Summertime

Sunday, February 20, 2005

i'll be leaving soon. for a week first. i'll miss reach. i'll miss seeing them perform in full costume, with the lights. designed the lightning this time round. hope it comes out as intended.

having mixed feelings about going. excited yet a little afraid too.

i wanna dance for easter. too bad i'll be away by then. urgh..

met gtang the other day outsided tangs. (gtang outside tangs, yh ate from han's, haha~) we msged. he went, "have a good weekend. catch up with you another day. dinner maybe?" i didnt know what to say. smths i just get shocked easily.

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

01:18

a poem bout me. that'll be nice.

^angelix^ disillusionxd duckie. ??????????? says:
its 1.25am and i'm talking to cheryl

ok. that's all for today. i'm tired.

yes, Happy Birthday yh!!!

Sunday, February 13, 2005

23:40

aloof at a distance; removed.

i'm still grasping with the fact that he called me aloof.
i was only bored.

i feel stuffed from these past few days of feasting.

i bought a new outfit today.

i purchased flowers today.

audrey and nick left today. i didnt go see them off. there goes nick. the sort of eye candy with nice clothes and who plays bball pretty well. bye byee.. hope you guys have a safe trip! -waves-

we sold all our bands.

i'm meeting jerry soon. he'll be calling to arrange. -grins-

today mx told me, 'she's looking at your hair.' i dunno if its a good thing, them telling me about others. it kind of gets me noticing others. is it meant to boost my ego by any chance? -think of possibilities- ninghan used to say she felt weird going out, cause pple look. i assumed before that, that it was because we were in uniform. anyhow, i dont want it to get to my head. i know it wont yet.. cause i'm still not convinced that this style really works for me. the level of confidence is not high enough yet.. still its never too early for precautionary measures, to remember that humility is a virtue.

Saturday, February 12, 2005

01:55

what a really enjoyable time i've had.

today: serve was alright. i've been affectionately called 'funkygirl'. a nice change from the previous i suppose. :) then we had our attachment and headed off to mx's place to shower.

met chiyon and we started another one of our conversations. highly entertaining. i think the thing i love most about our outings must be the car rides. we went to collect the wrist bands (to save samuel the trouble of collecting them tmr) and guess what? i met my jerry again! yeahhhh~ -grins- we were telling him about gary when we discovered that the guy i called was jerry. debates about whether it was my jerry sprung, and obviously i won. -grins again- so we went and rang the bell and collected the bands. chatted about his weary appearance, eyebags and all (kinda reminded me of angel), about his singing, then we left. outside the door, i turned and rang the bell again. of course to ask that question, "can i take a picture with you?" how.. expected huh?

jerry cant recognise me. but i supposed so. i had long hair and was in a dress back then.

dinner was with answering calls and replying msges. with help of course. interesting. which reminds me, i still have no idea what they sent.

caught a movie. ran into so so so many people. i swear, i've never been to such a crowded place than this. and its not even a holiday. yes, half the world just walked pass without recognising me. thanks. -shrug-

met ryan after didi told me to. thanks. talked to him for a while.. he looked pretty different. maybe even better. -thinks- i dunno. then chiyon and mx deserted me. like really.. couldnt even find them with wilson escorting. so we just chatted while they returned. he's one funny guy. i just had to laugh after the handing over ceremony. then it was another interesting car ride back. nice huh?

yes, i had to climb over the gate today. all the lights were off. what's up with that? turned out it wasnt intentional. she didnt know i wasnt back. anyhow, it was my mum who opened the door for me. even before i reached it. efficient right? haha~ remind me to bring keys along.

and you ask, what about angel.

Friday, February 04, 2005

21:50

kEn says:
glad to hear that... its just funny without u in serve
kEn says:
cuz i got no one to talk to

i just had this compulsion to put this here. i never knew. i just thought he enjoyed keeping to himself, the same way i enjoy it at times. a chord struck in me. i dunno what to say.. just.. oh my!! you wouldnt believe what he just told me. like ?!?!?!!!! eeps! yikes!!! i'm pretty freaked. -hides-

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

22:56

today.
interesting attachment with dr saw.
busride home with jsty.
entertaining class.

open heart surgery. bypass. i had quite a number of questions to ask. but dr saw seemed angry and scary. i would feel more comfortable asking dr ong. but he's less snr. remind me to ask daniel.

happening nonetheless. they just cut through everything. burnt all the vessels shut, pried open his ribs, used an electric saw. the scrub lost a gauze. the aircon was screwed up. i must remember to be healthy. i dont want anyone to cut me up like that. yikes! i prayed silently that this sick old guy wouldnt die. i mean, dumb scrub to miscount the gauzes and only to notify everyone once activity has been transferred back to the heart, once everything is being stiched up. silly silly mistake. it could kill him. anyhows, the missing gauze was only found, after the patient was reopened, stiches removed and all, the irritated heart being lifted up, and the best thing was that it wasnt inside. it was in some nurses glove. how wonderful huh? its a life you're working with.. its someone's dad, someone's granddad. you just dont mess around like that. an interesting and fun job still..

quite fun with jsty, aka cbnt. he actually resembles cbno slightly. not as fun as with eu though.. -shrug-

i was so off today. i guess standing and freezing for five hours drained all my energy for tonight. i was pretty off, even though she went, "the boys, and cheryl. and.. -blahblah-" actually she didnt call me cheryl. but nmind.

i'm so jealous. christopher doesnt talk to me. not all the time anyway. remember you said, its my andy and your christopher. well, you cant say that in the same breath anymore. for starters, andy doesnt even have my number much less text msg me. and i dont even see him. i realise that we have the same initials. haw haw haw. and he still looks like snoopy.

i must start getting ready for new year.

"goodnight.. to you"