Summertime

Wednesday, December 31, 2003

happy birthday xm!!
hope i can go stay over tonight. -crosses fingers-

saw fat abott yesterday, koen says he looks like an ackia. erm..?
we changed his english name from shaun to flippeando. -laughs-
ponned class dinner, didnt feel like travelling. anw, he wasnt going. had a super delicious dinner over at their place though. i bet that more than made up for it. well, we'll all see each other again today. -waves-

Sunday, December 28, 2003

just got back. so much has happened.. got lovely presents, gave few though.
i got minxian a lovely helium balloon with a bell. -beams-

time. its smth i wished i had more of this holidays. so far i havent done what i set out to accomplish during this break. i didnt send any christmas cards (you'll receive them as new year cards :)), i didnt go out with everyone i wanted to, i didnt get what i wanted to get, i didnt get my nails done. blah.. its like, after the performance, i'm preoccupied with christmas prac, then its christmas, and school's starting. have yet to make a dent in my homework list. arghh..

so lucky to have a trip planned for me. it was fun!

watched: monsters inc, twice. princess diaries. school of rock.
ate: a lot of good food. yum. shortbread cookies.
enjoyed: the company. the games. the suanning. the bubbles!
lost: my purple stone earrings
found: my pink saphire white gold ones. -phew-
received: a lot of cards! thanks everyone!! was contemplating on which to open first and decided on a date and size approach. i could already tell who sent what from the handwriting.. all my good good friends. you cant imagine how happy i was. opened your's last, xm. i'm glad i did. save the best for last, yea? miss you so so so much.. -hugs- and to set the record straight.. since when am i a bimbo, huh?! -bish-

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

on a lighter note, after nus yesterday, we went shopping. and after eating our icecreams, my dad said, "quick let's go to mango." hmm.. i got a nice halter with pretty chinese knots and leather straps. my mum wanted me to get the shimmery pink one too, "one only?", she said. i never knew this side of my parents.

been reaching home at strange hours i dont have time to update.
just read my tagboard. i cant help but somehow feel touched. -gush- thanks guys..

real tired now. have to be at nus later for dance prac with daniel. :/ -yawn- anw, happy birthday minxian!! want a cake later?

thanks for all the bouquets of flowers. i like the christmas tree leaf on your's waichee. :) it was fun to receive bigg ones. micheal gave me pink roses, fifteen in all. working with him was an experience indeed. i fell. sorry you had to watch a lousy performance. -sigh- the ones my family watched was shaky. the one you watched.. need i say more. elephant dance. haha~ i slipped and crashed to the floor later that evening. it was the scariest experience i've ever had. i didnt know what to feel. my mind just flashed to the story laoshi told us a week earlier about the drum thing. god has the strangest ways of preparing us huh? but i thought it went well. i never knew so many pple watched me from the wings when i dance. i feel blessed that you're all behind me. thankyou. andy, yf, michelle and the entire lot. i guess i'll remb this different experience for a long time. the backrubs, the last minute panic, the 'manhattan' practice session in front of the mirror, the bundle of nerves, the bitching session, the post production party, the photo taking, the babies, the donuts.. ergh!, the pear shot, the sewing and all.. doing almost all their hairs. andy and regina teasing me of my dance, how now i can just switch on my sad face. -heh- my jacket is soiled with light blue barbie eye shadow. -squirm-

i didnt take photos with adelene and vera.
i only took one with andy. :/
my dad didnt watch me.

nicholette. my new boyfriend, i took a shot with just her alone. -beams-

somehow i feel sad that all this is over. its too fast. i didnt take with the shakalaka pple, nor the mib girls. i gave not even one perfect performance. sometimes i amaze myself at how lousy i can be.

we sat on the ground in the room beside the spiral staircase, the two of us, with me kneeling behind pinning her hair. she said, "we're all so proud of you for it.. know why? because you're one of us." i'm so lucky to have all of you.

Friday, December 19, 2003

just washed off the hairspray and altered my costume.. the last-minute-me. -cuRtseY- too lazy to bring it to my tailor.

today when we were off stage, she called us and held out her hands. instinctively i walked over and held them. she told me i was wonderful. i had remembered every detailed change she made the day before. i smiled. "she's so different with an audience." yeah right..

