Summertime

Thursday, July 31, 2003

helpp... someone please help this gurl. she's turning horrid. :/

i lyke my new keypad. no more matching stuff for a while i guess.. but then again, i should stop wearing plasters. so what if they're cute -grin-

had loads of fun with my class today.. such a long time since. it felt like i was sec 2. anyhow, if you're not going to do anything i shall just proceed as if nothing had happened. tt's what happened with yew and i dont see why not. right?

i am reminded of sophia all of a sudden. -lalala-

Monday, July 28, 2003

oh yes i forgot. i have decided not to make noise about it. a dancer should never show her emotions right? and i am a dancer... i think. so no matter how much it hurts to write, or straighten my leg or when pple push against it, i shall not yelp or show and signs of discomfort. -cuRtseY- thankyouverymuch.. let's go back to the good old days.

her name was lola, she was a showgirl..

Saturday, July 26, 2003

say hello to the gurl tt i am
you got to have see through my perspectives

Friday, July 25, 2003

my stoopid hand hurts a lot. i cant write. its clogged with pussy puss. its bruised and inflamed. and it keeps bumping and jabbing into things. -frown- i cant walk or kneel either. and the plaster's too small to hide the bruise. bleuggh..

i'm not crazy i'm just a lil unwell
i know right now you cant tell
i'm not crazy i'm just a lil impaired
i know right now you dont care

vanessa wrote it in fishy during prac. lala.. she finally taught it to me. satisfied my curiousity and just's irritatingness. haha~ thanks for the plasters.. i was kidding. but thanks anw -twirL- i sang stuff from chorus line today. waiting around not doing much makes me think of it. sang so much today.. funn :) but all i wanted to do was dance. havent done so for a long time

Thursday, July 24, 2003

my arms hurts quite bad. keep ramming it into stuff. ouchh. i rammed into the wing lights at barker today. cut myself. it hurts.. my leg too. i couldnt stop yelping when i was made to wash it. -leer- once out of tt cold place i regained my senses and reality seeped in. i cringed against tt awful sting.

Monday, July 21, 2003

ok. i am not doing pe now.. so i'm just going to wear my swimsuit all day long. hope it helps keep me warm. today is such a cold cold day even though the sun is so cheery.

lalala, i didnt do any homework during the weekends. dang!

ok. next sunday we shall go out and watch alex and emma. didnt join them this sun cos.. i dunno, i didnt feel like traveling. we should go out more often while sam is back.. hmm..

miss ng said tt we appear to be listening but our minds are somewhere else. and i realised tt i was trying very hard to pay attention. i looked at the board from my comfy position with my head upon my arms.. i copied one balanced redox equation. and i was thinking bout tons of other stuff. its amazing how much can go through ur mind in forty mins.

as i laid in bed last night and looked at the stars above, i sang a song. i couldnt sleep somehow. i oraginised the msgs in my phone.. so now when you open the inbox it says.. (empty) . -beam- i am efficient. the no space for new msges was getting troublesome. i thought and thought and thought about him.. and him. and i realised tt i forgot how he looks like. dang! me and my short term memory. oh well.. i have decided tt nothing will happen this time. not two in a row. allow for some variety in between. -twirL-

ok, i'm bored. good bye

Sunday, July 20, 2003

i will not reply her when she sends superficial msges. cos i dont want to receive those kind of things from her..

ok. macadamia nuts are nice.

todolist
grow thin.
dont eat so much rubbish
straighten my knees
dont disappoint her
be a nicer person

i havent started on my work yet. but i know i must. i must gai guo zi xin. cannot chuan xing xie zou lao lu. when i told joshua tt i dont do my tutorials he was quite taken aback. you mean normal ple do their tutorials too? oh well.. i shall start soon. -nodd-

i think its fun when i just anyhow dance. like today! -wHee!-
i got corrected alot today. and she said she'll heave a sigh of relief when i finally know what i'm doing. sorry.. but this just happens to be my second lesson so far. i know i'm about two months behind and i promise to catch up! :) i was made to stand in front though i was overly contented with my spot in the second row. i mean.. qianyi was about to go and she should have. add some colour to the front row. i wore my princess violet today. so it made the front row look quite dull.. :/

today. wo men bu yue er dong wore the same outfit. cool huh?

