Wednesday, July 31, 2002
oh, while i was in the LT todae, guess wad went through my head?
i was wondering wad it would be lyke if i had someone nice sitting next to me, holding my hand. and maybe we'll not sit in the center block. probably at the side with few pple next to us... -cringe- i mean...oh help. must probably be the exam stress or smth. haha~ cos its so unlike me to be thinking of such things now.. not when i am in the state i am now. and esp not when there is a cute staring back at me! -cringe- i just cant believe myself at times...
i amuse me.
i feel so bad k. i hate rejecting pple. but some pple just leave me no choice. sigh. smths i hate being me. bah... miss chang was nice to me todae...again :) lalala... i must look very innocent, yes? -twirlz- i was doing "lameducks" and "poser turns" in the toilet todae. whee! lucky no one came in, or they'll probably think i'm nuts or smth. hahh... was just reminded to look at my camp photos.. the dumb thing ish so hard to operate. felt so exasperated! anw, i saw a photo of myself in some ulu corner of the thing... and gosh! do i look fat! i mean... i was scolded quite badly fer it, but it never occured to me tt i was this serious! sigh, how to be aurora in a few years time. -pOut- and i refuse to go on a diet! sigh... blinkk.
i can take all the maddness tt the world has to give, but i wont last a dae without you..
i sound quite des rite? muahaha.. dont get me all wrong though. -winkk- i did like terribly fer chem todae. i mean...i knew tt like half the answers were wrong, but i didnt expect to get this many wrong. sigh, next week you'll see me in chem remedial already. bahh... feel so darn lousy. hmphf!
i love my cousins. and i love you too! - beauty evokes a positive feeling that is impossible to describe in its viewer. and beauty ish wad i see in yu. -cuRtseY-
she likes me fer me, not because i look like Tyson Beckford
with the charm of Robert Redford, oozing out my ears
what she sees, are all my faults and indecisions
my insecure conditions, and the tears upon the pillow that i shed
gazing at the ceiling as we entertain our feelings in the dark
she's the one for me and I just can't live without her
my arms belong around her and i'm so glad i found her once again
she has got so much to offer
why does she waste all her time with me
there must be something there that i don't see
but what she sees, is that i can't live without her
and i'm so glad I found her once again
yes, found her once again
Monday, July 29, 2002
bah... i hate my comp. it just restarted like tt and there goes my wonderful blog entry. it was really nice. with pretty lines and all, plus a wonderful quote of the dae. sdkfja;skj. i am not exactly very happy now. blinkk. cant be bothered to re-enter everything. so if you're lucky enough, i may just be bored enough to put in another entry. but of cos it wont be as goood as the previous one if i try to recreate it. -shrug- oh well..
and the weirdest thing just happened. it was timothy. cant believe it. i want to laugh out loud, fall of my chair and roll about on the ground. ahh...help me. i dont think its true aniwae. -nodd-- it better not be. one's more than enough. hahaah~
even the nightingale has its fairytale. tt memorie always huants my reverie.
i'm always chasing rainbows...watching clouds drifting by.
my schemes are just like moonlight dreams, ending in the skyee..
Sunday, July 28, 2002
chang yi broke three records. jessica runs fast. micheala is zai at bball. miss lee is like ballet queen. xiaoling is both smart and runs fast.
the more you think about it, the more you realise what kind of pple she likes.
no wonder she wanted to know me when i was sec2. said she noticed me when i was sec1. blinkk. she's tt kind of person one la :)
bah...so tired. just woke up.lucky i did so before my mum came back. suppose to be at my grandma's house but i came home quite late so she said i shd stay home and finish up my work. teehee.. :) was at the robinson's toilet just now. its nice and well furnished. a bit on the squashy side but its nicely done. liked the mosiac tiling and the mirrors. lala... the taps were automatic and so were the soap dispensers. i was like..wow! first time i've seen one of its kind. even the hyatt toilets dont have automatic soap dispensers. first they had automatic hand dryers...then automatic flush system...next auto tap and now the auto soap thing. everything is starting to become automated. what's next? an automatic butt wiping system? or perhaps some sensor at the tap to determine what skin type you have and hence adjust the temperature of the water and type of soap accordingly? hmm.... tt'll be cool.