Wednesday, December 17, 2003

everything's happening too soon and i'm still so fat. arghhhh.. i felt today was fruitful, esp since she's on my side. somehow i felt so unrestricted, so unafraid. she knows me. she knows how i operate. she changed that attitude leg to an arabasque.. phew. it was exactly what i hoped for. i just hope i'll be able to remember all those minute details. i cant place them unless i'm dancing. but i dont think i have enought time left to go through it repeatedly. arghh.. i have to be less inhibited.

after helping them carry all the heavy bags of stuff (costumes i think) into the car, waved goodbye, promise to watch the tape i walked bag into the plaza. i admired my oversized self in the window, looking at my gigantic pe shirt.. i felt happy. today, i have come to terms with myself for going to hwachong.

i'm so thankful we're moving into the theatre tmrw. met eugene on the way out and he invited me to his house tmr evening. yeah right.. i wont fall for his trick. i'm not tt dim. bet i will be mighty extra among the polo pple. "help to finish the food?" me? you got to be kidding.. -sticks out tongue- too bad i wont be free. the theatre saved me.. in a way i guess. i hate to turn pple down, i dont know how to do it without feeling guilty.

countdown: almost a week to christmas!!!

"milk and toast and honey, aint it funny how things can smths look so clear..."
remember this?

ryan sings well. just tt smths zao xia. funny.

just read my previous. i wasnt a happy girl again when the sun rose. blah.. not till monday. when i was told tt it wouldnt be nice if i looked. yifen, do you know what that means!?!? i had to control myself from beaming with delight.

watched lotr last night. its good. my favourite of the three. so so so so much better as an ending than matrix. my aragon!! and i found out last night tt legolas is not bad. he has this air of confidence around him that looks.. nice :) rushed like mad (as usual), the cab uncle was nice when i told him to drive real fast. haha~ saw prom photos.. my fairy i have an angel. but too bad its nothing like your's.

stayed up tt night talking and playing mafia. daniel was teaching me.. so fun. i'm addicted. they kept picking me to the mafia, looks like i've earned their respect. cool~ then there was me and my stupid, "how many mae mae jump over the wall.." you can still fool the young kids with this. haha~ look at the bewildered looks on their faces! ivan: lydat is plus one, minus one, one round is times, backwards is divide. woah.. poor gabriel. talked mainly to darren and rapheal. nothing really serious though.

practicing again tmr. she says its for me to get use to an audience. do i need to? -thinks- yes, esp when i'm not confident of my steps. you dumb dumb ripped me of it.. argh~ oh well, we do need the practice desperately anw.

Saturday, December 13, 2003

my mum just came in with a bottle of vitamin c and a bright pink tablet for my so called flu. "better not fall sick" she says. nice. should i take it? but i dont want to oversleep tmr.

i like happy endings. just finished watching 'what a girl wants'. aww.. mr darcy is soo.. as usual. in a good way i mean..

today was horrible. i couldnt help but cried for an hour and a half. i wanted to stop so badly, but it was so so hard. (as is everything) i guess it would be much easier to smile for fang shuan tmr, as promised. -sigh- i'm so glad that i have such nice pple to surround me. it really helped to make me feel better, much. thanks guys.. michelle is so sweet, though i wasnt really listening to what she said. "dont care bout him. we're all behind you, nobody's behind him. dont listen to what he says..." i thought it was quite childish but comforting nonetheless. adelene's so good to be even though i barely know her. i felt like laughing. i guess its my fault for staying in hwachong and becoming as lousy as i am now. i'm sorry. i really am. i just cant figure out how to look sad. i mean, i never wallow in self pity long enough to figure out how to attain that look, sorry. i told you tt kicking me out would be fine if it was neccessary. because of you, i lost one lens. pbftt.. tmr, i'll stop trying to make this work. you can go be that father of a teenage kid you want to be. and you can ask ur kid to eat food. i'm not stopping you. go prepare for the future. haw haw. though i sure hate to give up now.

on a lighter note, i didnt go find my sister with a cake for a surprise birthday celebration. real sour bout it. but i ran out of time and money. actually i had sooo much time since you-know-who pushed whatever we had till an hour and a half later. party pooper.

and on a happy note, i got a new bag! saw all my jnrs today. quite fun. though i dont think i'll dance much. probably be the resident slacker i was in the past and dance for like fifteen seconds again. haha~ -twirLz- and i'll stop thinking that laoshi likes me. well, she remembers me.. and that's good enough for me. should i even be there next year?

when the sun rises, i'll be a happy girl again.
we're called dancers for a reason.