listening to 'i'm all about you' now. just read some forward from my classmate. i wish i could get over it already. i mean.. its so long its getting irritating. arghhhhhhhhh.. everytime i think its ok stuff must happen and i realise tt its not over yet. oh help

wishlist
i want a cat

Saturday, July 19, 2003

i went for dance today instead of cip.

everytime this happens i'll write down a list of why i'm in hc. to add on, she was there. and this would mean she would be there too. cos, duh.. obvious reasons. anw, she doesnt really like me for some reason. think she views me as a threat. i mean.. its not as if i can help it right? i dont want to be involved in any of this. i didnt go there.. so i ended up here.

shit.. stoopid joseph niaoing me again

yuk! i'm quite grossed out. haha..

the songs on my playlist are so so so nice today. they flow.. handpicked by me! .. all the forty three songs.

"for the girl is second best to none..".. so long since i heard chorus line. rawkss..

urgh.. my formation skills suck. it all appears so normal and amature. :/ shouhan does it the best man. must try to find someone like her.. lala~ i edited the music and came up with a new routine. yayy! its so fast though. then i asked xun and jielin to sort out and arrange the row and pinwheel. haha, who cares as long as it works.. right? hei mao bai mao, neng zhua dao hao zi jiu shi hao mao! heh~ if recycled steps work so be it.. at least this time no one can say we're inflinching on copyright laws.. or wadever -roll eyes- -snort-

bleugh.. i'll miss two consecutive pracs cos of syf. going to watch tomb raider on tues.. should i go watch ndp? hmm.. i should pack my stuff cos i dont think i'll want to go home and change and travel all the way back tmr. but i'm feeling lazy now. just ate. -bloattt-

and i didnt sleep in any lessons today!! -beam- -twirL- such a good gurl huh? though we did get scolded twice for talking during bio lect.. -inno-

ok. one more dance left to choreograph and i'm left with rehersing. after this year i'll hand tish back all the dance ic duties.. i cannot be so selfish.

Friday, July 18, 2003

ok.. he's leaving. tt's fast. i havent seen him since he got back from his aust trip. oh well.. i guess things like these happen when school starts. he's probably at the airport now. but i'm not going to call to say bye.

Thursday, July 17, 2003

zhi pa wo zi ji hui ai shang ni, bu gan rang zi ji kao de tai jing..

sucks sucks sucks. its nearly eleven and i have so much work to do. havent started on anything yet! two essays.. arghh. :/

had dance today.. keep trying to tone down, dont want to be a slave driver. but you must admit we need the practice. anw, i've been watching tv and trying to come up with some new choreography. a routine with a dancey feel. finally decided on 'higher ground'. heavy beat with a soft feel. i work well with a style in mind.. tt way i can eliminate any steps tt come naturally. i dont want it to be plastered with my name. oh well.. once i finish this i can start with the next and i'll be done. five more weeks, but this time no last min work. we're putting up a good item. -nodd-

saw the mos burger guy.. xm and bell, remb him? er.. i shant continue. i just hid behind rain and yanxuan.

the last conversation i had yesterday was fun. -beam- maybe i'll get to have another today.. but i doubt so. its already so late. :(

Wednesday, July 16, 2003

once again i can smile. thanks all you pple who helped turn my grumpy day around. -cuRtseY- thankyou tish for the ride, rain for the phone and my class for promising to enjoy themselves and look out for her. thankyou all those who promised to msg me the results but forgot. thankyou everybody. :)

stoopid gay cant stop niaoing me. -bish-

i reached just in time to see her win. changyi was running her last two hundred meters. i was so euphoric. i just screamed and shriek and made a whole lot of noise. stood behind my school who happened to be holding their breaths. our relay sucked. so when i saw her i went ballistic and broke the silence. i cant believe myself. so disgraceful. i waved to her. she waved back. she has changed her hairstyle. finally., cute. but hey, what's new? i sat among the njtrackers on the track. she said she'll call me. cool.. shimin has blue eyes. i didnt sing any school song today. sadly i forgot to cheer for my school. i should have, maybe they would win. i couldnt do anything but say, "did you see anastasia win?" i was so excited.