bought bodyshop makeup yesterdae. my sister, mum and i spent round fifty plus...which i must say, is quite cheap. i bought the bulk of the products. -guilty- and even those purchased by my mum and sis, i know i'll make them mine in a matter of time.... -sheepish- but....ahh...heck. who cares.. we saved 89.90 though. -beam- great huh! so glad my mum bought at least one item. the money was my dad's and i whispered tt my sister wanted to borrow some money halfway through our high tea. and amazingly he just looked at me and took out fifty. not bad sia... i love my dad! and so we happily trotted next door and spent like eons there... on our way back we met my mum at the toilet and somehow managed to interest her in our stuff. so in the end we brought her back to bodyshop to kua kua.. lalala~ my sister ish so dumb! she's now so facinated my p4 jokes and tells them to like...everyone? i mean..hellooo, this is my sister we're talking about here. the jokes are like stuff timothy told me in p4? bah.... -perculiar-
i like what i wore todae. very dressy meh? so easy to put together... unlike what i usually wear. its hard fer me to dress casually. i always take like ages! before i finally decide on sth. bah... my eyes looked small todae. blinkk. a sales guy gave me a booklet on this seasons jewelry. cool huh? guess i had a rich look todae. haha~ i like browsing through this sort of things. so entertaining... though its not my fav jewelry shop, the stuff they had is quite cool. mostly flowers this time round, guess its fer the spring season. -shrug- there was a nice double stranded white gold choker with five mini flower pendants made out of diamond and pink saphire in the front. its so pretty! too bad it doesnt match my pink sapphire earrings...it was more on the redder side... and my sister tried it on. s h o p in g c ar t .
didnt really get the chance to tell joseph tt he looks nicer when he leaves his hair untouched. cuter...more boyish. though, i must say, his hair like this accentuates his features nicely. let me see.... he used... either mousse or wax. ya... so if anyone sees him help me tell him k? danke` the stoopid guy was talking on the phone and pretended not to see me. s h o p pi n g ca r t. guess u shdnt have been so fierce with him just now. bah... oh, qianyi called and told me tt anastasia went to her class! she was like saying how i shd go join her too and all.... :| nahhhh... anw, told you she'll go fer tt class already. lucky i hanged round the summerset area todae and didnt venture near orchard or marina. i might have met her. phew. but ah...heck. its over. told you it'll pass. -wHee!-
Thursday, July 25, 2002
hahaha...i cant say i'm dead serious o k. -wriggLe- i'm too flickle fer tt. perhaps its just a passing cloud. and i'm sure i'll win
i want to cry. i feel so lousy. i mean... i already am fer feeling this way. i know it will make me feel better. but i know i cant make me spill tears over things like this. -breathe--
phew. just reached home todae.. took a cab home.. -sob- it was raining.
ergh... she didnt go todaee.. -whine- but i had loads of fun aniwae. but i wanted to hug her. hmph! oh.. before i continue, those of you who dont really like wads going to happen shd leave this page by either typing another url in the address box, or by simply clicking on that puniee x up there in the corner. its tt simple! -gasP-
ok.. as i was saying.. she didnt go todaee -whineee- she shd've. it would have been good fer her to see miss mccully and just get her mind focused on sth else. tt means she'll prolly go fer sat two thirty with michela. saturdae's not tt far away, so it shd be good fer her too. yuppo. but i wanted to hugg herrr... ok, maybe wad you said todae was correct, i admit. but its not to such a great extend... so does it still count? -shrug-- asked yifen todae and she said jess runs fast. so perhaps the one tt won yesterdae was the same jess. shit! i dont really like it when things like tt happen. boohoo... but i got a new one in maroon! its quite ex. thirty six plus... oww.. and the skin on my toes got ripped off too. double oww.. but i could control the pain todae...it was tt fun. ok, who am i kidding. the pain was still there..but i had sth else to distract me. so it wasnt tt bad. my ankle is supa looose and weak now. and i overcrossed the releve. shit!
bah... caramel frapacino ish nice. so buttery and sweet. but fattening. and i think dome's are still the best. blink. arh...have a sudden urge to drink butter beer now. -slurpp-
feel so pleased with myself now. was suppose to be doing math. but couldnt concentrate. had to keep telling myself tt it wasnt even MY competition. but it did nothing fer how i felt inside. then i talked to joseph... about tt incident, it didnt help. but the wonderful guy changed the topic. talked bout how she looked and all... then bout david and crap. provided me with an alternative form of distraction which i'm thankful for. too bad he zaoed before i could niao him bout lijun. sigh... but at least i dont feel so lousy now. and...wad's wrong with knowing david? i'm sure xiaomin knows him a whole lot better than i do. haha~ thanks pal!
