710 finished packing up
1717 left after saying bye to everyone
r[itaseriotfp. i guess you know the rest. the long walk, the bus ride, the late class... and the blahhh.
my dad fetched me home today.
he said, "eh? you're back already ar.." just now
a whole bunch of other thoughts tt made me nsh today. but too blahhhhh.. to talk bout it.
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
yeah.. its me. up at this unearthly hour of dawn. oh well. blame it on my stupidness. :/ some pple just have to live with it. i stupidly woke up at seven twenty thinking it was eight twenty. then i went to my dad's room to wake him up. normally, he would be the one dragging me out of bed. anw, he told me tt he'll be leaving at eight fourty five. so yeah, i took my time and all and was done by eight fifty.. or at least what i thought was. i went to his room again only to find him reading the papers not yet changed. i asked him for the second time if he was going to work. and he told me again we're leaving at eight forty five. after a short pause he added, its only seven fifty five now. i was like arghhhhh inside but somehow managed to maintain an undisturbed face and nodded. this is so stupid can!!! and i even thought my rugrats clock was an hour slow. so i adjusted it. lucky the fish clock was too high for me to reach. argh.. i'm so dumb. -slapslapslap-
Tuesday, June 17, 2003
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hey.. he's so puny. unlike me. :/
oh well.. i missed friends again. i really should try getting back on time. bahh.. didnt go to harry's in the end today, felt i wasnt dress suitably. going for a holiday soon. and i have so many places i want to go to this holiday. i dont think i can fit studying in. gahh. i'm such a bad gurl. -slapslapslap-
Monday, June 16, 2003
i like slept the whole day away. still sleepy and all and i'm going out soon. quite screwed.
i know why it happened. i didnt like you for who you were.
Sunday, June 15, 2003
i should just stop trying to be thin when i'm not.
Friday, June 13, 2003
gah.. i didnt go to school in the end today. i want to go swimming tmrw morning. but have a feeling my dad will think its not such a great idea. smth bout the place being too new and quiet. oh well.. maybe i'll end up in school. i havent been there for such a long time. feels kinda weird. and i'm kind of ermm.. by it. i mean, school? hmm.. if i went to school today i would have shown joshua my new favourite book at the shop next to the milo shop. -blink- i have so many things to say.. i must try to resist putting them here. why? firstly it'll sound like i'm trying to show off or smth. secondly, its rather a waste of time. thirdly, i'm going to have to retell them again since the pple i want to know wont ever read this.. or do they..
after finding nemo at wisma on monday i finally found nemo. ahah~ i love going out with my gurlfriends.. they dont try to send you home. gah. why cant pple understand tt smths a little private time is required. i dont allow pple to send me home. at least he didnt try to send me to my doorstep. i should run off earlier next time. do you think i was mean to those pple just now? who am i to be mean.. even if they were.. er.. i shouldnt feel like laughing and have said all those stuff. maybe in a less straightforward maner at least. i know you'll probably say its fine, but i just feel bad. gahhh.. i had fun today. thankyou -cuRtseY-
and i realise its really how you dress. i didnt have this prob on tuesday..
Thursday, June 12, 2003
argh.. i cant find my pixie fac shirt. neither can i find my new normal pe shirt. gahh.. where did everything disappear to?
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
lalala.. i am a happy girl.
there's no tapestry tmrw. and i'm not going for class. -sob-
oh well.. i get to see xm. -twirL-
ok. i'm in a major dilema here. this is not becuase i like to make my frivolous problems known, its merely just for me to think..
alright..
1) i'll be in school early tmrw probably with joshua and rain.
2) i'll walk over to bernice's house at ten. probably till one plus.
3) suppose to go over to gideon's to practice with him after tt.
4) suppose to have tapestry auditions at four thirty which i have yet to finalise with yunying cos she's not picking up her phone!!
5) want to go out with xm which i miss soo badlyyy. time: after three
6) want to go for ballet too which is at five thirty.. pointe work this week and i'm so on today. must make use of my on self. or go at four for the ele class.
how???
so many things of which all i want to do.
hmm.. -thinks- the class on monday must have made me this on. i could lift my arabasque leg to a hundred and twenty, i was aiming for only ninety. i could spot perfectly.. barefooted. hmm.. but i so want to go with xm and i dont think i should change the date or postponed to next week. she'll probably make noise. hmm... this song is nice. hmm.. if i dont go this week, next week'll not be pointe. and i like pointe work. hmm..
ok. i'll ask the others if tapestry can be moved to another day. if not, i'll not join them for auditions. but tt's so bad. then, i'll go for sunday class whatever time it is.. and do pointe no matter what, even if its soft. but no kick la.. -oh well- yes yes.
i am so smart. congratulate me. :)
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
he says.. i think i'll call you 'princess' cos you look like one.
i say.. princesses have tiaras. you can call me tt when you give me one. in other words, no.
hmm.. just came back. i think. left early cos ost told me to meet him at school. as usual, i was late. -heh- ratface was there. my mum asked me why i wore my uniform.. i dont know why, i just told her cos i had not wore it for a rather long time. hmm, do i really not wear my school u to school tt often? -ponder- oh well, we went to the staff room to find bee. ratface opened the door for me. when asked why he came to school today, he replied, "to see you.." which was an obvious lie tt ost denies. but i still trust my judgement. ratface likes to bluff i realised. like me. -cuRtseY- oh well.. went to bugis today. then suntec. i think i look so pretty now. yet so old. too old. i could be twenty. ick! ickickickkk! oh well.. sorry i made you walk so much today. i know! i looked like an mg girl yesterday. -beam- its good tt ost is tall. i ran and hid next to him away from retardee. eeps! both of them walked so fast leaving me ahead with retardee in the vicinity. meanimoes. :/
i realise tt i jump from topic to topic. sorry for causing any dizziness.
