Summertime

Sunday, October 31, 2004

i hope tim wins smth. haha. it'll be so cool.
today we were talking bout him.. like he was an object. an object of amusement. yupp. i dont believe yuehan doesnt have anything going for him. hmm.. oh well -shrug-

yh, "look at his hair, really mr personality la.."
tim, -tsk- -rolls eyes acting like its the dumbest thing he's heard- (yeah right)
me, "haha.. aye, your back fin's flat, i think you leaned on it just now." -attempts to prop it up-
tim, -reaches behind and with a few strokes, turns his hair into an almost perfect masterpiece-

haha

"arts fac arts fac, the whole arts fac has hair like this.. -we glance- all science pple has hair like mine, -proceeds to rubs his head-, nerdy looking."

tell me why i enjoyed myself exceptioinally today. -hmm-

everyone's out trick or treating. :/

[ Hello E------. I caught your voice and trapped it in a jar. ]

blahhhhhhh.

just reading it made me so down. i wish there were just no reply.

i wonder why.
empty secrets told were brushed off with a shrug
it creeps in
slowly, without warning
how can you make it sound so normal
you sound like me
and you cant do that
cause she is mean.
yes
she is

i had a real entertaining conversation last night. so out went my plan to finish food chem. by the time it was time for bed, the newspaperman was coming. and my hair had dried. sllacckk. but i had fifty percent of a good time. anyhow i just realised that my bio is on the same day as math. that's real soon. i havent touched bio. at all.. cept for prac. i always had the impression that it was much later. i hope i dont fail. -prays real hard- so it looks like i have chem, bio and gp to squeeze it. i'm told that if i fail gp, i'll fail the entire exam. -gulp- so.. no failures. yesh.

i should go study. but i dont. it makes my mind wander and veer into unwanted territories.

Thursday, October 28, 2004

on the twenty six of october, cheryl closed another chapter. goodbye.

its quite a pity everything had to end. but i suppose its better this way. i mean.. i cant really imagine it otherwise. cinderella said, "do i like you because you're beautiful or are you beautiful because i like you." for me, its not perfect. and tim says i'm a perfectionist.

i'm quite sick of avril's song. listened to it like ten times non stop. the intro drive me nuts, knowing that it'll go on again. yet the tune's so catchy i dont want it to stop. hmm.. time for a new theme song?

i want to throw the pretty butterfly away. i want to delete everything. but i cant bring myself to. -pause- cos.. then it'll really be final. terminal.

but its time to end this unfinished story.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

i think jamie oliver is cute. he has such an adorable accent. "war-er cress" haha~ cute. too bad he's married.
ah.. that's a bunch of crap.

while listening to the rain pattering against the floor and the cool air rush through the windows, it felt like december again. this time i want to throw a whole bunch of parties. there's the ballet one that is already pre-planned since june. i want to have one more for my friends. all christmas parties. and another for church friends.. bbq i think. after all.. why not? we have a new gate. and i'll have a sleep over too. -whee!-

why must jamie oliver be marrieddd..

Monday, October 25, 2004

the coldness helps, its our favourite remedy.

all the memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending.

i'm so dumb, the dumbest on earth. again and again. dont i ever learn. i feel like a dunce. i just assumed. i never took time to figure it out. so caught up with everything else. its like i pressed the 'pause' button on it all and expected it to wait for me. wait for the time when i was ready to think, ready to be bothered. yeah right. its all up in my head. i was living in my own fairytale. maybe she was right. it was a wrong move. but i cant go back. and i wont. even if i could. stupid cheryl. fiscal policy, how keynes can you get. time lag. like.. seriously. just wake up from reality. already. stop that multiplier effect. it just exacerbates it all..