Wednesday, July 24, 2002
just bathed. shiok.
before tt, i was lying on my bed cooling down. just shacking out while waiting fer my sister to be done. and while my eyes were half close, my brain half dead and my skin just soaking in all the cool air, i found myself saying to me, for no particular purpose wadsoever..."she dropped the baton." i think i must have said it quite a number of times before i actually realised wad i was doing. ah! get a grip on urself gurl... blink. why is this affecting me so much? i mean...she's just a friend. a friend i dont really talk to nowadaes... but still only a friend.
i realise i cant speak.
my throat is sore and dry
it hurts
dousing water like crazy now..
its so soothing.
but so was the icecream
with marsmallows and chocolate chips
the chips was yummy too.
so basically now i'm bloated
and my throat isnt exactly in thebest condition.
my voice is somewhat lower and hoarse and all raspy.
i really do hope it gets better before tmrw.
i miss laoshii
oh. yifen just msged me to remind me bout our date tmrw. yippee! going out with her again! long time since our last date.. (and those few hours each week together dont really count!) i nearly forgot all bout it. thankfully she msged. :)
oh, there was this pile of glass shards on the floor outside one of the supply shops at the stadium. apparantly, this yjc girl was walking...or was in running... and she just walked right through the door without seeing it! ouch!! it must have hurt. i mean...look at the door.. ther whole door just shattered.. heard that blood could not stop flowing down the wounds on her forehead. owww... guess tt's wad you get from having ur glass doors too clean!
i still remember. it was on this dae last year, after nationals, when i called him. he was still out late in the night celebrating for they had won. they deserve it. they did well. and he was in a car, or cab.. on his way home with some teammates.
i still remember.. i walked down the whole nicole highway from kallang to suntec on this dae last year.
oh, i didnt know david was in track. maybe he tiao chao or sth. anw, he doesnt run fast. glad chinese high won. by like a hundred points both divisions. good fer them. they deserved it... so fun cheering fer them. everyone's a botak.. or at least a semi-botak! ahah ahah ahahah.. we shd steal a few athletes and change their y chromosome to a x. tt way, they can run fer us and lend us some fighting spirit. and sprint a whole round fer us too! nanyang ichiban sud sud bo chio ay...ba!
my sister's out watching some movie now. lucky
bah... reached home not long ago. had nationals todae... quite dissapointing i must sae. as zhihong puts it, firstly, its because not our whole school went down. secondly, its because we're not cheering. and thirdly, its because we're not winning. its kinda tru la. but dont wanna believe it. talked to aileen after everything. she was so nice... thanked me for going down and all... she really didnt have to. plus, she apologised fer not winning. i mean... its her competition, she really neednt. but i guess she knew how badly i wanted us to win. -shrug- just glad she doesnt feel tt bad or anything.
the thing tt shocked me the most was tt anastasia dropped the baton. i didnt think tt she'll run fast after seeing her hundred metres. but during four by one she really shocked me. it was her pet event..and it still is. second runner todae... too bad not anchor rite -g- by the time she finished her stretch, everyone else was only halfway thorough theirs. i was like...quite excited la. rather sure tt they would break another record. and then...sigh... it happened. during the baton pass, the baton dropped. dunno how they did it, but that pearl silver baton like flew away and rolled back a few metres. i was....i dunno how to describe it, but the thoughts "oh gosh" were runnning through my head. it was so scary. anw, she had to run back to get it then pass and all... (they got second btw) felt really bad though. she's tt kind of person. could just see her cursing herself k. i mean... not literally la. .. you know wad i mean. she was rolling on the track, obviously pissed. i mean...i would be too lor. but their team put up a good fight and overtook so many other pple. they didnt give up even though they knew they would be disqualified. so darn wasted k. bahh... she was still upset during four by four. she was pushing herself real hard as if trying to make it up. she sprinted the whole four hundred metres. though its common for guys, few girls rarely do tt... it overexerts their bodies i think. but she was really piss. i was too. after the baton dropping thing, i was in a daze. i couldnt believe wad i just saw. just stared and stared. and couldnt stop saying, "she dropped the baton." i'm sure i must have repeated it like a thousand times, like a dumb idiot tt i am... but it's so... argh! i mean, if i were her, i'll cry my eyes out. it was already bad enough at syf.. i felt like crying real bad. but thankfully the pple around me were all perky, trying to guess zhihong's name. it help distract me to a certain extend. thanks guys!
