Summertime

Sunday, November 30, 2003

should i go for holiday? but i'll be missing three rehearsals. i've never been on a holiday with my family in a long time. its always them.. and me. i am an expensive baby. they always pay for my trips then i'll turn them down. i hope they havent paid yet. i know if i tell her i want to join my family she'll go into her priority talk and all, telling me how if it was her she'll want to do her class and make sure she's in shape and all. (she's trying to get me to work hard to use my.. 'potential' see. but i'm not supposed to know tt) i told her before that i might be going away. then i said i didnt really want it. i said, "i dont think i'm good enough." (actually i wanted to say i wasnt thin enough, same thing i guess) but she encouraged me to take this up. so here i am. and how can i say i will be missing three rehearsals? she'll blow. should i just not go? -cringe- help?

its all in a name.

i was thinking bout colourful names just now. violet, that's nice.. then i got stuck. somehow, lilac doesnt sound very namish. amber, but that's mine.. i dont think anyone knows bout it. -hush- maybe only ost. he doesnt know the meaning behind it though. i still remb the smses. he came up with it during math lect. ".. i think its good to be unique and special." dunno if i'm quoting correctly but i'll always remb it.. for now i guess. i never thought much bout it till just now, wonder how he must have felt. i mean.. its all in the name, that name. yet.. a name is a name and i shall take it at face value. trg days, mondays wednesdays saturdays. he wasnt there tt day.

just reached home.. so full. i cant believe i ate so many brownies. ack! "cheryl take care of yourself. dont -beep- -beep- -beepbeepbeeeeeep-" and look at what i'm doing. -sigh- having a flu really takes away ur stamina. couldnt breathe throughout everything yesterday. i was dehydrated. it zapped my energy. now i've passed it to my sister and she's having fever and all. -gulity-

going to the florist tmr. i know i've said that i've moved on to stars, but it doesnt mean that i've totally given up on flowers. i can get flowers, but i wont ever catch a star.. (except when that a15 guy gave one to me at openhouse last year, but lets not dwell on that) i can be a star though.. not a flower. the only thing that comes close to it is a flowerpot. does the phrase, 'been there, done that' mean anything? so until i can find a way to own a star, i shall go to the florist tmr. carnations for mummy, big colourful flowers for me, and if you were here, roses would be yours.. wine red ones. of course i remember.

Saturday, November 29, 2003

just had my dinner. now i'm so full!

my dear girl, please stop being a crybaby!! i cried during 'brother bear' last night and the day before during 'masters and commanders'. i dont know why too.. all these dancing has got me in touch with my emotions again. i feel like crying over everything. man, it sucks. -boooppb-

saw andre yesterday at suntec. (xm, know who i'm talking about?)

the ymca studio is big.. ceiling's too low for my liking.. soo po is so pretty.

i didnt reply the sms. just didnt feel like keeping tt appointment after all. oh well.. -shrug- but then again, i dont want to be known for being nice.

give me a kiss to build a dream on
and my imagination will thrive upon that kiss
sweet heart, i ask no more than this..
a kiss to build a dream on.

Thursday, November 27, 2003

its nearly six thirty and i have to leave at seven. going for 'brother bear' preview. yesterday's was the russell crowe show. damn nice.. all of you should go watch it! two previews in a row. wah.. i thought it was bad last time. anw, why am i wasting time here? ahh.. next time tell me about smth like this beforehad.. the day before would be good. oh well... reception later and i had so much for tea!! -guLp-

bye.. -waves-

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

i seem to get the feeling tt somehow micheal is piss with me. wth. note: not guijie.

and again. note to all: i dont like to be harassed. i hope you catch my drift

today was fun. one thing after another. tired though.. screw my bio. i'm going to sleep. -blink-
even though jasmine's golden was well-trained and cute, i still want my cat.

didi.. all the best for paper five tmr. you have no right to be scared. -smiLe-

Monday, November 24, 2003

photoshoot later. still remb the last one. i went jogging before tt. but today i just ate more. blaugghh.. thankfully the dress is long :) my back so achhes.

Saturday, November 22, 2003

my nose is runny. just cried for two hours straight. 'i am sam' is such a cry-worthy show.

touch camp. its all i've been thinking about this evening. i enjoyed it. feel kind of bad cos i scolded my kids maybe a bit too seriously.. and also because there were things tt i could have done better, or be a little nicer about. felt exasperated when intro didnt seem to go well. felt lucky when we went out of the gym after war games and my sandals miraculously appeared before me. i knew i had gained their respect. felt tt i had trained a good team. i didnt have to do any headcount or take care of the map. neither did i have to clear my own plate and stuff.. heh~ i didnt cheer with them too. all self sufficient huh? felt touched when they all stood and welcomed the elderly. i felt like crying.. i had fun. but man.. kena niaoed like mad k. ryan asked why my kids were so mean.. guess it was all the 'cheryl is wicked', 'cheryl is crazy', 'cheryl boo', 'cheryl is a pig' on our giant paper. (it got pinned up -beams-) haha, a real adorable bunch though. i will remember the hair-combing and me protecting my bodyguardee. i feel proud of myself for all these and more. -pats me on the back-

quote: "when i go to jc will i have a bodyguard too?" - a cute question huh?

