Summertime

Friday, October 31, 2003

he asked, "do you know any ac guys?"
and i said no.

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

all's well that ends well. i'm just so glad. phew -heaves a sigh of relief-
lionel's hand was wet when he held mine today. dont read too much into it

my block test pulled down everything by a grade. garrh. but oh well.. not tt it really matters.

micheal's so strange today. first he called me when i was at the other wing. then i walked over with bunny still conversing with him on the phone. "why am i calling you when i can see you?" that's what he said and we were still on the phone even though i stood next to him. after tt, he started painting my nails.

phew. finally i finished our pw presentation slides. the layout isnt very suitable but i cant be bothered anymore.

jay rawks. somehow he sounds wise. how how how.. lionel howww.. -panics-

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

"True Friends are never far apart even though oceans may come between them..... that's what we are..... true friends."
that's nice, though i just blew whatever chance i had of studying in the same city as you. :/ and i think i was too preoccupied with myself this holiday to be a true friend.

who cares about me. more important matters. so worried bout lionel. i mean.. i dunno what to do already. should have stayed to talk to mrs boo too. i'm sorry. i forgot. thankfully there isnt anyone else. ryan's ok. the girls are fine. if there is do let me know k? i'll see what can be done.

i went home today and avoided angel.

Monday, October 27, 2003

i hate you.

i'm dunno if i should feel angry or sad. apparent anger has overtaken. how can you pull me into everything? how can you blame me when the problem is yours? i mean.. you are just plain unreasonable. everything within threatens to overflow. i still treated you nicely even though i knew you bore a grudge. i even told your friend to be nice to you. but of course you never knew.. not like you would care anyway. damnit, i'm piss. you pulled me into the situation when none of it belongs to me, as an excuse. for that i think you're low. you did a real dirty thing to do. i never expected you to be like this. ever. i never expected anything like this to ever happen to be. but it has, and i can cope with it. what's worse is that if she didnt tell me, i wouldnt have known? i would have still continued to look out for you while you would continue in your childish ways. you think we cant have the same friends? and what's wrong with us being friends? you shouldnt let it bother you. go study. you're making me mad. i cant believe i'm saying this. it wont make a difference to whether i treat you nicely or not... which i still will but, you suck. i hate you.

Sunday, October 26, 2003

jay sent me an email.
when u free? can go out some day? miss u. hahah.

a simple one liner

finished the pw written report. -phew- my thumb hurts. tried to set the vball today and i think i sprained it. today was fun. i guess its only with them when you can just play so many games. i think the funnest was trying to keep the ball in the air. our record twenty seven. -beam- it was so funny, we just kept laughing.. at timothy, then at joyce and siwei, then me and yh. we climbed up on the rock to take pictures. this time round not many though. cos i broke my camera remb? oh well..

i had pizza just now. fattt..

Saturday, October 25, 2003

hey all..
this sucks. why are all of you so sad. why are all of you feeling blue. and i know i cannot do anything bout it. i cant whip a wand around and evaporate all the grummy emotions. i cant say words of comfort or wisdom to make you smile. i cant solve the problems. i cant say i even know what most of them are. all i can do is provide a listening ear and perhaps a shoulder to cry on. if it will help you can always call or msg me k.. i promise i will be here for you. i dont like to worry and it kind of hurts to see all of you like tt. promise me you wont be sad for long, tt you'll learn to smile once in a while, and that you wont kill yourself.. please? if there's anything i can do to make it better, let me know.. ok? loving you all.. you know who you are.

-grin-
that's how i would describe today. -grin-

i bet you dont need me to say why. no, i didnt get eighty for math. -roll eyes-

but i just have to put this down. so a few days from now, or maybe tmrw, i can read this and reminisce all over again. -whispers- angel spoke to me today. -shh- we talked about him more. but only for a short while.. cos kantan came out too fast. haha~ angel kept laughing at me.. what's wrong with hitting a vball backwards huh? oh well.. actually up up close is better than up close, that way you cant see his full face. but who cares, since when am i superficial. -inno- i couldnt really talk actually, just looking at him makes me want to laugh.. like i always do. angel is nice. i bet you must be rolling your eyes and going , 'whatever' now. anyhow, i dont care. i told angel to study hard for chinese. siwei told me it sucks, so did he. he reminded me bout sihuan's green book blue book. yes yesh, my mum spent like two hours convincing me and making me promise to study for chinese.

