Friday, December 31, 2004
13:37
i give up.
i'm gonna kill myself.
everyone please stop misunderstanding me!!!
i'm so sorry if i cause any misunderstanding.
everything was said in the spirit of fun and games.
and majority of it not by me!!
not yet anyway.
in conclusion, this girl is still pretty much single and not so available.
phew. now that's out of the way..
ok. let's recap.
a usual monday with painting and shopping, plus party prep.
tuesday was spent with my dearest class. too bad we didnt play games and everyone left before we could really do much. :/
wednesday, we went over to huikoen's place for a sleepover.
thursday, we continued out sleepover and headed to tim's place. wedding dinner at night.
friday, today! -whee- went to schools. cancelled lunch. going to church for thanksgiving. and maybe a party tonight. :)
happy new year everyone!!
Saturday, December 25, 2004
23:52
cheryls wishes everyone a very merry christmas!!
everything was nice.. save the movie. i got funky gifts! yeabba~
on the phone.
"he said, 'no one's going..'
and i told him, 'says who? you know almost all the ple there.'
'invite more ple, it'll be more fun. -pause- like your dancer friends la'
'oh you mean...'
'yah la yah la'"
i cant help but smile.
thanks to the info supplied by my favourite cousin, i'm going to holland v more often now. hmm.. bk anyone?
sneaky sneaky huh?
Thursday, December 23, 2004
21:38
cheryls gives today a seven point nine.
nothing much there but it was enjoyable. nice lifeguards. warm water. it got better when we met divash.
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
23:52
i'd give today a six point eight.
pretty enjoyable, i'll say.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
01:55
blah blah.
went christmas shopping today. i'm broke. almost. the flipflops are so comfy! i want another pair.
being with the dancers is fun. its been so long. too bad we were worn out.
and what's up with him being there. i thought it'd at to the funess level. on the contrary.. :/
crisis of confidence. it happens when.. you-know. sucks.
they say my bamboo's great. let's see if i can sell smth in the coming years.
it made me think of the five years she gave me. a minute fraction of me really believed that i could be a princess in five years. now, there's two years left and i'm further from being a princess than i've ever been. should i just quit?
i cant believe chiyon's truth.
Monday, December 13, 2004
01:47
On a Monday I am waiting
Tuesday I am fading
And By Wednesday I can’t sleep
Then the phone rings I hear you
Fall, with you I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath
I hope it lasts
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
-ashlee simpson
kinda true it is..
Saturday, December 11, 2004
22:08
i lurrve the heart on my hand. thanks jess!
02:02
michelle branch says, "goodbye to you.."
can i?
01:36
i know i should be numb by now.
i know i said i'll play by the rules. three strikes, you're out. you're about to strike three. only that i havent allowed it. i dont want you to be out. what's up with me? dont make promises you cant keep. you'll hurt. i cant believe it happened again. she said, "no, cause you'll hurt him." but you beat me to it.
i wanna call my good friend. the good friend that you seem to be jealous of. but you can only bug someone so much.. i've passed my limit.
i hate it when you make me feel this way. i hate you when you're like this.
and you thought i had an unbreakable heart.
Friday, December 10, 2004
23:59
while i'm still in time, here's to you.
Happy Birthday Taufik!!
rawk on. yeah.. if i could, i'll dedicated this song to you. :)
Thursday, December 09, 2004
16:29
i ate:
1) baked rice
2) carbonara
3) banana cake
4) twistees
5) a granola bar
now, why is it i'm still hungry? -thinks-
more about prom later.
i know i said i'll end this once the episode with him its gone. should i really move away?
Sunday, December 05, 2004
23:24
moving on...
i cant believe it ended so fast.
hi taufik.
Thursday, December 02, 2004
22:35
soft hands.
22:31
dang! i'm in trouble. i cant get it out of my head. ib, i need ur helppp.. and i only have bout a week or so before it fades (projected timeframe). how how how? and the worse thing is i'm going away, i wont be here. what if its gone by then? this place may not be very big, but its big enough.. how am i going to find? -thinks thinks thinks- i dunno why i'm kinda worried. i should be glad that i've moved on, right?
then again, there's a perfectly sound reason behind all that happened. see, i was probably the only one to talk to. daphne and leandra being busy with kids and all.. olinda and jerry talking to the big pple, david and all.. whom he doesnt mix with. and me, who is probably similar in age. so.. instead of being lonely and left out, its me! right. makes sense..
there's this song for him. it so happens that when ever he pops up, it does too. so what if its only twice. its one time too many.
thanks qianyi for today, i was all hyped up and ready to go. a little uncordinated initially, but it flowed as we went along. anyhow, i was planning to go for class. then my nerves got the better and i didnt get off the bus. heh~ so she skipped another time. great. standing next to this snr councilor and i didnt even know it. huiping and my toilet friend in front, and i didnt even know it. how.. can this be? hmm.. i asked her what class she was from. she replied, "seven seven." i was like.. oh. i wanted to say ratface, then i realise there's no more ratface (we changed it, see). i wanted to say 'bee', but she got there before me and went, "ziyi's class..", giving me a knowing smile to go with it.
??!!?!?
thanks to my sister, there's a compilation of taufik's songs. rawking.. heard the song that made him stand out to me. yeah.. so what if everyone didnt like it, i do! :) too bad i didnt get to meet him. dont you think it would be nice to go out with him? then the limelight gets steal by you-know-who. tell me what i'm gonna do bout it..
01:49
hey buddy, we should double date. :)
i'm converted. adding christopher to my list of olinda and taufik. yeahh..
01:42
they all have baller bands. just like your's.
01:40
yeah. rawks my socks off. 'nuff said. i told you so. -grins-
idol affinity. thanks idol buddy. you must have passed it to me. today was great! kinda missed ur timely msges though.
he must have took up your advice for me. cause.. christopher talked to me!! a whole lot too. quite nice. ok, real nice. :)
they were all nice. and all tall. cept for maia, she came up to my ear. and i'm short.
olinda smells nice. and "i have good taste" according to her. :) jerry was the nicest of them all.. (cept for christopher).
we arrived just as their car pulled up at the red carpet. we stood just at the edge while they got out and christopher ran up to squeeze the hands of his fans. (not mine :/) so we just went on ahead.. in the foyer, we took a group shot with daph, leandra and olinda. then with christopher. he put his arm around, but took it off shortly. later at the cocktail area, he kept hanging around. we were talking to david, and i mentioned that he looked better with the new hairdo, a bit like christopher in fact. david told that to him and he turned and started making faces at me.. like, 'are you serious?!' quite cute. it was like a disappearing act, every now and then he would pop out and we would talk. too bad its no post production party for me today. not sure if the dissapointment she detected in his voice was fake.. but i should have asked him to take me anw huh? it was real fun. in step's words, 'i have his sweat on me.' haha~ too bad no number. maybe next time, if it happens.
max! "i didnt catch ur name.. btw, i'm terrence." funny.
no photos with taufik. -awww- but he waved to me! yeahhh..
its all so surreal, the ending hasnt sung in yet.
we didnt waste out money.