Saturday, October 23, 2004

you know if i had seen him there before i settled down, i wouldnt have picked that spot.

got that avril song. so i may have already heard it and it may have lost its purpose but still.. its nice -beams- one day i shall let you hear it. ok?

hmm.. i realise i'm a liar. and a good one too. if leona were here she'll scream self denial. but its not.. not exactly. i actually believe me.

yesterday.
"i'm lonely."
"why?"
"cause nobody's talking to me.."
"you dont need anyone to talk to you. just focus."
ok.

found the taufik song. the usher one. every week he's becoming more and more appealing. just caught a re-run of singapore idol. the hypothesis is you can tell who's leaving by their outfits. somehow they manage to coincedentally choose smth awful. look at maia last night? -thumbs down- and jerry. of all weeks when he wore smth gross it had to be his.. swan outfit. heh~ then there was david. so.. yeah~ leandra's good. i liked her robin song. not the selena one. she should be less afraid. dont hold back. just perform. another thing, dont let rumours start. they're bad for fan base! look at maia. (then again she was trying too hard too.) it was the same for christopher and daphane. he's lucky he had buffer region and she can sing better than the rest.

i wanna go to the cafe tmr! too bad we'll be at april's. so.. byebye. till.. forty days later.

Saturday, October 16, 2004

jerry. jerry. jerry.

its quite a pity he chose this week to leave. i was just starting to like him. too bad he only has one look. to move one step up, try working on various expressions, jerry. it'll really do wonders. who wants to see a sad song sung with the same plastered cheery look? that's the look you use to say greet long lost friends. otherwise.. er.. anyhow, i hope i might bump into you someday.

jerry, jerry, jerry.. why..

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme
I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
but most of all I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all...

i hate you

i wish i didnt see any of it.
but i did.

hiatus? hiatus.

Monday, October 11, 2004

i suffer from chemistry phobia. i dont know where to start. i dont know what to do. i know i know my stuff.. i'm just.. i cant place it. its just a.. phobia? -guLp-

Sunday, October 10, 2004

ouch.

when ple are feeling down and out, smths they cut themselves to rant. i guess the pain must feel good. like adrenaline. hmm.. for some pple they just.. put on their dancing shoes. (haha!) you get the same pain, the same adrenaline rush. the blood.. and you actually feel proud of your wounds, in some morbid way. dont you think ipsp is good?

i'm not upset anymore

i've decided. i'll go on hiatus. but unlike them, i'm gonna say. i'll not talk to you till... i feel like again. so.. if you say hi or smile and act cute, i'm just gonna.. be nice. i dunno. i'll tell you, i suppose.

anw, jessica, i think i got to change my response to your question. no. i wont. i would normally.. but i'm out of shape now. so.. heh~

Thursday, October 07, 2004

rarr.

suck. sucks. sucked. suck. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucks. sucksucksucksuck.
i cant believe i let this happen to me.
arghhhhh!!

on a different note. mr loo made me happy. :) i'm gonna tell the whole world. haha~

i kind of not want to go out tmr. i mean.. i'll just sulk and probably vent and rant. i'll just be an awful person to be around. i'll dedicate a song to me.

Friday, October 01, 2004

i know who was it we saw. andy josh. i think the echoboy looked better that day.

cheryl is going mad. please dont make her think bout things she doesnt want to think about.

talking to jay this afternoon. till my batt ran out. i kind of told him the same story. i realised, that i should just forget everything, quit. its all over. it was fun while it lasted. :)

avril: so much for my happy ending.

grace (ivan's sister) was singing it for me that day. nice. how.. applicable. heh~

ryan's song is nice! everyone should go hear it. i was practicing listening to lyrics today. you know, just to get the hang of it.. anyhow, the next song was kind of soft so i turned up the volume. guess what? it was an angel song. waichee's angel song. and for the first time i realised what it said. like... no! sorry, it has to be thrown out the window. haha~ quite.. erm.. freaky. anyhow, i know part of what ryan is singing. -applauses-

its stuck in my head. thanks ryan.
at least, its a nice song to get stuck in my head.

but then bing chen had to go mention. maybe i wont throw the idea out yet.

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