i met mr macdonalds.

ok, tt's all i'll say. the rest is for me.

reminisced the times we spent. the lady urea and the walk along nicole highway to suntec. many memories, yes. soon they'll be too old and i'll think about other stuff. ndp no longer brings back the memories it used to have. instead, now i remb all the banner holding and running with the flags. today will be a happy memory. i didnt see all my friends. but i saw her win.

Tuesday, July 15, 2003

i'm so sad i cant be bothered with anything. even angel and beefcake at my class bench this afternoon, plus ratface being there doesnt help. not one bit.

i'm sad. i'm sad. i'm sad sad sad. i was so looking forward to it. i cant believe xiaoxuan had to send me tt msg. that was the most devastating msg i have ever received. :( i feel like crying. i feel like going to sleep. i dont want to think bout it anymore. what turned out to be a happy day has to end this way. why? i wish i could do smth bout it. i dont want to lift her hopes for nothing. but i c a n t.

three forty, five, five fifty five. these three times are printed everywhere. i hope i can go down in time. but i dont think i can. sigh, it draiins all the excitement or whatever's left away. i cant believe i'm missing this.. what will possibly be the last race she has. i'm such a bad gurl. and i noticed she isnt running two hundred tmrw. her pet event. -guLp- i so so so wanted to see her run.

i had to ask for the times. i just had to. why? cos i needed to know. she was so happy. she smiled. now guilt devours, disappointment engulfs. i cant do anything about it. nothing at all.

i just told my mum i failed chem. think she's flipping.
someone said i'd pass though.. but i highly doubt it

Monday, July 14, 2003

lying in my bed i hear the clock tick,
and think of you
sometimes you picture me -
i'm walking too far ahead
you're calling to me, I can't hear
what you have said
and you say, 'go slow, i've fall behind..'

suitcase of memories

happy birthday darwin.. i'll get you an eraser in addition to yur pretty flower today :)

Sunday, July 13, 2003

'even if the whole world becomes your enemy... i'll still be your knight.' - squall leonhart

selfappointedknight could use this. it'll be quite nice. but then again.. he'll probably just keep quiet and watch it happen.

i love my pants today.

i want to go for the nj funfair.

argh.. i cant help it. but today everything kept reminding me. she obviously likes her.. -grin- she was telling us bout her exam and how she cried. then she said tt in the end she still got a distinction. but i knew she didnt. just missed it by a little. i remb things like tt.. -shrug- shit, jonboy is calling. wuttt.. anw, now tt their batch has left, we're the oldest in our generation. sucks.. i'm so lousy now. when i was real good we were being shadowed. and too young i guess. it felt so fun today. i know she expects me to choose the piece with all the jetes like her or rather yew. but i'm so ungood now! blah.. see how i suppose, wonder if she'll be disappointed.

talked today. it felt different. i dont want to exactly get too close. time. give it time i suppose. i mean, why? he'll be going back soon so why bother right? i dunno. i'm just too lazy for my own good.

hmm.. i'm so awake i dont think i'll sleep. had chicken just now. anw, jay came today.. he asked me out. blachh, if i werent so packed i would. someday perhaps.. have so much to catch up on. he keeps questioning my decision. they all dont approve. oh well..

smth i learnt from gp.. never lead ple on. if you're in the midst of getting over, dont start. dont bite off more than you can chew. its unfair to the other party. i guess i'm gulity then. i'm never known to be a good person.

was thinking and still remb when htail was asking me to about the various ple. everytime we could sense it, she would ask. each time i happen to say 'no' or 'wrong kind', 'not my type' and the like.. till one day there was one option tt was... ok. i would say acceptable but ok is really what it was. or maybe.. 'not bad la' cant remb. i know its bad. but its the truth.