Wednesday, December 10, 2003

just got home a while back. thanks for everything. :)

i think i'm starting to like dancing all over again. but its just a thought, nothing really concrete yet. -shrug- just now nic asked me bout ballet. asked if regina is a ballerina.. i was like what? i still dont get it. oh well. then he asked if i'm good or anything. i said i've passed my peak. wonder where that came from.. i dunno why i suddenly found it such a drag. issit me? or the people? is school taking a toll on me now? hmm.. i guess it started when i discovered i had too little time to go out. syf pracs being on saturdays and all.. not forgetting talentime and cheer pracs. now that i think about it, its a lott.. cant imagine how i managed. i guess somehow this seemed less impt and fun than the others. i mean, it requires discipline.. unlike everything else. somehow the thrill of it had diminished. or maybe there werent any huimin and sheryl to make me laugh. nor was there a cindy to tell me to smile.. -shrug- expo got in the way of everything too. i just didnt have enough time. i still got my hundred... for which i'm thankful of. last min piaing paid of at least. hmm.. i havent told huimin bout it. -makes a mental note- anyhow, if there's gonna be an angel.. there will be no angel.

caffine really zaps stamina. couldnt help feeling dizzy throughout adash. it sucked. really. but it felt great to get that fat thingy up..

i love looking at layouts -beams- ok, off to watch some movie now. toodleloos~

Monday, December 08, 2003

aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
i realise that i cant really go for the class chalet. it clashes with rehearsals. dang! and its like combine so i cant really skip it. i mean.. i missed the trip for this so there's no way i'm not turning up. juliana asked me for practice on thursday. quite last min.. so it got me thinking of my schedule. all her fault. -sticks out tongue- if not, i wouldnt have realised this at all.

i wanted it to be you. i wanted it you be you so badly.

just watched you've got mail. i dont understand why i find it so nice when i know what's going to happen next. i just adore such shows that are light hearted enough for multiple viewings yet with just enough depth to make me lose myself in it. i must have watched this say... six, seven times? thankyou for showing this on tv -curtseY- i turned it on and it was there. next up, a hugh grant show.

i realise i love warm lights. when i'm alone, the entire house is lit with them. i would do candles.. only it would require too many. i have them but lighting them up would be too much work. i also discovered that when i'm alone the first thing i do is turn on the tv. its smth bout the sound that makes everything seem cozy.

tmr i will not cancel my plans because of you. -grr-

Sunday, December 07, 2003

new printer/scanner. so thankful for my father. -twirL-

this morning my sister jumped on the bed, squealed and hugged me tightly. now i'm alone and free.. what shall i do today?

hmm.. didi's prom is tmrw. i thought what..

i didnt like my make up for yesterday's photoshoot. and my hair was strange. -shrug- who cares..

finished all the letters last night. i love decorating stationary. shall post them on the way out.

toodleloos~

Friday, December 05, 2003

it's a perfect dayyy, nothing's standing in my way..

elle woods rawks. it just made me so happy for her i want to dance. xm, when will you be back? -whispers- i wanna party.

i realised why i didnt go for the night movie today. whoever takes an exam tmr.. on a holiday, must be insane. i have so much left to cover. only started this afternoon for about an hour before i had to leave. grr.. just got back. think its time to make a dent in that vocab list before its supper time. -calculates- fifteen minutes? oh well.. if elle can do it, i'll try.

ohohoh.. i think its didi's prom tmr. should i go over? i dont just want to see photos noe.. and should i see my knight in his armour? he told me long ago that he'll go as one. -beams- shit, cant remb if their on friday and saturday or thurs and friday. think its the latter though.. oops?

today i went to get my phone checked. the guy at the shop called and said the mother board's down. -wriggLe- think i'll probably get a new one. looks like my latest wish of getting a new phone has come true.. one week. that's fast. :) went phone browsing just now and i saw smth i like.. not a flip-flip phone as i originally planned though.. but everything's so ex. like ranging from four hundred plus to over five. yikes!

note: no, i'm not going to get an angel-phone. so boring. and i already had the same phone as he.. for one week. trala~

saw the making of 'love actually' on tv just now. did i saw hugh grant has a cute accent? and i would sooo want to meet him. i want to be natalie. so pretty.. fat, yet she managed to snag hugh grant. -faints- i want to be like her. succesful. :) mr bean is my idol. did you know he went to oxford? (if i'm not wrong) he speaks good english and has a deep soothing voice. so... admirable.