now the bit we've all been waiting for. hmm... joseph was ok. runs fast. yes, he does. he looks good both in his track suit and wadever the thing they run in is. didnt see lijun though. aiyah! yuehan runs superrrrrrrrr fast! like... like dunno wad la. but just so fast. haha...knew he would win right from the start. i mean...he always does, doesnt he? he lost alot of weight. i mean..i noticed la.. but in his shorts, its really obvious. looks good in his track suit.. doh. and not tt nice with his hair gelled. anastasia... wad more do i need to say? runs fast. very. much better than last year. but i think she takes things personally. she's strong inside.. so she wont go home and kill herself. but this doesnt mean tt she'll wont hate herself for it. sigh, just hope her sister's still around. rather worried fer her. she's not the kind who would talk about it in the near future... wont talk to anyone fe tt matter, cept her close friends that is. knowing her, she'll prolly drink or do smth self destructive. she looks cute in her lijuan hairstyle.. kinda like a chipmunk. but i prefer her in her old hairstyle. she suppose to give me her number tag. dunno if she still remembers. this is getting kinda long. dunno if anyone's interested to hear the comments bout the tracksuits of various schools. ahah ahah ahahaha
sadd... we were suppose to get double champs. it should have been us. they shdnt have been tt complacent. but as i was told...second is good too. though not as good as firsts, i shd be proud of my athletes. way to go guys! but we shd be double champs. if only it were us. maybe then i wouldnt be tt sad... maybe then.. i dunno. we didnt even have any banners. and the lousy sec one trackers were so unenthuuu....
bah.. our runners did well todae. still havent got round to talking to joy. dunno if she still recognises me. haha~ the relay pple were good. (though you shd've been better) you were good.
ny rawks!! who's the best in the whole wide worrrlddd....ohhh, nanyang's the best! whoosh!
Tuesday, July 23, 2002
grab your coat, get your hat
leave your worries on the doorstep
just direct your feet
to the sunny side of the street
cant you hear the pitter pat?
and that happy tune is your step
life can be so sweet
on the sunny side of the street
i used to walk in the shade
with those blues on parade
but i'm not afraid
cos this Rover crossed over
if I never have a cent
I'll be as rich as Rockefeller
gold dust at my feet
On the sunny side of the street
Sunday, July 21, 2002
shit. the exact same thing happened with my phone. it sounded as if it fell apart. and now i cant find it. shit.
shit. i just smashed my hand down and my glasses did a flip and flew right down to the ground. it bounce a while, then flipped again. shit. but who cares rite? going to get them fixed tmrw anyway. yayy! then i can wear them out. i like my specs..though their slightly big. yuehan says i look smart in them. minxian has a similar pair. so does yuehan and rae. i'm sure a dozen others out there do too. but who cares. their nice :) i love fan fic. shh...my sister doesnt know i read them. well, not tt devoted la. but i do enjoy it occasionally. :) reading one now bout hermione and harry.. and allegra.. and ron who was supposedly be dead but was locked up for ten years instead. so exciting! ahh... shall get back to reading! -muaCk- love you world!
Saturday, July 20, 2002
wait. i changed my mind... its the eyes too.
Friday, July 19, 2002
oh gosh! guess wad. i was sitting on the sofa, watching tv and suddenly i caught sight of a familiar face. sitting in the dining room...behind the tv was dwin. and he has longish hair now...and...........he looks like jasmine tan! yes, jasmine tan! ahh!! i cant believe it k.. the resemblance is shocking! he looks so much like jasmine. maybe slightly better looking, but yes! he does! its so scaryy... its the hair la. i'm convinced its the hair. and finn is like...not bad? he's not particularly cute or anything...but each time i walk pass him i just want to smile and laugh. feel like tugging at his shirt. he must have came from work. haha... feel so.. ahh! this is one corny bunch of pple..
hey guess wad?
bah... i said i wanted one. but heCk~
oh. i ate my ice kachang todae!! finally. had an ice kachang craving since forever...
so shiok.
wanted to eat yesterdae but my sister didnt allow me and made me eat a five dollar burger instead. bah...
i love ice kachang. yum! -sLurp-
my sister's friends are here now... currently downstairs cooking a seven course dinner for all of us. yea.. clara never believes me. she thought i was lying when i told her i had a sister. -biSh-- hey, look at me..do i look like i would lie? -kabish-- decided not to cut my hair already... maybe do something to it. but not cut. yifen and rachel dissuaded me. bah.. i want to cut my hair so badlyyy. just cut the whole darn thing off. blinkk. but now i'll never be able to do it. -waiL!- but shd be ok la, cos yifen said she'll swop her uniform with me one dae. -beam- wonder how my mum will react. she nearly hit the roof when i exchanged skirts with my senior. and now, a totally different uniform. maybe she'll explode. tt'll be cool. imagine her walking round without a head. ahah ahah ahahaha... ouch. i need to get one of those ankle spray. my ankle hurts like shit! -hobbles about-- oww... it feels so sore.