if jay stayed over, i would have. he has many things to tell me. i dont mind missing a few hours of sleep. he (someone else) visits again. fond memories. smth i dont want to disclose.. -beam-

it was pretty fun. everybody said they had fun. they said it was cool. they said it was great. i guess my effort paid off, thanks god! :) mission completed. though there were some who said the dance was a teeny bit fast and hard. i guess they're the kind who dont pay attention.. ie, the older ple. koen said i did it well and she smiled. -beam- i'm thankful tt the idea of creating a kek se dance came through. leslie loved it.. i was catering to tt audience. countless sms, pats on the shoulders and emails even. i guess this is the best so far. the best part was it was easy to come up with. i guess i'm getting the hang of massdances. i'm glad you all loved it, i enjoyed myself today despite being totally exhuasted and mighty pissed. it wore off. -cuRtseY-

i wished we could dance longer. i wished i had more film left.

Friday, July 11, 2003

phew.. i'm so so so exhuasted this week. i'm glad its almost over. just one more day and everything will be over. slept in so many lessons. thankfully my teachers are nice. oh well.. what can you expect? even though i dont dance frequently, but pushing me this far is almost at the limit. bernice wanted me to help her with deco, but i just couldnt do anymore stuff. so i'm back home now. this week has been far too packed for my liking. i would have loved to go catch a movie today. but i already watched t3 on tuesday. oh well.. retimetabling has made it tough to go for classes on thursday. i didnt go for class on monday too. had to do mass dance see. gah.. changed the sunday session to monday. and i thought it would end there. but noo.. i guess pple just wanted to be safe so i had another massdance prac on wed. i reached home at elevenish. i guess i would have been home much earlier if i didnt go eat katong laksa. -shrug- i promptly fell asleep. so basically this week has been filled with uncountless work waiting to be done. work accumulated from before the holidays till now. i suck. :(

oh michelle.. i guess you're on the plane now. have a safe trip dear.. -patt-

the canoe ple kind of made fun of me today. but they were quite far and i didnt know them well so i pretended not to hear. i guess i would have made them eat their words but i was rushing. gay is nice wad.. not my fault right? :)

have i said angel has a witch nose?

Tuesday, July 08, 2003

guess what? being so terrific as usual, we managed to finish it in two hours. rawks right? too bad we still have to meet up on wed night to teach joyce and melissa. mx says it'll be better if we have someone to help us demo. :( bah.. how bout cheer prac? no time to squeeze everything it. the dance is suppose to be kek se. but i dont think its working in tt direction. tiring though.. i think i'll simplify it. melissa says the ants step is cool.. (see, the kek se-ness is appealing) but she says the verse part is a lil hard. its already quite simplified k.. oh well, wo shi wei ren men fu wu de, so must cater to their needs. ok, not much to be done there.

one day i shall sit by the seaside and read a book.

Monday, July 07, 2003

the cake was so yummy today. i had four slices. took many pictures. i love my dragonfly. captain shaved his head. aw man, now he looks like a canoeist. :/ just reached home not too long ago. i'm so full. dinner was quite great. the day was so fun. i had a double dose of dessert at lunch and i had my dessert before and after dinner today. yummm.. -beaam- aaron didnt bring the cd today, destroying my great plans of choreographing the dance this afternoon. so it means i'll have to cut short my presencee at the class outing tmrw. gah. maybe i'll meet wed night after dance to cont too. gah. didnt go for the ij thing today. sorry vanessa.. i called so so so many ple today. think my bill will exceed like shit this month. called sihuan tt day and we talked for twenty four minutes. the worse thing is i was at home and i have free incoming. gah.. twelve cents a min. eeps! oh well.. do you think you're worth it? okie doo. my day rawked. as usual. i like the ple i hang out with. marcus and jiawei did a mohawk today. they kind of looked alike. my ninja turtle still looks the same with his hair a nice vague shade. captain is still the best. i bet his fan club decreased my abt three quarters after his haircut.

"hc stands for hairycrab. sp for stupid pple. ac stands for act cool." - ninja and cap

captain is quite lousy. so long since and he still hasnt seen.