"what do you call this?"
"strooll."
"straw.. -giggles-"

i love christmas already. so cant wait. i always love the christmas mood. this is the first time i'm antiscipating it though.. rawks. class chalet soon. i have no part in organising. cant wait to see everyone again.

i wonder how much morticia's weekly medi-pedi costs..
a new nail spa opens..

Thursday, December 04, 2003

oh oh oh.. i soo love karl. talk about hot.. doesnt he look cute in his specs?

Wednesday, December 03, 2003

plus today it would be down to: love actually, brother bear, le pappillion, master and commander, looney toons, matrix.. cant remb what else.

i enjoyed myself today. time seemed to pass so fast before i knew it it was time to go. oh well.. the movie today was simple and sweet. i love the language.. -faints- i love the company -winks- didnt really say hi to anybody today, guess i didnt want to have my attention splited. -beams-

rehearsal tmr morning. one hour later.. which means i dont have to get up so early.

had brother bear today again. didnt feel like watching it a second time though..

love actually is so nice! i just love hugh grant, dont you? he looks so... i dunno. so many different plots sewn together nicely. so many pretty pple. i felt the carolling thing was real sweet. if it were me i wouldnt know what to do.. "all i want for christmas is you.. and you, and you and you." funny man. love btw couples, prime minister and his whatever you call her.. sort of like bill clinton. hmm.. love btw a father and child, boss and secretary, best friend and best friend's wife, office co-workers, school kids, pple who dont speak the same languge.. woah, and that's not even all. "woah.. you weigh quite a lot." haha~ ok, i'll not say anymore. i love hugh grant.. and his accent. the US guy is so dumb. okok.. shh. i liked the way the music was used.

oh. my phone died. i dunno what happened. it just stopped working and i cant turn it on. and i want to send birthday msges. -frowns-

ratface and the ackia's so funny.

reminds me.. letters to reply!! the kids are so cuteeeeee! -cuddles-

Tuesday, December 02, 2003

oh i forgot to mention. its just as well i didnt get the dance or the kitten calander.. i got a pretty sex and the city one. whoopee! -dances- and i love august. its "dress like charlotte" month.

i think that though its unsaid, we're sending negative vibes to each other. its hard to work together.. different styles and all. but no matter what, i must make this work.

its disheartening when pple you're excited to talk to dont share the same enthusiasm.

updating my photo journal. eight pages now.. i'm up to june, sec three. -guLp- i never thought it was so tiring..

i have decided to put of revamping my room cos i dont think my sister will get down to choosing the new colour and throwing all junk away. went to the various nurseries today.. i shall embark on a new project. its kind of hard cos i dont have a general idea of what i want in mind, and there are loads of other things to consider.. like if cementing the entire patch it will be too hot, if moss will grow on the stone pieces. i want a wooden look.. but that's super ex. i want a water piece, but it may easily set me back about six hundred. then there is whether the plants will flower in such conditions.. i like the pretty moth orchids. -twirL- bamboo is nice, esp since my dad took up his chinese painting classes. hmm... i should add a swing, create a shed like place for bbqs and to hang out if pple come over. so much work.. i'm planning of using potted plans. but first.. uproot that jungle like palm tree.

today the freezer room was so colddd.. i told diane how to choose good roses and pointing out my favourite tulips. ahh.. dont you just love flowers? wanted to get a rose shrub. but those at with nice flowers didnt look good. then there was the many-petal hibiscus plant. anyhow.. i think i will volunteer for christmas deco. remind me to ask mx. floating tealights, metalic candles and rose petals. yum..

mmc told me to do things on my own. she feels micheal talks too much. haha.. like.. duh

and today i realise how much money we're wasting. lynette isnt going too. lester will be in thailand. this means two empty rooms. -gulllllp- i feel damn bad, they've already paid and all..

watching love actually tmr.. ponning rehearsal. actually i outline the itinerary for tmr: prom shopping with didi, tea, shopping with my mum, then dinner with everybody, then love actually! but noo... didi has to tell me that he doesnt want an image consultant, he'll just wear smth. -biSh- and you want to impress ur pretty gurl?

was looking about.. and i saw angel. -blusH-

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