Summertime

Friday, April 30, 2004

me. me. me. me.
its all about me.
let's hope it stays this way. haha~

watched 'fify first dates' today. our trip was quite enjoyable, esp rapper. never laughed so much about smth this.. simple. :) the show was quite nice. erm.. i'm boring myself. throughout the show.. ok, at one part of it, i somehow was reminded and somehow it seemed quite nice. like, if only.. but i know its probably just wishful thinking on my part. we've been down that road before so i guess its nothing new. i still remember. i always do. it would be nice though, wouldnt it?

hmm.. dance night's coming and i'm glad she didnt forget. i'm quite excited. yayy!! next week i shall go back.

i should start dancing too. didnt go on thursday because.. well, it was too late by the time i remembered. heh~ keep forgeting so much these days. hmm.. -thinks- oh well, i've no need to hassle over my sister anymore. nmr.. oh, we got third for the fac run thing. real funny.. i mean, thanks ar. ran 3k just that morning and then you ask me to sprint. -wriggLe- they say i run funnily. and they say i run quite fast. bet they were probably expecting some slow pig or smth. let me say, looks can be deceiving.

let's go out tmr. i wanna eat cakes!

Monday, April 26, 2004

hmm.. and as aaron said, i agree that class was kinda fun today. -beams- quite strange though.. the stuff pple said bout me. -thinks- actually i would really like to know what yuehan said. i mean.. he repeated it twice. i just couldnt hear. and i also noticed he didnt look at me. or maybe i wasnt looking at him. now, dont be mistaken. he looked at everyone when he talked to them. so.. blah, you wouldnt understand.

let's recap. i thought pple would tell me bout: deco, children, and smth else i cant remb now.
but they said: dunno what - smth bout creativity, smth else i didnt hear, worship, children, youth.

worship? where did that come from.. but i think i wouldnt mind. and i'm quite pleased, timmy was strangely sincere about it as in more than usual. cool. go smell clinque's happy men. its a timmy scent. :)

today april said my new hairdo, or semblance of one was nice. that makes a grand total of four pple. the first being diane, third niggy, and fourth her. cant remb the second one though. if you happen to be it, do let me know k? -twirLs-

Saturday, April 24, 2004

out of sight, out of mind?
or so i thought.

Friday, April 23, 2004

i wanna be estee lauder or someone like her at least. do you know how much she's done?

i'm glad she chose wade to stay. i would have too even though the connection was less than that between the others. wade has everything i would ever look for. just perfect. honest, loyal, compassionate, lovable. i want wadeeee!

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

"but everyone is beautiful at the ballet
every prince has got to have his swan"

a song that allows you to savour the sad moments.

i was so distracted during econs today.

somehow through chem lect i heard sihuan say to me, "cheryl.. can you keep quiet, i want to listen." and i wasnt even talking.

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

ok i'm still at home cos i was sick this morning. which reminds me, i have to get a letter out. lazed around and slept alot today. ate so much more too.. cant help it when i'm just too pampered. sigh.. haha~

hmm.. surprisingly i dont know what i want to say. i've wasted two weeks away. dancenight was fun.. cant say it was particularly good but then again, you know my standard. :) but fun fun fun. hope you had as much fun as we had girl. rushed all over the place again and as usual our plan to reach early kinda flopped again. we had to take a cab. but then, what's new? -grin-

i was wondering if i would bump into her. the previous time we went together, as in yifen, her and i and jessica :) well, i did. i mean.. everyone has been seeing her cept me. so i guess its my turn now? ok, shant elaborate much here.

after watching it, i kind of wished otherwise. i always do. i mean.. i so want to be in mr chong's dance, even though he uses a lot of kurus, smth which i cannot take in large amounts. i mean.. wouldnt it be nice to hear him nyah-nyah-nyahing like a bee in your ear? wouldnt it be nice to put on those soft satin shoes? i dunno bout you but i miss it. so.. thursday i'm not going to pon class anymore. and i shall be mighty prepared for the talk about how fat i've become. -cuRtseY-

toodleloos.

Thursday, April 15, 2004

"just that you don't approach, but wait to be approached." hmm.. must say that there's some truth in that. never noticed it before actually. cool. but i wasnt really expecting that from him. -shrug- oh well.. happy birthday lionel, my bodyguard who is forever trying to put on weight.

today zheyi and hot were sending me msges tryign to be each other. never knew that hot's name was zheyi. interesting. its so.. un-him. zhe yi sounds strange over the phone. and i bumped into him in the morning too. it must be a zheyi day today!

new shoes. maybe i'll wear them tmr so i can wash my.. what shall i say.. my blue vintage ones. :) sherrill and i bought the same pair. lala~ i think i spent a tad too much. but i like..

today they left and i didnt even wish them a good trip or smth. all i said was "bye bye" and that was cos it was over the phone. blaehhh.. what sort of daughter am i?!

Monday, April 12, 2004

this is for you..
"but everything was beautiful at the ballet. graceful men lift lovely girls in want. yes, everything was beautiful at the ballet. i was happy at the ballet. up a steep and very narrow stairway, to the voice like a metronome. up a steep and very narrow stairway. it wasnt paradise but it was home.

today he asked me bout my ballet exam.
it got me thinking. i've never danced so badly before. even the time when i sprained my ankle seven seconds into the dance couldnt top that. sigh.. i've never come out of a performance feeling so crappy before. i've never cried after a performance in a long long time. i just hope i'll still manage to do well.

how was your's girl?

help.. i'm stuck in it again. looks like what siwei said has really come true. maybe i should stop talking to him. -haha-

beefcake rocks.