Sunday, July 06, 2003

oh yes yes yes.. before i forget.
i saw gtang today. yes i did. he said he'll help me get into nyartsfest. which means tt the two tics i have can be given to two pple. so its btw tish, rain and qianyi. decide among urselves k, and whoever else wants to go. he also wanted to help me get backstage. apparently the security today was pretty tight. but i felt quite bad, like i was imposing so i was like its ok.. nmind. oh well, he still looks the same. heh~ i saw clara too -beam- my turf.

hmm.. such a real interesting day today. a lil too packed for me though.. so so many things to do. hello my authentic angel. -cuRtseY- havent given you a proper welcome yet. syf opening was great today. i just allowed myself to relax and absorb the performances as they took place.. doing the usual scrutiny only occasionally. but i just couldnt control myself during my jnrs performance. i shall refrain from... saying stuff bout other pple's item. -nodd- i didnt get to truly absorbed the atmosphere of the best dance. ok, my jnrs live on reputation. heh~ smth overcame me during the very first item and the hero dance. i teared.. i dont know why. was i happy? sad? or just touched.. it brought back many fond memories. those of joyce and gae flinging me around, our backbends.. our pretty legs now turned ugly against our faces. the smiles, the makeup, the lights. and yes.. the tuo jus -beam- today the theatre appeared smaller than it normally was. i wanted to cheer at the end of everything, but.. i was surrounded by old pple see. bleahh. i didnt get to see laoshi. and i forgot to ask step tt question. oh well.. i saw so many pple today. rawked.

i will not tell you bout my wonderful morning. cos.. nmind.

angel has a witch's nose. and sleathy eyes. heh~

i'm in another major dilema. :/ should i watched t3 on tues? but i'll be at kallang. and if i watch it, tt means one less show to watch with my friends. -thinks- oh well, should i go for funk on monday or mrs skip performance. should i choreograph the mass dance tmrw afternoon or go to ij for the funfair. ij lehhhhhhhhh... haha, bet you know what i'm talking about. i want to go for class.. i havent gone since the first lesson. but its my grandma's bday. and... aiyahhh

Saturday, July 05, 2003

ahhhh!!! -squeal!- oh my, i suddenly feel so happy. angeeeeel! miss seeing you around.. i thought you like disappeared off the face of the earth or smth. planned to write you a postcard during the holidays or smth to check if you were still alive for the block tests. see la, i cant stop smiling now. my long lost angel. arh.. i bet ur exams went superbly well.. as usual. planned to call you last night actually, but i kind of forgot about it.. heh~

oh well, i feel so happy. yes, simple vocab for today. i love my class so muchh! i have yet to grow taller. but i could always settle for rachel. he was the same height too noe, soph? lala~ i love all of you so much. especially the pretty dragonfly. lala, we have matching sparkly things.. so much for going home early at nine. i reached home at eleven. kept getting distracted see.. oh well, wo hao xiang wang le jin tian yao jiang hua yu. ke shi, wo hao xiang wang le zhem yang jiang hua yu. tian shi, ba ni de power juan via diffusion ge wo ba.. from a region of higher concentration to tt of lower or perhaps zero concentration. ok, wo yao ju du jian bao le. wan an!

Friday, July 04, 2003

my favourite shorts has turned purple. and i look so fat. garhhhed.. thanks for calling me dear, you woke me up. if not i dont know how much later i'd be. heh~ ok, fourseven dont start without meeee!!

i'm so tired. not really, just drained. the weather's dreary, and i dont like it. i used to.. a lot. oh well, maybe i'm just in a cool sunshine mood now. think: saturday mornings. went out with my class after bio today. then when they watched charlie's angels. but i already watched it so i went shopping with vanessa and her friend. heh~ we were laughing so hard about our saucey habit when they walked in. i noticed ratface almost immediately then i looked at vanessa and hushed, "bodyguard bodyguard bodyguard" her hype. haha~ yea.. they were going to watch nemo. anw, after lunch at long john i went all the way to bugis to meet my family for lunch. yes, double lunch. but it was just so yummy i couldnt help it. and know after a long long while i;m back home. looks like i dont have time to wash my shoes or take a nap.. will probably just take a quick shower and zoop out again. argh.. i dont like to rush. -wriggle- oh well.. since i'm a dancer, i can afford to be late. just like all dancers do, enter with style. sorry dear, think you'll have to waite a long while for me.