ok. update. b div is currently first, leading by fourteen points. there is a possibility of them becoming champs. c div, on the other hand, is in third position. supposed to be very good but their current state leads us to doubt their ability. chances of aquiring the double champs status seems slim. tickets are still not out yet.
roumei came in seventh for 1500. will be running 3000 on mondae i think
emily didnt qualify for high jump
long jump and triple jump - top three positions attained by us!
hurdles, first..i think.
shemin - second.
relays...i have no idea
joseph got kicked out of four by one.
c div: i dont know anything bout them. lala~~
Wednesday, July 17, 2002
my sister changed it to her icq. from mine which has like a few dozen pple online to hers. and she only has one person online. one person. and he's away. yes, he. -grin- you pple must obviously know who it is...heh heh :) lala... i like him noe. ever since tt dae he came to our house. not tt cute or goodlooking la. but passable. one of the few times when i liked someone so easily. but then again...my sister told me she didnt. so... :) besides...he's too old anyway. tt was the main reason. wasted rite...........
today super slack. spent like an hour writing a letter to melia millipede. cant believe i took so long. but just wrote and wrote till the card ran out... miss her so much k. though i see her and all..its just seeing and hi-ing. havent really sat down and talked fer a long long time. cept yesterdae fer a while in her class.. realised tt i havent spoken to my jnrs in a long long time. havent gone home with jialing since dunno when... even missing my like twice weekly talks with ma-er. and the busstop conversations where we missed three busses are like non-existant already....with everyone. :( dunno wad i spent the extra time doing. why nowadaes never talk anymore? bahh... the more i think bout it the more true it gets. i havent been talking. blink. i havent been talking.
spent half of recess with ynay, qing ai de, ma-er and shimin talking crap. just gossiping...ya, it can be counted as..gossiping bout pple. mostly bout shimin. haha~ she was asking bout chang yi and anastasia. and i just casually mentioned her friend. her reaction was so...extreme. she was like, "how come you know?!" i was quite shocked, "you mean i'm not suppose to know?" wanted to tell her to just pretend tt i didnt..haha~ and qing ai de was telling me bout serene. we were talking bout everyone else in the world excluding ourselves. i mean...she was talking bout me la..but i wasnt talking bout myself. so farni.. i want to go watch nationals!! i want!! someone help me go queue fer tickets k.....
Tuesday, July 16, 2002
today i was looking all over fer my pencil box. apparently i lost it again..sigh. so i spent like more than half of school looking high and low fer it. even went back to the lab k. i asked the whole class and practically everyone who could help. was about to die of exasperation and tear my hair out. aniwae, in the end momo found it fer me. we came back from assembly and she sat on her seat while i was searching every corner fer it. and after a while, she looked up and threw it on the table. i t w a s i n m y ba g a l l a l o n g .
Monday, July 15, 2002
bah....just woke up. i'm so tired. not to mention stuffed. ate so much just a while ago...my stomach's on the verge of exploding. my mum turned the aircon off while i was sleeping. i am not happy. i mean...come on la...i'm asleep leh.. the least you could do is let me do it comfortably rite? i was dreaming bout esther... and tt all my clasmates lived in the same estate so we saw each other everydae on the way in and out. then it was so hot and i'm afraid i got bitten just now. ahh!!
ok, my st
Sunday, July 14, 2002
lalaa...Blessed is nice. a less old-fashioned hillsongs cd.
i was sitting and thinking just now bout why the songs on my comp stopped playing. and after a long while of pondering, i realised i forgot to press "play". blinkk. save me. i think i'm hopeless...in all aspects.
i'm weird.. why am i smiling? -puzzled-
phew. rather long since i've updated. well, i didnt sleep a wink on fridae night and the next morning at round six thirty i was rushing round the house like a mad bumblebee frantically packing my stuff. had to leave at seven -latest- see. phew. so fun yesterdae!! haha, my sister just left to go fer supper with...ahem oh my, i am sure mean. heCk. gave her my phone yesterdae... and she had like tons of unwanted calls and messages. its so...bahh.. then she read everyone of them? so paiseh k. i was like -gaSp-- just hope tt she hasnt figured everything out yet. youth anni was fun. i know everything to me is fun. but it really was. real great fellowship k... so dumb. but its tru wad...we'e a power class! yeaa... the icq msgs blinking randomly below on my task bar are so cute! anyway, my dearest sophia. dont sae until lydat.. i'm nort dying or anything.. its just quite weird to be next door. haha~ now gort other exciting stuff to bother abt. tt shall nort be any of my concern anymore. lala~ -wHee!- i lyke my life.