so i shall do chinese. wanted to buy lin jun jie's cd today.. chinese right? but bunny dissuaded me. dong jie is nice. but pw comes first. cant be an irrespondsible group member right? so another day chinese. -waves-

angel forgot to tell me his name. one day i shall ask, "by the way, what's your name?" as kantan says, great conversation starter. :)

Thursday, October 23, 2003

today was bad. ok towards the end it was. why did i let such a thing as slight giddiness and fear and random thoughts clutter my mind and get in the way? what's wrong with me? sorry birdy for not going to find you. wasnt really feeling too well to go over so i stayed and did mass dance. got bonged in the head by grace's elbow. very painful. worse than lionel's ball. why didnt kantan suaned me more? i would probably have been near to tears. and it would make me feel better. oh well, the hour long phone call to birdy took my mind off things. just hope my bill this month wont be too high. and of course their light hearted chatter and dumb jokes came in handy. beefcake's friend sure has a gift of compassion :)

bunny translated the song for me. it made me wonder if you still think of me. i know of those who dont.. but..

heard the song tt sihuan sang to me on the swing. the first song. she had to translate it too. we must have sat on tt swing for three hours tt day.

angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel.

and of course, the day wont be complete without it.
my dreaded wish has came true. i was right.
though without it, i wouldnt have smiled blissfully.

ok. sticky and gross now. shall go shower before catching lmg! toodleloos..

i never knew how scary it was till today when there was no night time breeze and no one to walk my up. no wonder rain said what she said. hmm.. i guess i have to get used to being abandoned.

left my phone somewhere today. i think its in school. heh~

thanks for the gift becks.. -beams- i love receiving random gifts. -jiggles slinky-

finally got my comp working. i only blew a fan when it exploded. thankfully. and i think i destroyed the fan and all tt was plugged in the same powerpoint. at least the tv still works fine. i made the power in the house trip when i exploded my comp. what a destroyer. -sigh- and i left three long deep scratches on the leather chairs. i cant handle so much destruction all at one go. -runs into hiding-

angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel. angel.

who said you arent special :)

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

oh yes! we met our dearest laoshiii!!! -swoons-
she went on quite a shopping spree.

walked pass the newsstand just now and i searched for seventeen. i know its crap but i'm going to buy every issue till next june. i mean.. you're onle seventeen once right?

today through my bio essay i thought of my knight. then i wrote translation instead of transcription. i continued thinking.. then i cancelled it and wrote transcription. and i thought somemore and cancelled again to write translation. and again i changed it to transcription. -bish- dumb me forgot my liquid paper so my paper was so messy. :( there was a darwin question too. i showed bunny this gigantic cardboard picture of darwin and she just burst out laughing. heh~

so much happened today. diyan diyan diyan. it all revolved around him. all talk about ratface, angel or whatnot ended up with him. he must be rome. stoopid bunny kept pulling me towards ratface. its so.. -sigh- diyan was with them. i wanted to tease him bout his hair just to see him irritated. sadly i didnt get the chance to. had to watch out before i crashed head on with ratface. bunnyyy!! grr..

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

when i passed the busstop today i saw angel walking.. with his hair reflecting the golden sunlight. he looks better radiant. blah.. anything to say waichee? -grin- it got me thinking bout his voice.. which isnt very nice. well, its just mediocre. i hate it when pple smile. go away..

hello sihuan. hang in there huimei :)

i'm so screwed for tmrw. i desperately hope i can pass.. and perhaps do well. ergh.. today i was thankful tt lionel didnt come. i didnt have to sit next to retardeeeeee. eeps! well, at least i didnt faint.

wo hao xiang zai ling yi bian.

counting down..