Sunday, April 11, 2004

i've had a great long weekend. so fun. so tiring. i'm worn out from playing too much that all the rest i've conserved from the week before is gone. dang! and i've sort of sprained my ankle again. only that the pain is slightly lower down. we were talking today and you guys say use tape. think i will jsut use my ankle guard anyhow, lazy me. so i guess that means no pe tmr. :/ sort of looking forward to it actually, esp after this loong weekend of sugary stuff. ack! let's see if i can finish my prac early tmr, i wanna go down and watch! everyone ends early except me. -pOut- unfair.

i wonder if captain is in ocs. i mean.. everyone else is. hmm.. -ponders-

-whispers- angel. you just know me so well. "am i that transparent?"

sirui is in ocs. i saw his brother today.
zheyi. if that's how it's spelled. cute. in every aspect of the word. but then again. he's just.. nmind. :)

Thursday, April 08, 2004

i've tried to be less mean so i waved a few times today. does that count?

oh, it so happens that he tends to walk pass each time i'm with lionel so i just pretend not to see without knowing it. am i making any sense? argh.. i dunno what i'm up to man. :/

looks like there's no openhouse this sunday. dang! plus i felt lazy today. -cringe- i was so looking forward to it. oh well..

Saturday, April 03, 2004

shit. cheryl is one mean person.

i really like this. been to read it a few times cos.. i dunno why too. better store it here for easier access and it case i cant find it anymore :)

"Berkeley doesn't want me. It was my favourite. Anyone who's anything in intellectual property is there. And the application forms had such a nice font some more. But I am not 40 out of 700+.

"Blerrk. I am shit. I am dung. I am worse than William Hung."

do you know smth? ratface looked cute today. even more so with the big helmet. see, even michelle agrees.

Friday, April 02, 2004

wanted another butterfly one but decided against it. how's this?

i'm sitting home on a friday night feeling lost. just devoured so much i feel dissapointed. never been home this early before. it feels strange and almost surreal like some sort of film that i can pause any moment. my phone beeped its constant reminder and christina msged to asked if i was going early. dont think i'll turn that thing off. i'll just leave it till i feel like moving on.

Thursday, April 01, 2004

did you know the night before i was actually excited and kind of looking forward to my exams? strange.

its so sweet of micheal to send us an email. maybe i wouldnt mind dancing with him again. i hope.

how can i appear on a san franciscan tv show if i'm in singapore? haha, smths i can get thoroughly amused easily.

i do hope you would really stop saying stuff in such a tone. i only missed one session cos i injured myself. please..

from my head to my heart
can't seem to find a way they're so far apart
it's not you, it's not your fault
you've got everything i could ever want
and you've always understood my intentions are good
we've been close from the start
but the furthest distance i've ever known is
from my head to my heart

dunno why but this catchy tune cant seem to find a way out of my head. today was good. i saw everyone i wanted to see. didnt wish angel a happy birthday though. -shrug- oh well.. happy birthday angel.

i needed a hug this morning. just felt so so so down. must be those tears last night. timely. everything seems to fit in so well, like one orchestrated piece. my skirt broke the moment i steped out of the studio. i dunno why, guess we overworked. or maybe it was just me. this always happens but this time it wasnt just the cramps in my legs but my body felt wrong too, i was just too tired mentally and physically even after having an early night plus naps. urgh.. i hope i do well. i really really do. -prays- and yes, i get carried away. i didnt get my hug today. it didnt help that the whole world was ignoring me. -blink- i guess it was my fault for being so caught up in my own glass world these past few weeks. i'm not expecting everyone to give me attention when i want some but it just kinda sucks. i want to pout, to crawl under the covers with a book and a glass of milk. today i didnt feel like thinking. but when they came i had no choice. i just watched and thought. guess it sort of took my mind off things. it made me smile a little. ever since beefcake asked me, it has always been on my mind. up to now, i have yet to find a suitable answer. i dunno what's happening.

oh yes, thanks everyone for all the well wishes. it really made my day. i felt so loved and glad. thanks xm and gang, gina, niggy, knight, michelle, yunhua, cat, waichee.. aiyah, everyone. you know who you are :) thanks so much. thanks for all the help.

oh, dont get tricked by the new swensen's icecream menu. the portions are so small.. cuilian and i were like.. "that's it? i want some more!" haha. i love my group. they will be someone i know i wont forget. heck, i love my whole class. you guys rock. i mean, we wont dance like this again. a class all to ourselves, the colours, the meals, the complaining about lousy sonata, the laughing at each other, the late nights and stuff.. its all happening too fast. i'm not ready for it. i want audrey to continue telling me that i'm really alright. i want cuilian to tell me my hand and wrist is wrong, my jete flicks. i want esther to say i should smile more. i want to tell her the arabasque is turned in, the arms are soft. i want to say you have the best demi and the best dramatic. i want to laugh and scold her for her retarded timing. we want to laugh over mr alex again. "can you stop it? if you like it, go marry him la.." still remb that? i hope you do, and everything too forever and ever.

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