Friday, July 12, 2002
lalala... my sista ish officially bak. yeabba... so cool. to hear her insistent loud high voice ringing persistantly beside my ear is something i'll never forget k. :) i love the thursdae class. so funn!! so much funner than my sat one. i want to remain there forever. its like i have so much more energy there and no fear. haha. but then i get tired subtlety. i feel so awake and refresh after everything. then i get home at eight plus.. watch tv, eat till like nine fifty, bathe at ten, do my work till ten thirty...then fall asleep halfway through it. and it doesnt help tt i'm so sleepy in class the next dae! couldnt open my eyes or move my pencil during math. so dead... then i failed to pay attention in physics...again. boO! oh, i didnt tell my didi tt he suppose to help me. all i told him was tt my bio plants suck. and he called me a slacker. -pOut-- i am not k! i am soo not a slacker. :( and he said he'll give me two of his dryfit shirts. yeabba! love him k. my grandma's in hospital now. just operated her leg. when i saw her she looked as if in trememdous pain. my didi was there to visit her too. ahh...i love my family. my cousin's leaving like soon. and i havent even seen him since he came back! so saddd.... ok, need to go cut leaves now. then i shall stay up and see wad my sister bought fer me. (she didnt get me any jersy wadsoever.) but my cousin'll get. yeahhh~ yuppyupp. lala...i gort new hats!
Thursday, July 11, 2002
if you dont like wad i write, you can just close the window. see the little button on the top right hand corner? the one tt has a tiny 'x' on it? just click tt and you dont have to read wad i write. so simple, so fast, so easy. dont piss me off.
i just realised tt i have alort of nice songs on my comp. its like songs i dont really listen too..only once in a bluemoon. they're nice. esp when i'm in a weird mood and dont like to listen to the same old thing. the acappella songs are a funny bunch. and finn's songs always get to me on the bus. dont know why.. -pOnder--
i shd really learn to control myself. think i'm too wild in class already...might step on too many pple's feet. sigh. i love momo's seat. so cooling. just tt her table shakes and flings everything off. blinkk. i want to write so many things. so many happy things. but so many pple will be reading this.. boO~ haha, but its mine. MinE. aLL mine!! no, they cant take tt away from me.. -tink-- hmm... knoe wad? i blinkk.. my fingers smell fishy. they smell of crab. ate so much crab todae, my stomach hurt. and no matter now much soap i use, the smell just stay. i have crabby fingers. wHee!
Tuesday, July 09, 2002
reminding me
when you were here
we watched the rain
together
so near -- finn
its you
you who have won my heart
taken me into ur arms
comforted me like a friend
i never want to be apart
from you ever againn
i saw her todae. and it wasnt a very happy thing. she was with chang-ee and i was msging. so i just continued and pretended tt i didnt see. i mean...if she wants she will say 'hi' rite? yah... well chang yi's bus came and i went to sit down. she stood behind. seventy-four came and she got up. i think she was desperate to get away. -shrug-- she has a lijuan hairstyle now. and its nort very nice... nort on her. she doesnt look cute anymore. :\ oh well.. she's nort as cool as yuehan said she is or as minxian remembers. tt's too bad. i think she looked best when i was in sec2. but then again, everything was nice in sec2. she had a nicer uniform..and a nicer bag. ahah.
saw this couple on the bus. the guy was so...argh. kept holding the girl's bag. i mean. hold her hand la...aiyo. then later when she was sleeping on his shoulder, he crossed his arm across her like a seatbelt and rested it on her bag. argh.. rest in on her leg la...aiyo. tsktsk. then later he drapped his arm acrosse her shoulder and his phone rang. so he had to like untangle himself then dig deep into his pocket to answer the call. -shakes head-- just ignore it la. bah... it was so gao xiao tt it was pretty funny. but pity the girl a little la. and then they didnt hold hands..just hooked at the elbow only. and i think they should have put their hands under her bag on her leg or smth rite.. if nort... so awkward. blinkkk. oh well... none of my business anyway
Are you NASTY or NICE?