Monday, October 13, 2003

i love my oliver hat.

took a long nap. have yet to start on econs. urgh.. i cant wait till wed. oh well. spent much of my afternoon lazing around and reading mags. (again.. sigh) post nap syndrome. i found another issue of allure and a cleo. everything is going wrong. if i start my post promo's stuff now, it'll take the fun out of everything later. :/ so i took the whole stack of them and hid them in the labtop box. heh~ its so nice to admire those shimery swirls especially how the bronze and golds would converge. it makes me want to dip my fingers into those pools of liquid. -stares wistfully-

counting down..

Saturday, October 11, 2003

i'm looking at ur name on the msn list. you're away. i'm listening to the song you sent me.
damn, i miss you.

whee! i just cant wait till we all go to dot's house to chill out. rawking..

Friday, October 10, 2003

ok.. i just reached home looks like i broke my promise to andre -hiak- to start studying last night. :( i'm like way overdue. had a nice day today. went shopping with my mum. she bugged me bout ratface. -urghh- i hate it when tt happens. -roll eyes- visited my grandma just now too. tied my sister's hair for her today. -beam- aint i good? haha.. i love to surf the net. not blog surfing though.. i mean, what fun is it to read pple grumble bour how they have only read their bio textbooks twice or how they have only done their tyses three times. it'll only make me feel awfully guilty. anyhow. as i predicted, chinese was a whole load of fun yesterday. i sat in the same row as angel. -grin- what a great way to start an exam huh? angel. -whispers-

you came along just like a song
you brightened my day
you know i cant smile without you
cant smile without you
i cant laugh and i cant sing
i'm finding hard to do anything
and i feel sad when your sad
i feel glad when your glad
you must know what i'm going through
i just cant smile without you
-beam-

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

urgh.. i'm so awful. i fell asleep just now -pOut-

sigh.. darwin's a yo. sigh.. basketballers. stoopid basketballers. as in.. literally. but i'm sure things will start looking better. they always do. -patt-

i think i scratched my cornea.

today i got a nice birthday present. congratulate me.. -rOlls eyes- bunny and steph couldnt stop laughing.

i bummed into fin today. heh.. fin has de-finned.

oh, i'm joining band -band-

thanks didi for your help.. i hope i'll be fine. i really do. i hope you'll be fine too. ..... of course we'll be fine! right? -ponders- i'm thirsty.

and of course.. i wont forget.. -grinn- happy birthday rain!! bet i'm the first one to tell you tt. looks like those endless minutes of making my guess three years ago didnt go to waste huh? -twirL- or was it two.. anyhow, i'm sure you'll have a great time tmrw. i would if i were you.. -beam-

Sunday, October 05, 2003

sitting with my feet soaked in what they call the princess now. quite nice but nothing much. at least i dont walk around and waste time. been totally unproductive today. sigh. complied another cd. planned to go cycling but since i didnt do anything deserving today i shall ditch tt idea.

another amusement reminds me of xm somehow. they'll make a good couple. -wink- but she's too idealistic for tt. -grin-

another amusement has a picture of him uploaded. so the first thing tt greets you is.. -tada!- just dont scroll down, the shoes are... eww. heh~ there's another one with sec. and i can see why she said tt. hmm.. looks like dc to me. too bad they dont know each other.

integration sucks.

sec is really photogenic. damn

damn, sec looks better than another amusement. -grr-

today has been a theraputic day. but i wasted so much time lazing around reading magazines.. playing with all my stuff.. drinking the super shoik ice cold tea.. eating my donut.. msging pple. argghhh.. i'm too confident for my own good.

ok.. i wish my phone will come so i can call didi bout easy integration tt stupid cheryl just doesnt seem to know how to get around. but my feet cant move. :/

Saturday, October 04, 2003

knowing that i have two days more doesnt help. somehow i seem to think tt i have a lot of time. help.. what's wrong with me.

was playing with the clie till my fingers were numb. so fun! haha..

hello kantan. -hands you a paddlepop-

was reading through darwin's msges just now.. the few tt are still arond at least. have yet to scold bunny for giving him the right to call me baby. i mean.. eepsss! so freaky. -shivers- anyhow, he's so cute.. too bad he didnt know how to do his darwin question. i hope he'll do well.. he was quite sad the last time round. hmm.. me? i dont get sad. i just enjoy my fantasy.

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