Thursday, November 20, 2003

yippee! my bio is done. -cuRtseY- thankyewverymuchsoverymuch.. -hugs- it sounds nice. hope it isnt too boring. i would really pay you, only i dont have a credit card. now its back to bed. i have yet to finish packing for camp though.. -hides-

jay is so cute. the short emails he sent just seem to make me smile with amusement.. somehow.

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

helppp.. i'm tearing my hair out trying to write my bio. -crys- i dunno what to include. i want to give a more personal feel.. but i'm afraid it may sound extra. garrrhh. i dont want to say my age, i dont want to say my school.. i just want to be me. and i definately not want to appear boastful cos we all know tt i quite suck. i thought of putting in the examiner's report.. but i doesnt sound quite right. helllppp.. someone. please?

i first saw mr anastasia on the ninth of april.

was reading through my archives.. its a happy thing to do. still remember when everyone couldnt stop niaoing me bout expo. we would just be having a perfectly normal conversation when out of the blue someone would slap me with an expo joke. then there was this hype bout nj. today i finally realised where i wanted to go then. hmm.. remb when we tore up some paper to kill the spider? and then realised tt it was joshua's math tutorial? what seems to elude me are the countless emails tt my class sent. cant remb a thing about them. -scratch-

anyhow, had a yummy lunch with my dad today. his tie didnt match. "aye.. stop it already or i'll take off my tie." oops.. i shall not get overboard. new sandals. new waterbottle :)

i didnt fulfil my new resolution: be early for the next rehearsal.

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

"Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale... "

rehearsal today wasnt as good as yesterday's. shant dwell on it.. i'll only gross myself out.

i was set up. i mean !!!!! i'm so going to kill you. i didnt even know what hit me till everything actually sank in. how could you do this to me.. without any warning. i was at a loss. pbftt. what i found amusing was tt i didnt realise tt tt was the bestman till he talked bout eunice. and i had to think for a long while before i got it. -bish- i know i said he was cute. but you didnt have to go to such extents.. somehow i seem to have an affinity for pretty pple.

just reached home. cant go out with vt tmr. -frowns-

we saw d-foo at marche.

andre decruz doesnt know how to curl her hair properly. -laughs-

piere png reminds me of dc somehow.

my dad is facinated with his car.
i thought only boys like tzehao were.
i guess they're all the same.

its a little crazy to drive around the estate hoping to reach eighty in order to test out the cruise function.
and its even weirder to want to go to the cte because the road in the estate isnt long enough.
hmm..

Monday, November 17, 2003

ouch.. my tummy hurts. prolly the cookies again.

i baked today. my cookies smell great but there's too much soda bicarb. its not my fault. ran out of flour halfway so i had to use self raising flour instead. by then i already added in the baking soda and powder. so.. bleughh. next time i'll make sure that there's at least half a bag of flour left. i'll add more chocolate chips and maybe some nuts. i'll defrost the butter before hand. -beam-

looks like its too late to go watch a movie now. rehearsal at four thirty. pushed it earlier. going to watch looney toons tonight. so it means shopping in the evening first. now.. i shall decide a place for dinner. i bet everyone will just go, 'anything' and i'll decide in the end anw. no reception today.. suggestions anyone?

oh my goshhh.. he sent me an email. arughh... i'm irked now. helppp!! i dont dare to read it.. and he expects a reply. -gagg- can someone clear my mail for me? pleaseeeeeeeee.

Sunday, November 16, 2003

watched rugby world cup just now. i hope the all blacks win. quite exciting. somehow halfway through i was reminded of david. dont ask me why the connection.. and it was just after tt tt my dad commented on how singapore pple dont know the art of playing it. all the fractured legs and whatnots.. i didnt even know he watched rugby. hmm.. its quite entertaining.

today we went shopping again. this time i didnt sit in the trolley. yesterday my mum was telling me how dumb i looked.. plus i was wearing my school u. haha~ and i thought she was the non conformist.

Friday, November 14, 2003

rehersal later. i better start playing before my holidays get swamped by rehersals. i shall shower before going for rehersal later. hmm.. three rehersals next week. this time no pointe work. miss mccully said it like it was a good thing. well.. at least we'll save money on plasters. and shoes. haha~ i wished it would be as fun as it was last time. this time there's no smooties, no fraps, no shredding of any snow. no huimin too. :/ oh well, but everything just started. we'll see..

went shopping with my mum after dance just now. decided to come home early and rest. my sister should sue burger king. go demand tt they pay for the bills.

walked along scotts road tt day. i wanted to try on the dresses in 'perfect in black'. i was twenty mins early for pw on sunday so i went shopping and tried on gowns. the lady had so much fun dressing me up. she just kept getting new ones in all sorts of colours and adorned me in matching shawls. i thought the champagne long a-line one with the scoop back and the criss-cross tie straps looked pretty good. hmm..

today at body shop the lady just dolled me up. white eyeliner with a darker shade over.. funky smelling lip glosses and whatnots. so funn. -laughs-

matrix wasnt fantastic. oh well.. :/

i didnt get around to baking cookies for my beloveds last night.

someone help me write my bio? i'm too lazy. if its good... i'll pay?

