Friday, July 30, 2004
22:27
ha ha ha. just wrote a nice long entry bout blisters and me. it got wiped away. stupid blogger. its just too bad i suppose.
22:27
hooray for the ginormous blister on my heel. -claps- i must have looked like an idiot hobbling round school today. qingyao was the first person who asked me what was wrong. and i dont usually talk to him. i must have looked terribly stupid. i must have been too, for choosing to wear shoes over my sandals. i mean.. i already had problems stuffing my foot in even when they're half a size too large. so basically i spent the entire time in pain and moving at snail's pace.
when i took my shoe off for dance, i noticed blood stains all over. found it quite curious because, i only had another open blister on my toe. it stained the tissue i put on top of my plasters. hmm.. anyhow, dancing was a chore. thankfully ipsp set in towards the end so i was able too look normal.
upon reaching home, i removed all plasters except for the pretty blue snoopy ones fro waichee. (thanks so much girl!) it was.. gross. the thing on my heel is three quarters the size of my thumb and currently stained bright red. i can see it drying out and it hurts again to bend my heel. i really hope i can last for tmr's performance.
its strong mental over everything. like i told niggy, mind over matter. recently my mental has dropped. but i suppose its picking up from the look of my blister. i mean, how did you think i had this thing in the first place? so, painkillers two hours before, just in case. hope i remember. and not to wince at the searing pain. hope i remember too.
last dance tmr.. i cant wait.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
17:55
cbno cbno cbno cbno.
lalala.. -twirls- i keep telling everyone. its just so.. fun. -beams- i never knew he spoke so much and was so full of crap. but then again, i dont know many things. cbno cbno cbno cbno. -bOunce-
Sunday, July 25, 2004
17:31
bio test tmr and i've four more sets of notes to go. studied a little at the little deli this morning. its nice and relaxing. too bad my brain got fried five pages into my notes.. didnt manage to finish much. thankfully the catalogue i received this morning managed to square this up a little..
frankly i dunno what i just said. woke up bout half an hour ago and i'm still dazed.
let's see..
- i wore my gorgeous leotard yesterday. thought i had to pamper myself for waking up so early. i mean, reaching school at six forty five? woah..
- dance was fun yesterday. maybe its because i didnt have to be anything.. just relaxed and took tonnnes of photos. the weather helped too :) and maybe so did cbno.
- mass dance yesterday was ok. i was so tired that it drained me to act enthu. suprisingly, many told me that it was fun. could have fooled me, from the way i saw it last night. we cut out the bridge and didnt finish the song. guess our failing moods must have blurred judgement on their level of enjoyment last night.. oh well
- i like my pink grapefruit skirt. even though, koen says i look like hello kitty.
- feel like i'm gonna tip of my chair any moment now..
- watched my first ever judo match on thursday. maybe we lost, but i still think they did a great job. after so much failure, i guess i've learnt to take it less seriously now. such things are subjective, and winning is up to one or a two pple to decide. its how you look at it i suppose.
- i hope i dont get infatuated. it can be frustrating.
- sometimes i dunno what to make out of things. do i just follow my intuition? or judge with my head.. if i do, then can i take the signals at face value? or must they be buffered due to excitement in the situation. i dunno if i should even read anything into it at all. oh well, it was fun with my compliment and all. guess i dont really talk to them much..
- what's up with my camera. hmm.. been bringing it around to get photos with the dancers. only a while more before we officially stop seeing each other. yet, all i've taken are funny photos with my classmates and of my blowpen pictures. when i go for dance, or when we take group shots for the school mag, i leave my cam at home. whatssup with that..
- beefcake says i'm shy. am i? hmm.. maybe a little i suppose. maybe a lot.
- i dont want to be a princess anymore. i just want to be good. what's up with my footwork and all. why cant i get anything perfect. maybe i should try to have better landings and turn a better left turn. maybe then my supported turns wont be this horrid.
oh well.. been eating all sorts of jello and puddings since the trip back from the latin deli. its really quite nice. wonder why i've never noticed it before. all that ran through my mind was.. pectin.
Saturday, July 17, 2004
14:05
a lot has happened. i'm sick. didnt go for dance this morning. ack!
so..
happy things:
watching 'mean girls'. its good.
cbno talking to me. hahahaha~
spending time with the dancers on wednesday.
my finger piroutte :)
painful thing:
my toes
scary:
when i thought i misplaced grace's cheque. i mean, you just dont do things like this.
bad:
wasting my entire night away sleeping. slept for fifteen hours straight. my melatonin level must be sky high.
confusing:
three pple asking me to watch king arthur. i want to. but i was planning to settle down. how?
do i want to go to medical school? i know i want to, but i want to do so many other things as well.. if i do, i will be far from getting my one million i told ratface i'll acheive. hmm..
sad:
being close to broke
dance handover. our term just passed so fast.
angry:
my lack of determination
strong mental. it needs to toughen up. how could i only focus on the pain and neglect the task before me.
frivolous:
i want that pink beagle bag.
things to be done:
decide if i'm going for ballet.
choreograph mass dance!
studystudystudyyyy..
Thursday, July 08, 2004
22:20
i've lost control of everything.
goodbye cheryl.
Sunday, July 04, 2004
22:35
when i stepped out of the train i hope i didnt make anyone wait long. that's what i dont like bout punctual pple. rushed up the escalator and through the ticket barrier, then i turned to my left and sort of semi collided with this familar looking face. slightly taken aback by the familiarity yet i couldnt quite place my finger on what it was. before i knew it, all sort of images flooded mt mind. white chocolate frap.
its nice to pple you never thought you'd meet again.
hi.
22:25
i'm falling. ahh! get a grip on urself, girl.
he has angelic fingers.
since yh is probably 'catching up on his work', i shall start studying for prac too. knew going out between papers wasnt a good idea. i need more motivation.
Thursday, July 01, 2004
23:00
lazy me didnt go even though xiaoxuan told me to. anyhow, i sort of was planning to until i reached home and realised we had guests. it was about ten minutes before class started. lousy me. ate like a pig. ack! on the brighter side, i've got new shoes! they're so hard i bet they wont ever wear out. good. now lets hope my toes are equally tough.
she sounds so excited. i'm feeling utterly garrish. perhaps its because i wasnt part of the fun. maybe its cos i'm just stoned. weili syndrome. no more adrenaline. i know i keep asking but i really wonder if i look terrible. i know pple have the impression that i have early nights so why do i get so many questions about.. bah. i cant think. it has been more than twenty four hours since i last slept. yes, i didnt sleep in mcq this time. haha~
brain dead but active.
happy stuff happened. but i'm numb. i'll feel tmrw.