my jnrs are at esplanade now.
yayy!! i cant wait. kind of bouncy bout it.. but lethargy fills me

i think i am one blessed girl to be able to get through the paper today. i mean.. i started studying at eleven forty five and promptly fell asleep at twelve thirty. cramped the whole dna on the way to school and cell division while waiting for xinyi in the toilet. then she gave me a crash couse on enzymes and the first four chapters after assembly before we went into the hall. i like our school hall. its such a cooling place to take a paper. i couldnt finish my mcqs so i shade the remainder fourteen question c. c for me see.. hahaha~ i'm so arghhh.. wonder if you got tt. oh well.. i'm highly late now. but i need to take a nap. can i be an hour or two late?

Thursday, July 03, 2003

melancholy - tt's what rain calls it. i'm not going to study anymore. not i've even started. i hate it when i get this way. what's the problem with me?!

i blast the music so loud i cant hear myself think

dang! i'm obsessed!
someone save me.

bah.. i havent started and i have loads to cover. ~~shit.~~ i wouldnt study at all only vanessa whinned for me to. ok, i shall attempt. -garishh- called gay just now. oh.. yes, angel's chinese happens to be good. wow. it makes everything all the more amazing. too bad i dont like angels. :/

i'm so full now. felt real awful cos of the gloomy weather. wonder why, normally i love weather liked this. anw i had a wonderful tea. three brownies, two cups of milk, one mocha cookie, two slices of rainbow bread, one lint peanutbutter chocolate, half a sausage roll, half a big white chocolate cookie yum.. and i just realised tt there's chicken roasting in the oven for dinner. howww? i'm feeling yellow. -beam- do you know the colour code? haha~

"he asked me how i knew his neighbour. i didnt want to tell him the whole story and all the bad stuff tt happened. so after pondering for a moment i replied, "i dont know her".. which is true too." - extracted from my notebook.

i started a new book today. a less scary one. i stopped at page seventyseven. seven seven. -grin- i was so scared last night reading the scary book. i ran and cuddled with my sleeping sister, i didnt dare to breath while i read it till the end. then i felt to tired to study so i slept till nine thirty today. yikes! i'm awful.

ok, about eight cm of notes to cover in less than one quarter of a day. i must persevere. a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. yeah right.. ok, tt was just some crap from somewhere.

Wednesday, July 02, 2003

oh yes yes.. i will fit in my cycling somehow. class party this friday. and every subsequent fridays are set aside for long lost friends. every tuesdays are booked for movies with new found friends. dang, i dont think there are many movies left to watch.

oh no! soph is pissed. hey, cool down babe.. think of me and smile k? i bet you'll feel much much better. :) oh man, hey no hurling on the shell dude, ok.. just waxed it. i told tt to everyone i saw today

hmm.. deon just called. cool. -beam-
i had a real nice walk home just now.. somehow it wasnt hot. but i'm still really full from the not so many pratas. gah..

oh, zhenhui msged me just now to thank me. he said i was thoughtful. -ponders- oh well.. he's quite a nice guy. always doing things like tt. :) like tt time he sought my number out to wish me happy birthday even though i barely knew him. we took the bus together today. i wish i could be so nice too..

ok, time to embark on my great plan. maybe i can finish another book today. -crosses fingers-

oh man.. hey, no hurling on the shell dude, ok? just waxed it

oh man.. that is my new favourite phrase and has been for a few days now.

anw, didi just called me a good gurl. yippeee!
heh~ actually i wasnt really studying.. watched a whole lot of tv, read a book and played around with tshirt designs. but i appear good and tt's all tt matters

Tuesday, July 01, 2003

who's my long forgotten angel.. -thinks- -thinks real real hard-
i dont remember calling anyone angel in the past. -thinks again- rain? shufen?

i had three different angels.. but i never did tell them they were my angels.

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