Quiz made by Angela
Monday, July 08, 2002
We sat and watched the sun go down
Picked a star before we lost the moon
Close your eyes so you don't feel them
They don't need to see you cry
I can't promise I will heal you
But if you want to I will try
I sing this summer serenade
The past is done we've been betrayed, it's true
Someone said the truth will out
I believe without a doubt in you
You were there for summer dreaming
and you gave me what I need
and I hope you'll find your freedom for eternity
yes, for eternity
Sunday, July 07, 2002
love... the irresistable desire to be desired - mark twain.
saw this on shiyao's website. he's so farni! argh..i could just kill him
i wish i didnt have to cry todae. i dont like crying. it isnt fun. gosh, i'm like practically doing it everydae. it sucks. :( but why are there so many things to make me cry about? sigh.. actually its only two people. blinkk. everytime i do, i realise how much i miss my sister. and i hate her at the same time. i also realise tt i have alort of water in my body. haha. i hate my sister to...a certain extent. -cuRtseY- she's partly responsible for my current state. i'm nort denying the fact. its tru. but i turned on this dumb machine (ok, i didnt turn it on as in turn it on. but i on-ed it, geddit?) and played some sad songs. it made me feel better. the sad songs reminded me of the times when i was sad because of happy things tt went away. and consequently made me think of the happy times. ahh... though i still feel sad. its a different kind of sad at least. and i think its better. much better. finn has a nice voice.
ok, on a happier note...cos i know many pple dont like to hear me ramble bout my boring self....let me tell you wad i did todae! -wHee!-- -twriLz- -beam-- -pranCe-- -bOunce-- -bOww-- todae went fer breakfast with sarah and peepos. and stoopid sarah made me eat her prata. so full k. -buRp-- after tt i had to walk around with a full stomach. and to think tt i even promised myself tt i'll eat less. argh! then after church we went to eat at windmill. and after eating i drank bubble tea which made me bloated. next we went to the acfunfair, which was... nort bad. only my school's one ish better. haha~ didnt do much cept eat. and deon was so... eh.. -you know wad i mean-- and we had so many tickets leftover. and i dont like my kor. he didnt buy me a big flying balloon -pOut-- but there was this guy singing.. and he had like such a wonderful voice? the first time he sang i was sitting on the pavement facing the stage. and i said tt he was nort bad, just tt his song was abit high. then he went off, and my face fell alittle. blink. chiyon joined us much later telling us tt the same guy was good and tt he has a voice tt'll make pple fall in love with it. eh... so qiao. and there's alort of things tt i want to sae bout deon. but i cant. too many pple will be reading this. ahh!! deon is nice..bought drinks fer all of us. haha, and he forgot to thank us for the food and he forgot to sae bye to us. yupp. but he's so...healthy looking. heh heh. must be more tactful bout my words. bahh.. minxian, tell you ar...you better nort sae so much. later you gort competition then you know. and i give my approval. -serious look-- -bOunce-
talked to yuehan todae. he is sure one hardworking guy. i am shocked. but if only his hardworkingness can rub off on me. sigh.. he cut his hair. and he won a medal. and he thinks anastasia is cool. minxian agrees. and he digressed and forgot to tell me if she won anything. and he loss weight. and he still has white hair. and he hurt his knee tendon. and he still smiles the same way. and i dunno wad else to sae. lala.
this is one pretty long entry. k, only long. nort tt pretty. -danCe--
isnt deon the name of chew chor meng's wife?
Thursday, July 04, 2002
ouch. i have four mosquito bites on my left thigh. ouch. can anyone believe it? four bites on one leg. and their all like five cm away from each other? this sucks. boOo... my sister says i'm weird. i mean... just because i like cute french hats, does tt make me weird? -blinkk--
my class b'dae todae. everybody quick go write todae's date on all ur worksheets!! this is a dae to remember k. its my class' b'dae. and the whole of america is celebrating it with us! yeppity!! -bOunce--
Wednesday, July 03, 2002
i am a mean person. sigh. but heck, its so late fer me to think about such things.
my toes are so painful. its like the skin's so raw it could rip off any moment. i know there're some pple out there laughing at my misery. but i dont care.
my ankle is swollen. sigh. it was being irritating yesterdae. then it made me fall. then i had to balance on it. argh! its like everyone else was already ready. but i was still carefully transferring my weight.. shifting and adjusting. boo!
i have sharon's make up on me. i look chio. its so neutral. :) dont want to ever take it off. maybe i'll be as good as her? and hopefully i can be as pretty as she is. -wishful thinking--
adeline ties a nice bun. almost as good as esther's just tt she didnt use any gel at all and her pins are all sticking out. ahah ahah ahahha.
