Summertime

Sunday, March 28, 2004

i'm touched. really. i never knew. didnt even remb those small details. thought i was probably this strange person to you. thanks pet.. :) -blushes-

hmm.. totally unprepared this time. but i feel much much better now. praying really helps. i think its because i've been slack at classes. i go after school, after eating so i'm like in no mood to work. urgh.. then there's no one to help so i dont exactly focus. :/ last year i would be out with expo before that and my brain would be drained. i remember having to get myself to focus. so its like.. worse but better? this time, i quit everything so i wouldnt have to face this chore.... well, everything has its setbacks right. lalalla~ so many things i must commit to memory. it sucks. so last minute. my lousy feet. arghhh! you know why? cos i havent been doing pointe. my feet are born lousy due to the... childhood traumas. so yah, i'll have to push them into shape. three months is too long and everything's dented and euu ji elle why. it doesnt help that i've a wooden shoe too. -cringe- pull up pull up!

ok. on tuesday i'll really get a good night's rest. sigh. these past few days have been awfully tiring. its not the things i do, its just that i wake up feeling unrested. i slept after watching my movie last night, i didnt do any work, i didnt even meet nick, cancelled it. hee. its quite bad cos this time i'm getting giddy. i dont ever get headaches and what's worse this. yet this time round i've been seeing like double stuff and feeling awfully lightheaded. it sucks. i cant concentrate on anything. dancing when you feel like this is worse. it just takes your stamina away. it didnt help tt it was so hot you could roast a pig in school. i hate it. think i was all cranky and snappy yesterday. i mean, i felt like fainting, (only i dont exactly because i've never actually fainted before.. but i think you know what i mean), and when i asked for help in warming up she said.. cant remb what.. but it was negative. urgh. so yeah, i was stuck with it and i couldnt see and no one was listening and i couldnt actually be bothered. neah~ but oh well, towards the end i just braced, flushed out everything and cleared my mind so i think i managed to figure what the entire session was about. which i just realised is no use cause i'm not going for dance this wed. -_-

ahh!!! yunhua, i'm gonna rope you in to help me these three days k. love you.. :)

just a random thought..
when you add salt to a wound, does it cause the open the sodium gate leading to further depolarisation in a positive feedback loop? is that why it hurts so much? influx of sodium ions..

Saturday, March 27, 2004

i want to watch the 'prince and me'. if it opens on april 2 in singapore, i can catch it if we cancel cheer prac cos i end school early and i -----------. let's not talk about that.

i really dont want it to be over. please let me enjoy this for as long as i can. let me savour the flavour of each moment, let me soak in the style and let it reverberate through my veins. let my sino atrial node contract to the rhythmn of the music and let my body move as one syncytium.

woah. i typed a really nice entry. all thought and stuff. stuff from within. it sounded quite good, prose like and all.. too bad the thing hung and it all vanished. haha~

i'm tired. and it has only been five days.

three more days till i start to feel lost. three more days. remind me to inform mrs boo.

Sunday, March 21, 2004

feet feet feet feet. one day i shall wake up and have nice feet. if only..

"its called the law of averages..", "step on your second toe. the second toe.. the one next to your big toe.", "you cannot look pretty.."

didnt go for dance yesterday. dunno how i managed but i twisted my shoulder. guess i was really over stretching it the day before. they all noticed. guess it was cos i slept in a weird position. or maybe i tried to move it too abruptly. ack! anw, i fought fire with fire and it seems to be fine so... i'm not bothering.

one more week. can i make it? let me pray real real hard. i feel apprehensive, yet indifferent at the same time. somehow it doesnt sink it. it feel as if i have two more months.. or as if i will wake up skinny tmr. help. -guLp- i just ate chocolate pudding and cookies.. -cringe-

school starts soon. i'm quite looking forward actually. i know i havent throughly enjoyed myself but i'll get to see real angel. :) oh, angel's birthday is coming. i know cos its one day after the day of truth and its the same day as seng's.

cheryl please wake up soon. stop being so confident, if that's what it is. they lost cos of it.. it will kill you too. now is when you have to feel it. can you just hang on for a week more? you just have to..

Friday, March 19, 2004

i'm tired. i cant seem to fall asleep.
today was fun.