Thursday, November 13, 2003

so much has happened. but you probably wont want an evaluation on it. neither would you like a time line, or perhaps a mindmap.

i need an organizer. just hope i wont accidentally forget rehersals and leave micheal there.. -crosses fingers- the dates he mentions are always so far away it seems unreal.

uptown girls. i want to watch it again. its so sad..

Monday, November 10, 2003

i hope i can do a good job. i dont want to let her down. i saw the video. i cant do tt back bend thing where you rise to a sitting position from lying with ur back flat on the ground. know tt very simple action tt everyone does? the one we used to do back in sec 1? -quivers- i seriously doubt my ability.

i'm so full. dunno why my appetite has been huge all of a sudden.

my pw group came just now. today was quite slack. dunno i didnt ask them to stay for dinner. hmm.. grace said we should have girls' night out at my place. she wanted to play with the glider, too bad my dad came already. we had fun with the kimunicator running from upstairs to downstairs to see how far tt thing would go. grace learnt freecell today. while tzehao was laughing at her getting stuck, i watched 'singing in the rain' on the other comp. arh.. so nice. gene kelly is so handsome. its so funny. he has such a nice soothing voice. i shall recuit him to be my boyfriend. if only.. so perfect. op tmrw and we only practice twice. kept getting distracted by the laser pointer with many shapes. i hope we will be fine. -crosses fingers-

gpf looking good. yeahh..

remember i wrote in fishy tt she was causing my perfect life to disintegrate? well, its building back to its former glory. i just need to start learning driving.

"When you wake up it will seem so yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be ok.."

Saturday, November 08, 2003

no, i didnt forget. today is the eight of november.
so if i'm correct.. happy birthday leonie!
happy birthday michelle!
haha, both of you share the same day. i can see that look on your face already. -grin-

oww ow oww.. my back so hurts hurts hurts.
after effects of being lazy. :/

my tummy hurts. must have eaten too many cookies and those funny looking sticky things. blagggghhhhhhh.

yesterday was cheesecake and a mrs fields cookie day. -beams-

who was it that said my favourite drink is an angel drink?

today i thought i was going to get kicked out. i thought he would give some excuse like how i'm too fat or have been missing the most rehersals or smth. then i thought she would be the one to break it to me. she did. but she told me what i wasnt prepared to hear. i thought she had given up. i told bunny i was giving up soon, i mean, quit while you're winning right? i was shocked. i didnt know what to say. i wanted to say, "but i too fat." instead i blurted out, "i dont think i'm good enough." then i was encouraged. and somehow i agreed. maybe she knew of my plan and wanted to change my mind. or perhaps she wanted to make my parting a memorable one. anyhow, i suppose all plans for the future have to be put on hold. i ponned class today -heh-

when bunny said, "i thought you were very enthu.", i was hurt. i dunno why.
'havent you heard that i'm gonna be ok..' - lizzy mcguire

i'm a princess. not a queen. waichee, i'm not tt serious. :)

angel? angel.

Thursday, November 06, 2003

i cant wait till tmr..

i hope my cousins would leave soon so i wont get distracted. but i doubt so. they will till ten.

gui jie.. his name shall be.. says i always give him the yellow and brown m and m's. i dont!
we both broke our promise.

goodbye angel.

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

"But you try, dont you, and that's all tt matters.."

what a.. nice thing to say. comforting. sounds like my dad. somehow it makes me wish i were smarter. that way i wouldnt even have to try. i do hope i do well.. but judging by the amount of effort i'm putting in, it seems bleak.

today i made a call and said, "hello, can i come to your house?" he exclaimed. i was expecting a laugh. oh well.. we brought chicken cos weili heard 'smth fresh' instead of 'french'. oh well. we looked at the nice swimming pool and obviously mac ritchie. didnt i say i'll go to your house one day? haha.. sorry to be such a nuisance.

ouch.. i just bit my tongue. it hurttss..

tmrw i shall stay back in school -grin-

Sunday, November 02, 2003

i was rather excited. hyped up and all about school tmrw. then, dang.. i realised there's no school tmr. its a holiday. what a way to burst my bubble. -pOut-

Saturday, November 01, 2003

i love jasmine-curry puffs. they're just so yummy. i especially like the texture of the crust. yum! just had supper. today i ate quite a bit. curry puffs, porriage and chee cheong fan with mushrooms and cha siew wrapped within. plus some nice chilli. -lick lips- i'm just quite full now. sometimes i wish my house didnt have such nice foods. -cringe-

oh well, i shall go shower now. all icky and sticky.
monsters inc. is so cute. must have watched it like a dozen times this month already. now, back to the show..

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