Sunday, June 08, 2003
wearing: indigo jeans and a smooth black top
hair: is let down in a grunged look
mood: -oh well-
looking for: dark layouts with pretty girls.. smth like siewping's. but so far all only nice ones, nothing fantastic yet. though many pretty delicate ones, i'm not in the mood for them.
listening to: some random song
last person who msged me: jonboy
last person i msged: michelle
second last person i msged: ratface
last person who made fun of me: ratface
last person i hugged: jialing
feel like: going shopping
wants to: go swimming
things tt need to be done: 1) finalise date for tapestry audition thing 2) come up with a short dance routine for fachead 3) organise and call up simon and gideon and arrange for prac by friday. gahhhhhhhhhhh..
remembering: the coin incident with all the kind pple
triggered by: the thought of the fachead thing.
tell me love isnt real its just smth tt we do
i'm glad it turned out this way. after seeing you today, i couldnt imagine what it would be like it that situation carried on till now. i made a right choice of letting go. like laoshi would say.. na de qi, fang de xia. i can do tt. -beam-
i so do not not not not not!! have afanclub. hmphff..
oh. i guess all my friends think the same way. i'm getting identical gifts. and it happened more than once. jonathan and kiwi gave me the same flowers. i didnt know what to say.. how to react. i was so shocked. same colour. wrapped in the same colour paper, with the same colour same type of ribbon. only diff is tt.. jonathan had seven roses, while kiwi's had five. thanks anw.. -curtseY-
i'm so guai. i didnt go for the party. i didnt go for the movie :)
Saturday, June 07, 2003
i was so looking forward to swimming this morning. but now i'm not going to. :( have to conserve energy for tonight. :(
i want contemporas or nicolinis... :/ and i want a blue spot!
ok.. we got into closing ceremony. at least tt's better than botanica gardens and the birdpark. band had botanic gardens i think.. nanyang got into opening ceremony. goodjob. but i know it wasnt you tt got you this place. it was laoshi's wonderful dance.. as usual.. and your pretty hand props. oh well.. just cherish this chance and practice real hard. i mean.. real real real hard. i'll be sitting in front watching. -shrug-
ok.. i shall be doing smth else now. those coming tonight dont malu me too badly. and dont expect a very good one from us. i havent practiced since.. heh~
oh.. i saw this really cool book at the shop next to the coro milo shop!! everyone must go see it..
xiaowei and rain were throwing my pretty shoe around. up and down.. from the second storey balcony to the central plaza. and rain kept waving to my shoe that sat prettily down below. -pOut-
i realise i have an atrocious scream.
Thursday, June 05, 2003
oh yes.. i was asking anastasia if she knew who -beep- was.. cos see, i dont exactly remember how he looks like and i want to. she looked at me and pointed, "there.." he was like right in front of me.. i nearly dieded
did i tell you i met my darling last night? -twirL-
did i tell you i ate a yummy hotdog last night? -yum-
did i tell you we pretended to be at a concert using out phones as light sticks last night in the dark bball court? -wave-
did i tell you we stoood at the overhead bridge watching the stars? -gaze-
did i tell you i saw laoshi yesterday? -hugg-
did i tell you yesterday rawked? -jump-
did i tell you we all looked so pretty? -blink-
there are ple beside me talking bout me. oh well..
and as i said, i tend to be right. ratface msged me last night.
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
hero msged me on sat. ost msged me just now. because hero told him.. if it carries on, pretty soon the whole team will.. including the rat
94997277.. tt's the number for sars.
9499 sars.. seven two seven seven :)
Monday, June 02, 2003
i said i wasnt going to write stuff here till the end of the week. but it has been such an exciting week so far i cant help it. too embarassed to go into details here.. and its much more fun to tell it personally anw.
today xinhui asked why i have two blogs. well.. i dont know. i guess.. i wanted two layouts? -shrug- and since xinhui knows bout this, i shall say.. hello xinhui -beam- lala, now you can get what's left of the scoop and the other weird stuff. :)
we tailed angel today on the way to the canteen. yanxuan asked him stuff.. cant remb what. dont think i was really listening. dance again tmrw, i get to skip chem prac. yeahh~
its the second of june today. know what tt means? my sister will be back in less than twenty hours and syf auditions is in less than forty hours. cool..
i shant bother to elaborate on the eventful day and weekend. its just too long. oh, rain tried asking for didi's name today.. but i told her i didnt know him at all. she kept insisting tt they were trying to bieo me.. whatever tt is.. dinner was fun. i made it back in time for friends. yeah!
congrats xm..