Thursday, March 18, 2004

its all over. so quick and just like that. this is smth i will really remb for a long long time. the hours we spent were real enjoyable and i'm so glad to have everyone. i love my ah gong and alvin too. he said banbei was perfect today. i'm so delighted. congrats everyone! my ahgong is fantastic!! taking photos with banbei rocked. slacking in the room and eating.. just eating. ackk. i pretended not to hear the commotion that was going about damien. ok, now you know. i feel quite bad, ah gong gave me a pretty gift and a pretty card with words that really touched. zhaoying too.. and i wrote to ahgong on a strip of newspaper. -bish- staying in the 'stardressingroom' was fun too. still remb last year when i went over with zhanger. this time i stayed like.. throughout. shifted camp. heh~ it was just too fun. guess i got to know alicia and the other three better too. and of cos i got to see my real angel. -blush- it would always start of with us slacking on the floor or lying down while they got ready. then i would help real angel pin his costume, -blush-, before rushing to transform zhaoying into an oldman with hair that would take three washings to remove. next, would be the angel costume for the other two and then alicia and i would end up doing her hair. talk about fun huh? of course, real angel would be there.. with his cute hair and that look in his eyes.

only got to know real angel like yesterday and today he gave me a hug. i feel so glad. all these just bring smiles to my face. wonder why i've never seen him around before. -thinks- he kept flashing.. then he gave me his stary wand to play. too bad i didnt manage to take a photo with the angel. :/ he looked tired. when they were talking bout the bloody shot, i told him to close his eyes and rest. and he did. i dunno why but.. we dont know each other well enough to be like that. yet we are. kind of strange.

its really going about in my head. round and round. its all i can think about, its flooding my mind. i never want it to end. two new eye candies. so, angel has been replaced. yes, real angel is not angel. dont be mistaken.. sorry angel, your time is up. this all started last year because diya asked me and i felt bad to refuse. and i'm glad i didnt.

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

vic-t is still my base no matter what. i just love it there. the freezing aircon and the bright curried walls. spiral stairs is my favourite mode of transport. just stepping in gave me a warm sense of familarity. i went to the controls and turned down the aircons. shh.. it just has this smell, this musky smell of filtered sunshine that makes you just want to smile. walking down the square stairs and hearing those "tiack"s makes me think of pointe. dont give me esplanade or kallang, it just feels cozy in the little vt.

being sick sucks.

your neck will just ache and you cant bend it much cos of those swollen lymph nodes. ack! jumping is not good cos your head spins and everything just blanks out. you cant swallow cos your throat is so sore it hurts. you can eat those stuff that you want to eat cos your jaw wont stretch and its torturous. you cant talk much. you cant think straight. you want to smile but its too tiring to do. you cant walk straight. you look gross. you're just drained.

i just kept dropping everything today. they couldnt help but laugh. heh~ it was funny though. the old guy looked young today cos the wrinkles couldnt be seen. good too, cos they wont straight and the highlights were off. stupid wobbly fingers. anyhow i managed.

so this was how it went..
"i never knew that."
"well, now you do. and you can write a note to me telling me how much i rock.."
"-_-"
"-laughs- no one writes notes to themselves.."
"they do.. you should try it too, its quite fun."
"you're damn cute you know"

blahh.. i'm get the fever has subsided. and i've changed my mind. younger pple still qualify. :)

Thursday, March 11, 2004

i've been so utterly slack all day. shant dwell on it but let's just say i enjoyed pampering myself. loads. -beams- it feels so good to doll up unextravagantly even though i'll be going no where, or at least no plans for now.

"the things you cant have always seem the most appealing." that's what i said that day. wonder why i did. but its true.

purkinje fibres!!

beating together as one syncytium.

Monday, March 08, 2004

that's it. it's really gone. thankyou for all the amusement.

i know you asked if everything was alright. i wanted to say, "everything's fine." but i could only managed, "i'm fine". help me figure out what's wrong..

Saturday, March 06, 2004

thank you for making me smile.

Friday, March 05, 2004

praise god.
i'm ok. :)
you guys should not congratulate me. its not spectecular or anything.

i told regina what i've been telling myself. i wasnt intending to, the words just came out.. hope at least it was some sort of comfort. i feel quite bad. i mean.. it kinda sucks to have an atmosphere like such, but i suppose its always necessary.

and yes. my dearest didi.. i'm so proud of you. -pats-

Thursday, March 04, 2004

the graded potential is insufficient to generate an action potential. and its really graded potental.. 'nuff said.

ok. let's see how's this. i've never used a broze hued one. no tagboard this time.. couldnt find a correct spot.

three weeks left. i can feel the apprehension seeping in. let's hope that she's nice and i dont trip or smth.

still remb timothy wrote in the card that i have very high self expectations. hmm.. -ponders-

today i didnt listen all through bio lect. so what if i didnt doze off.. dunno why i kept thinking so much. cant remb what exactly it was. random issues and stuff just filed their way in without hints of stoping. guess its been a while since i sat down and thought. saw ratface many times today. like.. literally. now my best set of notes has been tarnished and i'll probably never pick it up ever again.. garrr.

piano jazz pieces are nice to dance to. it'll really nail those footwork.

remind me to msg didi and captain. and yes... swenson's tmr everyone :)

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

when i touch your hand. its then i understand that beauty lies within. its now that we begin and..

i wish i could go back to the way i was.
self control girl!

my tagboard is screwed. oh well.. i dont really care now.

i realise that little things make me the happiest.

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

ok, didnt feel like doing anything after watching oscars. so.. tell me what you think. :)

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