i have a nice kor --beam-
Tuesday, July 02, 2002
just came bak from ballet. shagged. i fell todae while i was doing a piroutte. so argh! and we did grand jetes in class todae. my first super adult class. i like grand jetes and mine was pretty decent todae. thankfully. posed on the barr todae. my toepads slipped causing my delicate fragile toes to rub continuously against the chu interior of my shoe. must be the shellec zai zuo sui. haiyohh... peter gave me the leotard. whee!! lalalalalla... wad homework do i have? english. didnt do anything todae. 'cept watch tv, sleep and going to the playground. bahh.. thank god i dont have much work to clear. guess wad, i got locked in just now. cos it was round eleven plus, so the place was all locked up. then all the automatic sliding glass doors were off and i couldnt go out! i went to the one at the side, at the front... it was all dark and creepy. and it didnt help tt the stoopid twenty-cent horse kept talking. it was a sesame street one with bert and ernie and it kept saying stoopid things with its voice. so loud, plus it echos in tt quiet place. dunno why but i was starting to shiver. was about to walk down to the basement carpark and go out from there..luckily i found a guard to turn the door on fer me. phew! i really shd go bathe soon.
whee!
my eyes are dry
and my face is smooth with makeup.
my toes are on the verge of bleeding.
my stomach is is bloated
and my hair is sleek.
i have a new leotard!
Monday, July 01, 2002
-gaSp- i just said bye to my dad! -gaSp-
whhhhhhhyyyyyyyyy??? wad's wrong with me?
out of no where i just blurted out "byebye.."
i think i'm losing it. -blinkk-
Blue skies smiling at me
Nothing but blue skies do i see
Birds singing a song
Nothing but blue birds all day long
Never saw the sun shining so bright
Never saw things going so right
Noticing the day, hurrying by
When you're in love
My how they fly
Blu daes, all of them gone
Nothing but blu skies
From now on
Green grass and the yellow sun
But no more grey clouds
To stop our fun
Somedae, who knows
We're sound like we're wrong
But we'll keep sining our happy song
Never saw the sun shining so bright
Never saw things going so right
Noticing the dae hurrying by
When you're in love
My how they fly
-wHee --
(r) rainbOw (R)
rainbow on a cloud.
floating tranquilly by
i want to be tt rainbOw.
i want a rainbow scarf.
i want farie wingss.
i want to feel icicles on my skin
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there's a castle on my computer. a castle right in the middle. the camera is hidden in the shadows of the woods... dark silhouettes of trees lined the boarder. tt castle somehow resembles oxford. i dont know why. but to me it looks similar. just read my princess jasmine story. nice. but so seemingly fake. her castle is much more modern that this one though. this one could easily be a few centuries old. yet, it looks so serene and peaceful. all it needs is a few bluebirds like those in snow white to complete the look. haha~ i still prefer beth's bryan story. tt one's sadd. if i were vulnerable, i might cry while reading it. makes me feel for the girl so ke lian. and smths, it reminds me of myself. -blinkk-- her eastcoast party story is nice too. but its more independant. the girl there at least. somehow makes me relate it to huimei. dont ask me why, it just does. bahh... thought of her todae. -wHee--
oh no.. why do pple think i'm troubled? help..
some say it's because i dont smile so much anymore. what is wrong with nort smiling? and i still do smile. except now its a real smile instead of a beam. trying to mellow down and be more mature tt's all. the only time i can truly laugh and grin is when i'm with my cousins, my jnrs and hk and bernice. esp hk and bernice. tt's why i like to go fer lunch with them and put up with hk's craziness. like yesterdae. yesterdae was much more re nao because timothy and matt matt went along too. but we didnt sit together. the table wasnt big enough. so everyone sat at a table at one end of the restuarant while my sisters and daniel and i sat at another table far away from them. this didnt stop us from running abt to each other's table. tengkok and his sister was fighting over my last two mouthful's of fish. so hilarious. imagine arguing over smth like this! hahaha~ -beam-- and later, timothy was sitting at my table watching me and bernice eat crab while all he had was his small cup of frozen yougart. and some girl which bernice thought was chio tried to pick him up! "timmie-c!" yeahhh... he was so disgusted k. but i wasnt! i was very amused. hiakhiakk. think those pple were hk's friends or sth. see wad i mean bout the whole world being related? ok...i was fooling around with daniel's sling while scraping my coconut clean. and then uncle alvin and co. came and started calling my sister 'michelle' (which is obviously nort her name). so gao xiao! then we met weiren and co. too. i want to be his flower girl!!! haha, of cos much more happened... but this is so far my most happening lunch. yeabba. if only we sat together k. it would have been much funner. boOo~~
and dears, dont be annoyed and keep thinking tt i'm full of problems. i assure you i'm not. i mean...with all these happy things going round me, how can i be?!? ya... true bliss resonates within me. -bOiink--